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Green Beans and Little Brothers

(5/17/2024)

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How many more times must I cross this road?

To assume the emptiness is common occurrence,

Nothing fighting from beneath the surface-

Avoiding conversations as if they may be the death of me.

Like I don't spend every day

Mixing concoctions of various types,

Coughing up blood and seeing stars,

Swallowing down memories,

And the bitter truth-

The truth,

That I have locked myself in this tower to die.

How pathetic of me,

To swallow the key with such vigor.

To only feel it crawling its way back up,

When tears prick my eyes,

At the most unexpected of times.

As if anybody could hurt me;

As if anybody could torture me

Nearly as much as I torture myself.

You crawl to salvation,

Desperate for water,

Drinking willingly from any glass-

Only to learn you never escaped in the first place.

When did I start swallowing

Everything?

It started with what made me happiest,

To subdue the relentless need to escape.

When did I start to stomach any emotion,

Before it even showed its face?

The complexities of life are not lost on me.

However,

Whenever I think I've found the road home,

I've only ever found myself more lost.

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@hersurvival we go back and forth with it istg.

When people say nice things about me:

#besties #ily #no you #youre beautiful #talented #definitely not a rat girl #you lied #continue to lie #in front of us all #because you're stunning #unbelievably kind #and actually funny #but not funnier than me

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Good Morning

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Mornings are for poetry and fear,

Coughing up the nightmares of the night,

Letting the days breeze find you

As you are.

Imperfect,

Shattered at the root.

Mornings are for learning to stand again,

Remembering how to walk,

Holding your own hand through it,

Repeatedly.

Poetry and warm drinks,

The birds singing as daylight floods your kitchen,

And remembering

Remembering

Remember.

x

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Theodore Roethke, from "In Evening Air", The Collected Poems of Theodore Roethke [ID'd]

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"Don't you ever die", Hovhannes Grigoryan (translated by tathev simonyan)

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The Hours (2002)

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Men suck<3

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Exchange

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Undress me,

From buttons to straps.

Lay me bare before you.

Whisper in my ear,

I beg of you.

Send shivers down my spine,

Grab me in a way

That sends a shock through

My empty chest-

I've been numb for so long,

Unable to move.

Barely breathing.

Take what you can from me,

Whatever is worthy in your gaze,

As long as you leave me

Anything in return;

Anything of you.

x

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