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I just read through my singular Byler fic and it’s so bad. I have so much love for my Stenbrough fics but the one Byler one I wrote is so much more popular because well, ST is a lot more popular

#I miss when the IT fandom was big #If only I started writing during that time #seriously the Byler one is so bad #I can never get their characters right #that’s why I gave up on a different one I was trying to write #I love Mike Wheeler but I cannot write him

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I was listening to

The entire time when proof reading the most recent chapter of FILFST so just for that, Those Eyes is Stenbrough first dance song at their wedding

#it 2017 #bill denbrough #stanley uris #it fandom #it 2019 #stenbrough #losers club #FILFST #Spotify

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FINALLY POSTED A CHAPTER

After months I have finally continued writing! It might be to distract myself from stressing about my enzyme kinetics presentation but it’s something

#bill denbrough #stan uris #stanbrough #FILFST

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After months I have finally continued writing! It might be to distract myself from stressing about my enzyme kinetics presentation but it’s something

#bill denbrough #it fandom #stanley uris #stenbrough #FILFST

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Writers block go brrr

#I have been in a cycle of wanting to write but not feeling like it/having no ideas #I had a bike ride today and thought of a Janley AU so I’m currently bulleting that but I don’t want to even start it till I finish FILFST #If I start something else I know I will not finish it #The worst part is I have scenes I want to write but they won’t turn out how I want them to #FILFST #stenbrough #stanbrough #someone pls let me borrow some motivation I’m begging

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Loser’s Club as Very Specific Sensory Issues because I have Sensory Issue’s

Also known as me heavily projecting onto my comfort characters. Also brief Stenbrough cause I love them.

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Bill: Loud noises. For obvious reasons Bill hates storms so the rain and especially thunder tip him off, but anything resembling thunder can also freak him out. For example loud music with a lot of drumming (I was in marching band for years and drumline alone would probably give him a panic attack. I hate drumline). He doesn’t like concerts or movies in theaters because of how strong the sounds are without him being able to control it. Headphones are ok because he can lower it when he chooses, though he prefers to just mute out any sound with ear plugs rather than mute out outside sounds with music unless the drumming in the song is very light and slow. If he can’t do either he likes to lay his head on Stan’s chest or just another loser if Stan’s not around so he can hear their heartbeat. The steadiness helps calm him down while reassuring him they are alive and well. 

Stan: Being touched. There are very few exceptions where Stan is comfortable with touch and he is more comfortable with certain losers touching him over others. He is most comfortable with Bill least comfortable with Richie. (Full scale: Bill, Mike, Ben, Bev, Eddie, Richie) Richie calls it favoritism but its mostly on a scale of movement. Bill is very stable with Stan, making sure to limit his movements. Also he has been helping Stan become more comfortable with casual affection as Bill is very affectionate. Going along with the previous when Bill lays on him it is a comfort for both as Bill can hold onto him while Stan is on the outside able to push him off if needed rather than feeling surrounded. Ben and Mike are just very stable on their own. Beverly is in the middle, she can be still if needed but prefers not to. While Eddie and Richie on the other hand can’t sit still to save their lives and the sudden and relentless movements freak Stan out. When hugging someone his arms have to be the one on the outside, if they are on the inside he feels trapped.

Chewing Noises. He can’t stand any sort of chewing noises and has to stop eating if he can hear himself or someone else chewing. He immediately loses his appetite at the sound no matter if he is in the middle of eating or is about to eat. Saliva in general also grosses him out. For example if a dog drools on him or is excessively drooling in general he loses his appetite as well.

Eddie: Food textures. Eddie is not a picky eater taste wise but the texture could completely make or break it. He hates jello. He refuses to even touch it with his finger. Also he hates excessive oil. If he can feel the oil on his fingers after touching it, then it’s too much. (You know those frosting that leave a film on your tongue? Yeah I hate those and so does he). If he doesn’t like the texture of a food he will completely refuse to eat it.

Richie: Too tight or too loose shoes. He is constantly tying and untying his shoes as they are never perfect. Also it’s a nervous habit. He mostly despises too tight of shoes but fears if they aren’t tight they will fall off when he runs so he is always trying to find the balance between the two. This also applies to button ups. He always leaves them unbuttoned because he fiddles with the top button if it’s fully done up. On the occasion he has to dress nice he hates the top button. When it’s undone it feel too loose and rubs at his skin, but if it’s buttoned it feels like it’s choking him.

Beverly: Fabrics. She hates anything knitted, (Seriously knitted clothing and blankets feel horrible and I will die on this hill. I also can’t stand the feeling of jeans so I’m choosing to ignore her overalls). She exclusively wears faux denim as real denim makes her itch. She both hates and loves dresses. She hates them because of the objectification when she wears them but loves them because there is less fabric touching her and if it does it is very brief so as long as the top is comfortable she doesn’t have to worry about the bottom.

Ben: Tight clothing. He can’t stand the feeling of restriction tight clothes cause, especially on his legs. He hates the way pants tighten on his thighs when he bends his knees thus wears either very loose thin pants or shorts. (There’s this pair of pants I own that never tighten on my thighs no matter how I sit and I love them) He also cannot stand long socks, they squeeze his calfs too much. 

Mike: Smoke. Any bit of smoke makes him cough and along with that sometimes strong smells do too, like a really strong candle. He hates cities because of the amount of cigarette smoke and if he sees someone smoking he holds his breathe until they pass or he passes them. He cannot sit close to the fire and especially cannot sit in the direction the smoke is blowing.

Can you tell I project myself onto Stan highly? 

#I started getting lazy towards the end #I was feeling overwhelmed and decided to project #cause what better way than dealing with your issues than forcing fictional characters to deal with them too #it 2017 #it 2019 #it fandom #it headcanons #losers club #losers club headcanons #bill denbrough #stanley uris #stenbrough #because its me #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #his i relate to the least i just didnt know what to put for him #the button thing is real tho #i only button my button ups fully because i always wear a tie with them #beverly marsh #i fucking hate jeans #ben hanscom #pants never fit me right because of my body type so i usually give up and wear shorts instead #mike hanlon #my parents trust me not to smoke cause i cough whenever anyone near me is smoking

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stan @ reddie

#i love him sm #Stanley Uris my beloved #you will always be famous #it 2017 #it 2019 #stan uris #stanley uris #op’s art

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I cannot express my hatred for the famous Reddie fanfic nickname for Richie that is ‘Chee’. I can’t even explain why but i hate it. I think it’s cause it was started when infantilizing and feminizing Eddie was a big thing. Aka the pastel uwu skirts Eddie x bad boy always smoking Richie.

Anyways I vote to let that nickname die. Thank you.

#Im not in the mood to argue so #don’t like don’t read #It’s giving the shitty gay Gacha videos on YouTube #if you know what I mean I’m sorry #when I was big into Reddie I read Wattpad fics cause I didn’t know about ao3 #so I definitely got hit with a big wave of bad boy x soft boi #once i discovered ao3 it was a bit better but that nickname was everywhere #i discovered Stenbrough through ao3 Reddie fics tho #and now Im obsessed with Stenbrough #so I guess I should thank Reddie for that ajdjjwj #it 2017 #it 2019 #it fandom #losers club #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #reddie #pls don’t make me regret tagging y’all

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the losers do powerpoint night

stan goes first, his presentation is titled ‘the losers as bird species’. they’re all really niche species and nobody really understands what he’s saying, but his reasons are really accurate and he finds himself pretty funny.

bill is next, his is short but sweet and simply describes his ideas for the losers’ next days out. everybody gets excited discussing plans, dates, similar alternatives, and eventually all of the ideas he puts forward do happen (and they all enjoy them very much).

ben and eddie have collaborated on theirs to create ‘the losers as disney characters’. unbeknownst to them until now, ben has spent painstaking hours photoshopping each of the losers’ faces onto each of their assigned characters, which everybody finds incredibly funny. it’s also highly obvious that ben was the one to assign ariel to bev, whilst it was eddie who chose vanellope von schweetz for richie.

mike presents his top five derry conspiracy theories, which isn’t actually as boring as you’d expect from the title. he presents each and every point with genuine detail and has clearly done his research, but the theories themselves are so ridiculous you can’t help but laugh. he’s fully aware of this and makes it clear that of course he doesn’t seriously believe in them (okay, maybe one or two of them).

bev and richie’s joint project finishes the night (after having begged everybody to let them go last, convinced that theirs is a high note to end on). the duo present ‘the losers as our favourite memes’, and proceed to spam their eyes with the most chaotic tik toks, textposts and cursed images. they both claim they worked very very hard on this and that they should be taken completely seriously, but their powerpoint actually takes the longest to present since they can’t help but crease up laughing for a full minute every time they change the slide.

#me and my irl friends do slides nights all the time #so I am in love with this #my most reason was ‘letters of the English alphabet rated from least sexy to sexiest’ #it 2017 #it 2019 #it fandom

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I feel like Stan would be a really good mixologist for no reason. Whenever the losers want to drink they will just goes to Stan’s instead of the bar. He acts annoyed but he enjoys showing off

#adult losers club #he will never share his secrets #not even to Bill #he is too scared after Bill tried once and put way too much fucking vodka #surprisingly the worst at making drinks is Eddie #he always freaks himself out in the process #it 2017 #it 2019 #it fandom #losers club #it headcanons #yes this is cause of the one scene in my fic where Stan mixes a shit drink at frat but not frat party #cry about it #stanley uris #bill denbrough #stenbrough #because everything with me is stenbrough even if it’s not #ben hanscom #beverly marsh #eddie kaspbrak #mike hanlon #richie tozier

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So apparently there is a clown in IT and apparently it's like the main conflict or something.

#Really? I think I might have missed it #i thought it was about a group of ambiguisly queer teens coming of age #a cute found family film #it #it 2017 #it 2019 #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #beverly marsh #bill denbrough #stan uris #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #losers club #the losers club #it fandom

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I finished the chapter! Well in actuality I finished it Saturday but didn’t get to post it till now but that’s besides the point. It is basically all fluff so enjoy that.

So I just finished the confession scene in my fic, and I’m so excited to share it I think it is very cute. I just have to finish the second scene of that chapter so we’ll see how long that takes

#filfst #stenbrough #it fanfiction #it fandom #it 2017 #it 2019 #bill denbrough #stanley uris #i just love them so much #I want them to be happy #stanbrough #I forgot people refer to stenbrough as stanbrough as well

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Feeling silly rn

#TAKING A BATH PLS #I love how some of these are the most high def ever #and then some look like me zooming in on a video just to watch one person #which to be fair was probably the case #it very much adds to the aesthetic tho #barbie poster #it 2017 #itmovie #it 2019 #it #it stephen king #bill denbrough #stanley uris #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #beverly marsh

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So I just finished the confession scene in my fic, and I’m so excited to share it I think it is very cute. I just have to finish the second scene of that chapter so we’ll see how long that takes

#stenbrough #bill denbrough #stanley uris #it 2017 #it fandom #losers club #FILFST #also I’m gonna start adding that tag to any posts about my fic #the title is way to long to not abbreviate

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If you sit there and try to tell me every single one of the losers didn’t have a crush on Bill, you are wrong. Objectively and subjectively you are wrong.

#I don’t care what you hc their sexualities to be #Bill defies the rules of sexuality #You hc Ben as straight? okay but Bill made him question that #You hc Bev as lesbian? Bill is the reason she questioned it #It’s the law of the losers club #you can’t join unless you were in love/had a crush on Bill at some point #bill denbrough #it 2017 #stanley uris #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #beverly marsh #losers club #it fandom

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This post is just going to be me rambling so feel free to ignore it unless you want to hear me be sad about dying fandoms.

The IT fandom is so dead unless it’s connected to stranger things and it very sad to me. Whenever I see anything IT related blow up it’s always because it’s a ST crossover or the Finn Wolfhard effect.

I enjoy both pieces of media don’t get me wrong, but I also want to enjoy them separately. The stranger things fandom is very active rn, so it’s not surprising to see other things tied into it especially IT which has always been connected to it, it’s just very sad for me to see the IT fandom so dead, especially since it’s such a big one for me.

Even Reddie which has always been the biggest portion of the fandom has been pretty dead at least from what I’ve seen, though I haven’t really been active in the Reddie scene for years.

IT is the the one piece of media I turn back to just as strong as when I first got into it. While any other fandom I’ve been in has been strong when I was first in it but then lost part of its appeal when I turn back to it (which might just be a me thing idk). I guess I just love it so much I want to be able to share that love with other people but most have moved on or turned to something else and I just wish I could bond more with a larger group.

There’s something special about being able to bond with people even when you topic is so underground for lack of better word, yet it’s also great to see something you have put so much time and thought in being enjoyed by a large amount of people.

I wasn’t that active on social media when I first got into the fandom so I never experienced it at it’s peak which could go for most of the fandoms I’ve been in in the past. I tried getting as into stranger things as I was in the past but it’s very hard for me and I always end up back here.

Well that’s all for my ramblings tonight.

#I just get sad sometimes seeing old posts from when the fandom was so alive #I missed so much of it that I feel like I’m contributing to something barely holding on #it 2017 #losers club #stenbrough #reddie #bill denbrough #stanley uris #eddie kaspbrak #richie tozier #ben hanscom #mike hanlon #beverly marsh #it fandom #stranger things fandom #i guess #please don’t make me regret tagging y’all

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I just got back from a trip but I’m gonna try to write now so let’s see when I’ll be able to post the next chap.

Also, writers block is a bitch.

#it 2017 #stenbrough #also just general issues with motivation #i have so many cute ideas but I need to get through this one chapter to get there #i would say I’ll make this one short but it’s already longer than planned #FILFST