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Fallen Star - Matt Sturniolo

Warnings: swearing, mental health issues on readers end, fluff, comforting Matt, NO Y/N (your name is Scarlet in this), and that's about it.

Summary: When you start to fall into your seasonal depression, Matt's the first person to always know and be right by your side the whole time.

Everything written is fictional and no events nor personalities of the people are real. again, PURELY FICTION!

- STORY UNDER THE CUT -

Winter had started, and so had what everyone likes to call seasonal depression. I no longer had any motivation to do anything in the world. Waking up was an inconvenience, physically getting up was difficult, talking to people was a nightmare.

I was supposed to be helping the boys with their channel but I genuinely had no motivation or interest in helping recently. Chris had called me, and so had Nick and Matt. I never answered a single call.

I felt awful not answering them, but I didn't have the energy nor heart and tone to answer them. I know I'd sound like my childhood dog had just died and I didn't want them to hear or see me like that.

The weather outside is the only thing keeping me going right now. It's cold, and it's been snowing recently. I climbed out of bed and went to go put on thick sweatpants and a hoodie Matt had left at my house a couple weeks ago.

I walked outside and let out a sigh of relief to see the snow slowly falling and the wind slightly blowing against my cheeks. My phone vibrated in my pocket. It was Matt calling me. I answered the phone and put it up to my ear.

"Scarlet...are you ok?" Matt asked with a worried tone.

Letting out a breathily laugh I responded, "Never been better Matt."

I heard Matt sigh over the phone before he spoke. "I can see you. I'm parking to your right. You're not ok, get in the damn car."

My head shot towards the direction he had said and sure enough, there he was sitting in the car with the phone up to his ear looking at me with the most pitying look you've ever seen.

I felt tears well up in my eyes knowing he's seeing me. Like THIS. I didn't want him to see me like this at all. But slowly I walked towards his car trying not to let these tears fall.

Matt got out and greeted me with a tight and long hug. I had never felt so safe and at calm than I did now. The hug was painful as ever too though. Knowing he was going to be here to see me break down and lose all hope.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Matt asked still embracing me.

I just cried into his chest, unable to form an answer to his question at that exact moment.

"You know you can always tell me anything right? I'll never judge you for anything." Matt stated quietly, but just enough for me to hear him.

I nodded my head still not letting go. Matt softly brushed his fingers through my hair still holding me tight in a comforting and warm way.

"I wanted to...I just didn't have the heart. I didn't want to burned you guys with my problems or anything." I told him, finally letting go.

My eyes were puffy and I knew my nose and cheeks were red from not only crying but because of the snow as well. He looked down at me with yet another pitying look on his face.

"Please Scarlet, you'd never be a bother to us. Especially not me. I know what you're going through trust me, I'll always be here for you. You understand that?" He asked gently grabbing my shoulders.

I nodded and just looked at him not wanting to speak and risk my voice cracking and crying again. He just lead me to the passenger side of the car and opened to door. He buckled my seat belt for me and walked around to get into the driver seat.

He didn't ask anything else, and he didn't say anything else either. He started driving and I knew exactly where he was taking me. It was a spot he had showed me he went to when he was having problems with himself.

It was a beach, a very small secluded beach. Maybe about half a miles worth of sand and thousands of miles of visible blue icy water.

When we arrived we both got out and he opened the trunk to grab a bag and a blanket. He also had two cups in his hand that had a bit of steam coming out the top. He handed me a cup and when I was able to smell it, I had noticed it was hot chocolate.

"Come on. I know that you know exactly where we're at and why we're here so come on." He said reaching his hand out for me to grab.

I grabbed his hand and we walked our way down the rocks and slowly but surely reached the flat soft sand. It was cold on our feet, cause there was snow covering it. The whole beach was 4 times colder than anywhere else.

He laid out a blanket and reached in his bag to grab another blanket and two pillows.

"Matt what are you doing?" I asked with a monotones voice and a straight face.

He looked up from what he was doing for a few moments. "I can tell you haven't been sleeping. And I also know the sound of the waves and wind calms you down and helps you sleep so I brought this here so you can get some sleep."

"It's freezing out here tho...you don't have to do this Matt I can manage on my own." I replied while still standing there stiffly.

He ignored my statement and kept setting up the blankets. When he was finished he laid down and put his head on the pillow warming himself up under the blanket.

"I'm not sleeping here for my pleasure. Now come lay down and get some sleep, please?" He asked while turning his head to look at me still standing there.

I moved closer to the blanket and got under it with Matt. He pulled me close into basically another hug so we'd stay warm.

"Aren't we too young for this Matt? To feel the ways we do. We haven't even lived yet..." I asked looking him in the eyes.

"You're never too young to feel things Scarlet. Everyone feels things, and everyone also needs and escape from it." He replied wrapping his arm around me.

I sighed and looked up at the sky. Cloudy, dark, foggy, and silent. "I just wish I could isolate for a little bit you know? Just go somewhere far away and escape everything."

"Me too don't worry. Unfortunately we can't always do that. But it's ok, we all have our own little personal escapes." Matt replied with the faintest hint of a smile in his voice.

I softly smiled at his attempts to comforting me. "Thank you Matt. Really."

"Don't thank me, it's basic human decency and I care about you. I'm not going to sit back and watch you suffer in silence." Matt said while pulling me closer to him.

Me and Matt laid there like this for hours. Not a single thought crossed our minds except peace and comfort. The snow didn't bother us, the cold, the wind, none of it. We were at peace and comfort laying there together.

Before either of us were about to fall asleep in the silence of the beach, I spoke to Matt.

"I love you Matt."

"I love you too Scarlet."

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