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Every August I read Delirium by Lauren Oliver, because it’s my all time favorite series as it has a place in my heart. Why I choose August to read it is because I try to match the season the book is ultimately placed in to the one I’m reading it during. I read Delirium in August, Pandemonium in September, and Requiem in October.

I also listen to the same playlist that I accidentally happened upon when I first read the series, which has songs that perfectly work with the book.

If you haven’t read this series, and you’ve been having either an existential curiosity lately or even just a romantic one, read this.

It’s good for even people who don’t enjoy romance genre sub-genre books.

#deliriumlaurenoliver #deliriumbylaurenoliver #amordelirianervosa #deliriumtrilogy #lauren oliver #laurenoliver #books and reading #books #dystopian #yareading #dystopian romance #before i fall

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Posting this at an angel number (4:44) because I’m fighting some demons and I need

dammit it’s 4:45 now

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I’m white and my family takes “Mexican dinner night” to the next level. My little sister bought a taco costume. My dad plays this parody song that goes like, “white people taco night” over and over. My mom starts the movie Coco up (which she worships). This happens at least twice a month. On top of this, I have expressed my inexplicable hatred for cilantro and its existence in the past and my mom makes me cut it instead of doing anything else. This is also the only meal that she doesn’t let me serve myself still because she gives me cilantro to spite me. I hate that fucking attention seeking, impossible-to-cut, bossier version of basil. Goddamn it. It can burn in hell and become fucking brown leaves for all I care. Shit.

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I didn’t read that this was a writing prompt, so for a moment I was like, “Damn, I really got to watch the news more.”

The Humans are coming back to Earth after 10,000 years. The abandoned synthetic intelligence, left to evolve on Earth, try to welcome the second coming of Humans, the Gods of the religion they developed, but they got a few things wrong about Humans.

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I ain’t even a fan but bless this man 😭😭😭

WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL — London, Night IV (17.06)

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Deep talk prompt ideas for when you’re with your friends, family, or even strangers.

Of course, if you or the person/people you are talking to aren’t attracted to men, change the sentences.

Comment if I should make more.

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#deep talks #conversation #conversation prompt #questions #deep questions

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Im upset too. I want it longer so I know what happens but some series end too soon so that don’t end too late and become shitty. Im caught between the two boys as well. I haven’t read the series in a while, but I remember being caught between Alex and Julian. Alex, while being hot, I liked more at first because he’s the type of person I would need irl. As a cautious person like Lena, I would need a person that pushes my boundaries to get me to be true to myself. At the same time, Julian was going to be Lena’s way of expanding this new world Alex introduced her to. Julian is the type of person to be the next step and what’ll get you through things. Alex is the Crossing the Threshold and Julian is all the other parts of a Hero’s Journey. I don’t know how else to explain it lol

This series is so unknown and underrated omg and it bothers me sometimes (SOMETIMES) but whatever.

I wanna know what happens soooo bad

Also, us Delirium fans gotta stick together, so consider us friends :)

Requiem

I can’t even put into words how much I dislike the ending. What the hell happens to Hana? Does she just walk away in her wedding dress and then everything’s alright? Or does Fred figure something is wrong and realize she’s gone and go after her and (obviously) kill her? WE’LL NEVER FREAKING KNOW. How about the fact that Raven died. Raven, possibly the most important character since she was like a mother to Lena in the Wilds, didn’t get any form of closure at all. We all remember how in Mockingjay everybody and their mothers died, but at least each character got some sort of closure, even characters we didn’t know that well Raven, who is just as relevant to the story as Finnick was in Mockingjay if not more, got Tack whispering in her ear while Finnick basically had a funeral. There was never even a scene with her and Tack talking so that maybe more feelings would be involved with that death scene and we would know just what Tack is actually losing! I can’t even go on with this one omg. Next off: that effing love triangle. I’m not even going to lie, and I know that plenty of people won’t agree with me but whatever, I like Julian better than Alex. As a guy I connect more with Julian. I even pictured myself playing him in a film adaptation (THANKS FOR CRUSHING MY DREAMS GREGG SULKIN) I just couldn’t connect with Alex. I know most others would think different (cough girls that only care about how hot a guy is cough) but the end of the book, even though it’s open ended (Which I like, but seriously, this ending is TOO open ended) we all know Lena is going to choose Alex. What I want to know is WHY? Yes Alex was her first love and all, but Julian changed his entire life to be with her. His whole life he was the poster child for the DFA but then he’s in the cell with her and throws it away because he’s caught Amor Deleria Nervosa. He than acts on it and, in a collective effort, gets out. Then, after Pandemonium, he does all he can to prove to Lena that he can survive, and even contribute to the group, in the Wilds. I’ve read in places that this makes him seem like a puppy dog chasing after him, or that he seems too desperate, but that’s because he IS desperate. Put yourself in Julians shoes. If you just left the only life you’ve known to go to a scary and dangerous place with people you’ve barely met and the only person you have is your girlfriend wouldn’t that be difficult? BUT HOLD UP A BIT BECAUSE THAT ISN’T ALL THAT THRUSTS ITSELF AT JULIAN. Alex, Lenas old love, shows up, and it’s really obvious that Lena still loves him. What would you do? Would you just sit down and call it quits or prove to Lena that you can be what she wants you to be (now that damn Lucy Hale song is gonna be stuck in my head)? Julian sees that he could potentially lose the love of his life so he goes out of his way to prove to not only himself and the group, but to her that he can hold is own out there and still be the Julian she fell in love with. So to me the choice between Alex and Julian was made clear in the story, she obviously chooses Alex, but without a clear reason. Last, but certainly not the last problem I have with Requiem, is the very ending. The tearing down of the walls that block Portland from the Wilds. I get it “WOOHOO WE WIN” except they haven’t really won anything yet. They’ve conquered Portland, which is a step in the right direction, but IT’S JUST PORTLAND. How am I meant to believe that this group of underfed people is going to take on every other validated city in America? Did everyone forget what happened in Waterbury? That probably wasn’t even EVERYTHING that the government attacked them with. It’s possible that the resistance has friends in the gov. that can fight from the inside and supply weapons and that in time Americas walls will be torn down, but we’ll never know for sure. By the way I get that tearing down the walls in Portland wasn’t only meant literally, but that it also meant tearing down the walls in Lenas heart, yeah yeah so cute and deep, but it still doesn’t answer any questions that Delirium, Pandemonium, and even Requiem brought up. Pros of the book- -Hanas POV was great, I love how the cure didn’t completely change her. Plus Hana was one of the only characters who had any kind of character growth at all. -Lena and her mom. -Lena saving Grace and the connection shown there between her and Raven. -The disappointment they all felt when first arriving at Waterbury. Seriously how dull would the book have been if they arrived and it was exactly what they were expecting. Cons (besides the ones I stated before) - Julian and Alex, the two main love interests, have know real character development in this one so basically people forget why they liked them in the first place. Alex has maybe two or three conversations with Lena, and while Julian has more, they’re not really conversations but a couple lines back and forth just to show that Julian is still there. -Lauren Oliver “Quinn Fabrayed” Julian and Coral. For those who don’t watch the hot mess of a show that is Glee I’ll break it down what Quinn Fabray-ing a character is. It’s when a character is built up to be something big, but then (either because the writer doesn’t know wherw to go with it, or some other reason) the character kinda just is there and is important to the story, but not used properly. In Julians case it’s that he was built up in Pandemonium and was seemingly an important main character only to be basically ignored in Requiem. There could have been so much growth in his character apart from the love triangle. In corals case she never really was IMPORTANT, but she was needed to show the tension between Alex and Lena. She was Quinn Fabrayed because she could have been a bigger character, but instead came in and out of importance. -No say as to what happens to Lenas sister Rachel. I know she was never an important character, but come on. -NO FREAKING CLOSURE ON NEARLY EVERYTHING. What happens to Julian? DONT KNOW. How about Alex? NO IDEA. Tack? NOTHING. Like. You can’t have a story with as many characters as the Delirium trilogy does and not have closure for at least the main ones! If you think about it, not even Lena really had any closure. Ugh.

Solution? EPILOGUE. One chapter, short or long, set some time in the future where everything is figured out. Have the rebels win, have them lose. Have Lena choose Alex or Julian or even neither of them. Tell, even if it’s a sentence, what happens to Tack and Hanna. JUST FREAKING END THE BOOKS EVERYONE FELL IN LOVE WITH IN A WAY THAT LEAVES US CONTENT WITH IT. Lauren Oliver is such an amazing writer. I mean Before I Fall is probably the best book I’ve ever read, and Delirium was and is still my favorite series even with the ending full of loose strings. I just can’t deal with that ending and I hope I’m not alone in this.

Sorry for the freaking essay.

Anyone who actually reads this should be my friend.

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These all bring back memories. I fell in love with this series. It’s the first series I ever both stayed consistent AND got attached to. I told myself I’d read it once a year (Delirium in August, Pandemonium in September, and Requiem in October, as those are the months I see fit to what’s happening in the books and the vibes I guess you could say), but I haven’t done that in two years. My, the series is so underrated. When I first read the series, which, I at first only read delirium for a book project, I had found a playlist that, little did I know, I would realize fits perfectly with the book and I would read every time I read the series. I plan to read the series this summer now, having own the books, and I don’t mind that it’ll break my heart once again :)

url giveaway

so i have a ton of delirium urls saved that i’m never going to use because my url is perfect. so i figured i might as well give them away. they are as follows.

contractthedeliria lenahalloways iprefertheoceanwhenitsgray steponacracksteponastone fourphasesofamordelirianervosa iflovewereadisease takethecure curedorinfected lovewillkillandsaveyouboth

if you want one, just message me. it might be a couple days before u get back to you. first come first serve.

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FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK 

I JUST FINISHED PANDEMONIUM AND OH MY GOD THAT ENDING I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO. LIKE I ALWAYS FIGURED ALEX WAS GOING TO BE ALIVE, AND I EXPECTED IT, I FUCKING SAW IT COMING SO WHY AM I SHAKING RIGHT NOW WHY AM I CRYING HELP ME.

I THREW THE BOOK SO HARD ACROSS THE ROOM, THEN I PICKED UP AND THREW IT AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN, AND AGAIN UNTIL MY ARMS STARTED TO BURN AND WHAT DO I SHIP!?!?! DO I SHIP LENA/JULIAN OR DO I SHIP LENA/ALEX I LOVE THEM BOTH I THINK SHE BELONGS WITH BOTH OF THEM.

WHAT DO I DO I HAVEN’T BEEN THIS TORN OVER SHIPS SINCE WESSA/JESSA AND THIS IS ACTUALLY WORSE

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Why I am Magdalena-and other mundane thoughts of the sleep deprived

So I read the Delirium series in April, in my spare time visiting my father which, I’m doing now as well and I saw some Delirium memes and it took me back and made me realize something. 

Keep reading

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Any Heartless fans out there?

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I never grasped the idea of the type of people that are “good at cooking but don’t like doing it”. Everyone likes food at least a little bit, so why wouldn’t you like doing what’s at the other end of that if you’re talented at it? Are y’all in the kitchen tasting your food like, “Mm. Delicious. I’d rather be anywhere else right now though.”

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I like to picture countries talking to each other like a chaotic friend group.

U.S.: What’s up, India? How is it over there?

India: Ah, you know, monsoon season. Still.

U.S.: Oh, India. Never change.

India: That’s the problem bruh 😭

U.S.: How about you, England? Or—is it the U.K.? Or Great Brit— What do I call you? I never know.

U.K.: Things has been rough over here ever since the queen passed.

U.S.: *Wailing uncontrollably* It just wasn’t her time! She was such an icon! She was a—

U.K.: Oh, god, America.

U.S.: *Sniffles* She WAS our God, you’re right! *Cries even harder*

U.K.: Well, maybe we should check on that little sweetheart Canada—

Canada: *On fire* AHHHHHHHHHHH

#funny #wholesome #world events

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i know it'll pass but. can it pass a little quicker thanks

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“You can build walls all the way to the sky and I will find a way to fly above them. You can try to pin me down with a hundred thousand arms, but I will find a way to resist. And there are many of us out there, more than you think. People who refuse to stop believing. People who refuse to come to earth. People who love in a world without walls, people who love into hate, into refusal, against hope, and without fear.”

— Lauren Oliver, Delirium

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Where’s my Alex irl smh