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I hope I was your favorite crime

#feeling fucking hurt by a bitch #it’s okay #because I think I’m in a better place now #I regret dating you… #all the things I did #Just so you would be happy with me #I sacrificed myself for you #and you’re coming away from it like you’re the victim #fuck you

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Can you fucking imagine

#I’m angry #not at you #I’m just angry #I need to scream #I need to cry #and I can’t do that around you #I need to deal with my emotions #and I need you to never ask me how I’m doing #I need you to never ask me about anything music related #I need you to never ask me about my insecurities #because I’ll explode #and I’ll feel bad

[asadfuckingtime]

Of course I don’t want to feel better.

Can you fucking imagine?

#/lyrics #god I’m such a fuck up #I’m sorry #I know that I’m going to fuck up again and you’ll #you’ll break it off #and I won’t blame you #because who wants to date such a fuck up #I’m not enough for you #I love you more than anything else in this life #I really do #but #I’m so bad at being in a relationship #and I’m sorry

[asadfuckingtime]

I wish people would use /nm more because as a nd person, that’s the one I have the most trouble with, telling when people are aggravated or annoyed and using /nm would help

#/nbh #vague vent

[asadfuckingtime]

As long as you’re happy

I don’t care

#im a terrible person #I’m a terrible partner #maybe #maybe I should just #yknow #break it off #for your sake #you obviously don’t want me anymore #I’m sorry #as long as you’re happy

[asadfuckingtime]

Don’t look, you’ll feel worse.

#am i bad for you #I can’t help but think I am #I don’t know why you’re still with me #but I love you for it #I’m sorry #i get it if you don’t want to be with me anymore #I wouldn’t want to be with me either

[asadfuckingtime]

I’m losing face

#it’s been so long since I’ve posted here #or anywhere else on tumblr honestly #god I hope you don’t see this #I’m just so stressed #and I don’t want you to know #because you’ll blame yourself #and it’s not your fault #I don’t want you to feel worse

[asadfuckingtime]

Well, sometimes I am

#I hate it here #why do I have to be thinking about them still #none of them deserve the time of day from me

[asadfuckingtime]

Tonight’s going to be fun

#stress plus sadness plus knowing that I was a shit partner today plus the intense desire to listen to sad music #I’m going to lose my fucking mind #violently sobbing night #Kal I’m so sorry #I know I was shitty #I promise it wasn’t you #and I feel really bad

[asadfuckingtime]

When your anxiety tics stop and then you realize it and they start again

#fuck me #I hate it here

[asadfuckingtime]

I hate this fucking family :))))

#fucking bully me into not wanting to do something and then get mad when I don’t want to do it #oh!!! I want to do this!! #fuck that you baby I can’t believe you #oh I don’t want to do that anymore #why would you do that we’re just messing around #like fuck of #I can’t do anything right

[asadfuckingtime]

If I tell my teachers I was up violently sobbing, will they go easy on me

#fUCK #I HATE MYSELF #I DONT BELONG HERE #IM USELESS #WORTHLESS #FUCK #I meant it when I said I was sobbing but #it’s okay if you just wanted to be rid of me for the night #I get it #if you’re reading this #I still love you #it’s okay #you’re an amazing boyfriend

[asadfuckingtime]

n u m b h o u r s

#sad music and self doubt #god I need a hug #or some moral support

[asadfuckingtime]

Do I need more verbal reassurance and general love or am I just being an attention whore

#god #please someone compliment me

[asadfuckingtime]

Thinking about the people I’ve cut out of my life and missing them and trying very hard not to reach out to any of them

#FUCK #THERES A REASON I CUT THEM OUT #I feel guilty for missing them #because I shouldn’t #ugh #I hate it here

[asadfuckingtime]

im worried

that one day

i wont be able to

give you what you want

i wont 

be

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[asadfuckingtime]

im worried one day youll wake up and say

i dont love you like i did yesterday