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Sorry we’ve been so inactive , moving and host dealing with break up and new kitten

#I see the rize ask I promise she will get to you

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based off live experiences happening in the brain rn

#plural reminder

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i actively pretend i have an audience at all times

sitting in bed watching youtube? im actually a commentary channel reacting to it

playing video games alone? im a twitch streamer talking to the chat

picking an outfit? i pretend im asking for my friend's advice on what to wear

literally anything happening that i can't yet share with another person? im planning the conversation in my head

#😳😳😳

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#feelings

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Happy disabled pride month! I’ve noticed people tend to summarize DID in two ways. They either completely incorrectly summarize it as the horrible and ableist depictions of it in media (you know what I mean DID serial killers, people who are evil and it gave them DID that sort of nonsense). Or they summarize it only slightly incorrectly as like. Just having roommates in your head. And I’d like to talk about this.

While headmates/alters are much more like brain roommates than anything else, I think it’s important to highlight that DID does also come with debilitating symptoms that get left out in a lot of the posts I’ve seen. I’m sure I’m not the first to point this out, but I still want to post about it. And also I highly encourage further research on this if you actually want to learn. PLEASE do not get all your DID info from my tumblr posts. This is from my experience and perspective.

Anyway. DID tends to come with some degree of memory loss. For me it impacts my long term memory and short term memory especially when I’m dissociating. DID also comes with dissociation. If you don’t know much about dissociation, look it up. It’s not just spacing out for a few seconds. It’s a trauma response and my dissociative periods can last days, are very hard to form memories during, and are extremely hard on me. And I’ve known DID systems who have experienced much longer dissociative periods. As for my long term memory, after so many years, stuff just starts fading out. And it is genuinely, extremely distressing. People have recounted entire events to me and what I did there that I just don’t remember. Sometimes, alters will disagree on something and that can be very hard. Sometimes, some alters will remember things that others don’t. For my system, some symptoms of other mental health conditions will be more prevalent. One of my alters has an incredibly hard time with tone and vague language while others struggle less.

And every DID system is different!

So please. Be more understanding of memory issues and dissociation. Make sure to ask about and understand the boundaries of the system you’re talking to! Some alters are not comfortable being known by more than a couple people or have specific mental health struggles.

Most systems I’ve met are not comfortable being outed as a system without permission! And don’t do it!! Unless that system explicitly says you can tell someone!!!

And remember. The symptoms of DID impact the system first and foremost. If you feel inconvenienced by a system’s memory struggles or additional symptoms from other mental health things like issue with tone and attention span etc. it’s important to remember that however inconvenienced you may feel is nothing compared to actually experiencing that symptom. So be patient and be kind.

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I got to play for 3 hours!!! I would love to bake cupcakes in real life too, hopefully I can ask the host to put it on our shopping list!! I really love papa’s cupcakeria and once I beat it, I’ll pick another papa game to play 🌸🧁

#cocoaposting #fictive #plural system #system member #system headmate #fictive stimboard #cocoa hoto #actuallydid #did fictive

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I started playing papa’s cupcakeria when fronting ! The host even drew art of me in uniform but wants to digitalize it before I can post it ^^ 🌸🐇

#cocoaposting #fictive #plural system #system member #system headmate #actuallydid #cocoa hoto #did fictive #fictive stimboard

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The host has been so busy and when we front we have to help, it’s been exhausting and we can only hope things slow down before surgery at the end of next month.

#txt #multimindposting

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Me: why am I suddenly rlly invested into this anime I already watched ages ago, what’s going on

The introjects I’ve had from said show since we watched it lurking in the background: :]

#actuallydid #just introject things #fictive #shitpost

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self care for : squid girl (shinryaku! ika musume) with seafood snacks, squids, fidgets, squishies, and ocean themes requested by @bugfictives

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#squid girl #buying all of these immediately

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self care for : rize tedeza (the order is a rabbit?; fictive) with meaty snacks, black bunnies, and puzzles/workbooks requested by @bugfictives

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#rize tedeza #for us #J LOVE LOVE LOVE THESE THEY WILL LOVE THE WORK BOOKS AND PLUSH SO MUCH

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The trip is almost over which means we can all start fully fronting again! The host has made amazing cheap food along side all the restaurants and I am really loving the recipe inspiration! Can’t wait to try cooking them myself!

#syaroposting #syaro kirima #fictive #plural system #system member #system headmate #did fictive #actuallydid

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ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆ Syaro Kirima Stimboard ﾟ☾ ﾟ｡⋆

#mine #syaro kirima #fictive #plural system #fictive stimboard #system member #system headmate #did fictive #actuallydid

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Hot pot 🍲

#rizeposting #hot pot

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kumachan onsen , a bear-themed hot pot restaurant in japan !! the bears are made out of a collagen jelly that melts when it’s heated up, making up the broth of the hot pot ! source | source | source

#rizeposting #stim #kumachan onsen #hot pot

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Sukiyaki beef udon

#rizeposting #udon #noodles #hot pot

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Yo! Rize here, I’m here to clean for the host and prepare everything for the big day tomorrow! Kind of excited to be fully fronting for the first time, Cocoa has had alot of fun and I think it’s my turn !!

#rize tedeza #fictive #plural system #system member #did fictive #actuallydid