babyboyterrence

[babyboyterrence]

Where I am at now in life… I know I’m not strong… I am broken… I know I’m a mistake… I smoke cigarettes everyday because its A way I can shorten my life and become closer to death. But one day I will end it all. And I will be happy. In my mind I am chilling in a empty room sitting on a cot… next to me I am sitting next to myself talking to myself… telling myself your day will come. Life sucks and it’s terrible… the pain hurts… I am tired.. very tired… I just want all this feeling and heart break to go away. I just want to be left alone… I know once I die I will hurt those who care and love me… but what about me I know I will be happy and released from pain… I will be up in heaven chilling with Suki… playing fortnite…

[babyboyterrence]

I feel like the world would be better if I just die..

[babyboyterrence]

I was always told to write my thoughts down in a journal… but I remember watching a documentary and a girl was using tumblr to express her feelings so I figure why not?… I don’t need any followers.. i don’t care for that. Whoever reads this, go ahead be my guess. I don’t know you… you don’t know me… you’ll only know the demons that goes on in my head…

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[babyboyterrence]

19September2021,

it sucks so bad waking up from a dream and your not there… hurts so much when you think about the mistakes you made wishing you could go back and change it. I’m willing to give up my life so I can be with you again… if life is so hard does that make death easy?…

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