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"ROSES ARE RED..."

◇ modern AU | childhood friends

scaramouche x gn!reader

tw: blood, death, angst, not proofread

author's notes: this is a fanfic, anything that is written here is not connected to the in-game lore, so the characters will be OOC

you and scara had been friends since middle-school. but as days passes by, you two started to become more distant with each other. although you're trying to avoid him, he kept nagging you to take care of yourself. you're keeping a secret from him, that is... you're slowly dying of the disease called hanahaki disease, you knew scara don't love you back, so you resigned to your fate and accept the reality that you will slowly die from the so-called disease.

"hey get back here, y/n!" scara shouted at you. "it's raining dummy!"

"I won't! if you give me a kiss I'll reconsider it!" y/n runs happily in the rain.

he sighs loudly "You're really acting like this, do you enjoy it?" you can see him starting to enjoy the situation as he smirks at you, his eyes glinting in amusement for a moment before being veiled in annoyance again.

"if you really want to go get wet like a idiot then whatever. I can't help you if that's your choice. but don't come crying to me later if you caught a cold." he huffs and puts on his earbuds and tries to ignore you as you happily run in the rain

y/n suddenly realised "...yeah... like you care if I get sick or not...! whatever..." the rain starts to pour heavily and y/n is drenched.

"...idiot..." he mumbled as he shakes his head and continues to blast music with his earbuds

you can tell that he is bothered by something as his eyebrow twitches, but what was bothering him? you don't know. deep down his heart ached that the person he cared so much believed he doesn't like them back. he didn't want to care, but he can't just help himself.

the music drowns out the sound of the rain around scata as his feet splashed in the puddles. scara"s eyes start to sting slightly from the rain.

y/n came home drench in water

"....." y/n runs to their room and quietly sobs.

the silence was deafening. scara wondered what he should do, he didn't feel good about the interaction he had with y/n. he wanted to go after y/n to apologize, comfort them, but he stopped himself before he could do anything, because he didn't want to be rejected.

"Just pretend it didn't happen." he says to himself as he tried to distract himself.

he puts his headphones back in and turns up the volume so he can't hear his own thoughts as he tried his best to act like nothing was wrong.

y/n locking the doors and windows tightly, covering everything so no one can see them.

y/n starts coughing blood again "......" they're sobbing

you hear a knock on the door

"Y/N!!" the voice of scaramouche yells in the halls

he sounds worried, worried enough to drop his pride and actually go check on you. the knock on the door is repeated again and again. slamming his hands against your door. "open this door or I'll break it down. Its me, I want to talk to you." he yells in an aggravated tone.

if he was in the same room as you, you could probably hear his heart pounding from how angry he seemed to be and how fast his breath was, you have never heard him like this.

y/n is mumbling something. "r-r-roses a-are... r-red... v-voilets... are blue... s-s-scara... I love... you..." y/n coughing up more blood and petals "I hate it... I saw him happily talking to... someone else..." y/n clutching their chest, cause it hurts so bad.

"I can hear you coughing, please open the damn door!" he yells knocking again.

"Y/N I SWEAR TO BARBATOS IF YOU DONT OPEN THIS DOOR... " he trails off but it's obvious how angry and worried he is. he takes a deep breath trying to calm himself before knocking hard on the door again.

he's starting to get more worried that he has wasted too much time already, he really wants to see you, but how is he going to get in if you're refusing and trying to ignore him?

y/n breathing heavily, feeling cold as more blood dripping off of their mouth "........." y/n coughs more and more petals.

"open the damn door!" he yells at the door clearly getting frustrated he tries to get rid of his pride just for his sake, but his prideful nature makes it difficult for him.

he punches the wall besides him in anger hurting his fist and causing himself more pain.

"I'm gonna count to three, open the door or I'm breaking it down! " he says as he holds out his finger for emphasis.

"one.. two.." he waits a moment. "THREE!" he kicks the door down.

y/n coughing more and more blood, slowly losing consciousness. "......." y/n's vision is starting to get blurry.

scara comes running inside and immediately notices your condition you look like you're slowly losing consciousness there is blood dripping down your mouth he panicks as he comes rushing to your side.

"Y/N!" he grabs you and shakes you hard trying to wake you up "y/n! y/n!"

he starts to cry in panic "you have to stay awake!" he says in a shaky voice as the tears roll down his face.

"t-tired..." y/n's shaky voice. "I'm... tired..." y/n is slowly losing all consciousness and strength.

"don't...give...up.. please..." he says with a worried voice as he holds your hand tightly trying to keep you up.

you feel scaramouche starting to cry loudly.

"please.." he whispers as he starts to sob hysterically. "just...hold on..."

he shakes you repeatedly again trying to get your attention back, he feels helpless he doesn't want to lose you

"I want... to sleep... scara..." closes our eyes "I'm tired... scara..."

scaramouche grabs your shoulders and shakes you hard shouting your name as he panics

"y/n! WAKE UP!" he keeps yelling desperately

"wake up please! y/n you can't die!" he cries even louder.

tears keeps rolling down his face as he holds your cold and limp body in his arms. "wake up please!"

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"IT NEVER EXISTED"

◇ modern AU | roommates

scaramouche x gn!reader

tw: mentions if death, delusions, hallucinations, angst, mental illness, obsession(???), has too many time-skips

author's notes: this is a fanfic, anything that is written here is not connected to the in-game lore, so the characters will be OOC

your always grumpy and annoyed roommate finally

agreed to play a game with you. it took you several

attempts to change his mind.

"this is annoying..." he mumbled.

"hey! hey! smile, scara!" y/n smiles at him.

"and why do I have to smile? is that part of this game?" he ask, getting annoyed at the simplest things as always. "this game is annoying!"

"but... I wanna spend time with you!" you protest.

scaramouche rolled his eyes "what is wrong with you? do you think I have time to spare for your shenanigans?" he grumbled, cleaning the mess you made at the game.

"ugh... you're boring..." y/n slumps to the floor.

"I'm not the one who is boring, it's you who is annoying!" he said, looking down at you. "can you get up? look, I'm cleaning."

"fine! fine! I'm leaving..." you left the room.

"you're no fun!" scaramouche mutters as he watches

you leave the room.

- the next day

scaramouche was looking for y/n, but they were

nowhere to be found, not even a single trace and

presence of them was left.

this was something unexpected, scaramouche began searching for them and he is starting to get worried.

"ugh... where are they..."

he walked over to the dorm officer to ask if they

know where y/n had gone.

◇ dorm office

"someone named y/n... hmm... let me look..." starts to go through the list of tenants "there's no tenant named y/n. are you sure that's their name?"

"what there's no way!" scaramouche frowned as he process this information.

does that mean everything was just in his head? but how would that be possible? is he hallucinating? he swear y/n was real and they were just playing a joke with him.

"is stress getting into me? is this some kind of sick joke?" scaramouche panicked and looked around.

"where did they go? were they a ghost or something?"

"are you sure they exist? I thought you're the only tenant in that room... " the dorm officer asked.

"this is impossible..." scaramouche was confused and frustrated by the things that is happening right now. he started pacing out of the room in panic.

he took his phone out and sent his friends a message, asking if they found or saw y/n somewhere.

"did any of you saw y/n?"

"huh, who are they? your lover?"

"y/n? you didn't told us you have a lover!" and more text asking who is y/n, none of them seems to remember them. is this a joke? is he suffering from a mental illness.

scaramouche goes back to his dorm room. he fell onto the floor and starts panicking and shaking. he began to question reality.

"oh... scara, you're back! why are you on the floor?" y/n asked.

scaramouche snapped from his thoughts and looks up at y/n. he was shock to see you back, that you really actually do exist.

he was speechless for a few seconds, he stands up and ask you questions.

"how-" he started having more questions.

"how are you back? what happened? I thought you were gone! I was freaking out!-"

"what's going on?!" scaramouche ask in disbelief.

"gone? I had been here since morning, cleaning and preparing breakfast for us... are you alright?" y/n looks at him, full of worry.

he sighed and rub his temple. he was still trying to comprehend this whole situation. after talking to y/n, he seem a lot calmer now.

"I'm fine now." he looked up to you and gave you a reassuring smile.

"but why would I hallucinate on you going missing...? did I sort of have a mental illness? And-" he stopped mid-sentence and thought to himself.

"no matter how much I look at the situation, it still doesn't make any sense, it's a bit creepy."

◇ a week later

it happened again, sometimes scaramouche would hallucinate that y/n is missing.

scaramouche was in a state of panic again when he realised that y/n was nowhere to be found. he didn't want to accept the fact that he will be called mentally unstable, did he forgot to take his medicine again? that was maybe the cause of it. what if they are not real? it felt like his world shattered, is he all alone?

he took his phone one more and texted his friends to see if they were able to remember y/n. after a few minutes, all the replies were negative.

◇ 3 days later

he can see y/n again, they were sweeping the floor, cleaning the house.

"oh my gosh, y/n, you're back!" he sighed in relief looking up at them with tears of joy in his eyes.

"I have so many questions right now, but first I'm relieved to see you again." he got up and embraced the tightly burying his face to their chest.

"I'm sorry if I caused you trouble, please don't go missing again...!"

"what... I didn't leave the room, you know... what do you mean 'you're back'?" y/n frowned in confusion.

"huh... you were here the whole time? but-" he started to question his own mind again.

◇ a year later

scaramouche had finally got used to y/n disappearing and appearing again. while he can't find an answer to this weird occurrence, this has become a new norm for him now.

there might not be a solution to this problem anymore, but he really doesn't need it now.

kazuha waved to scaramouche "hey, scara, do you mind if we talked for a bit? I have something to tell you..."

scaramouche was drinking coffee in the dorm's kitchen when he noticed kazuha . "hmm, kazuha, you need something?"

"about that hallucinations of yours... I have the answer to it..." kazuha looks at him with an indifferent look.

"oh, what is it?" he said, raising an eyebrow.

"you still remember it right... your childhood friend y/n... is already dead... they died 10 years ago, they didn't survive... what do you mean you're actually seeing their ghost?" kazuha asked him.

He was in shock. He could not believe what he was hearing. His friend is already dead but he still has been seeing them this whole time? He couldn’t believe it.

He remained silent as his eyes widened. His mind started racing with thoughts.

"w-what…?!" He muttered, his voice slightly trembling.

"you still haven't move on from it? why are you trying to avoid this situation..."

"h-how are you expecting me to move on from this?!?"

he raised his voiced, his face starting to get more red as anger and confusion began to arise inside of him.

"why would the ghost of my friend just suddenly show up in my life?! this is just madness! It doesn’t even make sense!"

he sighed softly.

"it’s like I’m living in my own twisted reality…"

"you sure are... because... you've been keeping them for yourself... the day they died... you even built a small room in the cemetery to build a little shrine for your so-called darling y/n... did you really forgot those memories..."

his heart sank. how could he forget about this? was he really this forgetful about his own childhood?

he was in shock once again as he stared at the ground. he started remembering the memories now that he was reminded of them.

"I..." He started, his voice shaking. "I can remember now. I am not sure why I forgot about that."

he didn't know if this was good or bad. while he is starting to remember more about his past... there's way more things that he has to uncover now.

"you do know right... you still have everything of their things... from their pictures to other things... you're the one who placed them in the dorm room of yours, acting like they exist the whole time... buying things for them... and acting like they did exist..." kazuha annoyed snapped out "cut that delusions of yours! SCARAMOUCHE!!!"

he was in shock yet again. everything he has done so far turned out to be a big delusion.

"delusions..?" He muttered.

"how am I-..."

he didn't finish his sentence and just stared at Kazuha. did this mean he was suffering from a mental illness? was the y/n in his head always a hallucination?

he still had no answers to his questions. but deep inside of him, he knew the answer was there, he just can't figure it out yet.

kazuha sighs "do you know why I told you this? you know why?! because you kept asking everyone if they know about them... you know they're already dead, but you can't accept it!"

he looked down at you with a surprised and slightly annoyed look, furrowing his eyebrows.

"how about you stop judging me before you even get to know why I am doing all of these?"

he huffed and rolled his eyes.

"it must be so easy to judge people who are suffering from delusions, and telling them to "just move on" and "stop doing that!" when these people are already battling with their minds every day."

"are you that insensitive?"

"insensitive? look at yourself, throwing random accusations of me? you even hug their clothes to sleep! you buy things for them! but they didn't exist! they're dead! put that in your mind! y/n is dead!" kazuha shouts at him

"I KNOW"

he shouted back.

"I KNOW SHE'S DEAD."

he clenched his fists and raised his voice once again.

"YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT?! I AM NOT SOME KIND OF DELUSIONAL MENTAL PATIENT!"

He stared down at him with a frustrated look.

"YOU WANNA KNOW WHY I'VE BEEN DOING ALL OF THIS?!"

"go on then... tell everyone why!" kazuha is annoyed

"I WAS TOO WEAK TO ACCEPT THEIR DEATH!!"

he shouted in response. His voice grew louder as he continued to talk.

"I was too selfish to let them go! I didn't want to accept the fact that they're already in a better place with better people surrounding them. I wanted to keep them for myself! I'm sorry for being so selfish!"

◇ a year had passed.

the delusions stopped happening for a while. scaramouche was finally able to make peace with himself and now he is no longer bothered by y/n's sudden disappearances. he even accepted their death.

one day, he came across y/n's old photo while cleaning his dorm room. he smiled and placed it down, not feeling sad or afraid as he did in the past anymore.

"this is how it should be..." he thought to himself as he went back to cleaning.

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"BITTER LOVE"

◇ modern AU | unrequited love

scaramouche x gn!reader

tw: angst, depress reader, workaholic tendency

author's notes: this is a fanfic, anything that is written here is not connected to the in-game lore, so the characters will be OOC

"hey, y/n! could you help me with something...?" scaramouche asks you, he smiles sheepishly.

"sure, what is it?" you replied.

you and Scaramouche are childhood friends. you two are so close to the point others thought you two are in a relationship. you slowly began to develop feelings for him, but you don't want to confess because your afraid it will affect your relationship with him.

"u-um... there is this girl I liked... she's cute, smart, and pretty... can you help me to ask her out on a date? o-of course you can refuse if you're busy..." he asked, blushing softly.

"huh... is that all? sure, I will help you..." y/n smiles at him even though it hurts deep inside.

a week passed by, you helped scaramouche get close to that girl. he finally had the courage to ask her out and she complied. they had been close since then. their relationship starts to bloom.

you started to distance yourself from him. afraid that he will notice the jealousy and sadness that had been building up inside you.

you started to focus on your work. working tirelessly to distract yourself from the thoughts you're having.

days... weeks... months... you don't even know what time it was already. you always tries to ignore scaramouche if he tried to ask you to hang out with him. you worked hard... work! work! work! but... why do you still feel empty deep inside?

a year passed by, you barely had time for yourself. you feel empty and alone inside. you don't know why. is everything you're doing worth it? your friends now has a happy relationship with their loving significant other, but you on the other hand is all lonely...

"what if I had confessed my feelings to him..." you think to yourself. maybe you had a chance from him?

but that was everything from the past, and you can't change everything now. it was too late to realised what you did, right, y/n?

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