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My safe Skies

NASA TAMANG TAO NA BA ANG LAHAT???

Kasi ako nasa tamang tao na :) Hi .. It's me again Just want to share yung mga masasayang moments na nangyari sakin this past few days .. One of the best feeling is when you're tired the whole day and then you started talking to that certain person in the evening that makes you feel perfectly fine in an instant that person is your rest, more like your home , yung tipong kahit hanggang bahay kausap mo siya , lagi ka niyang pinapasaya magdamag kayong magkasa usap kahit video call lang . My time na nakatitig lang ako sakaniya and then ngingiti ako at marerealize na ang swerte ko kasi dati wish ko lang kay lord na sana makakita ako ng lalaking ittrato akong maayos ngayon ang ibinigay niya sakin sobra pa. Bigla ko naaalala kung pano ako itrato ng last relationship ko to the point onti - onti na nawawala ang respeto ko sa sarili ko , dati nililimos ko yung love na gustong ibigay sakin ng lalaking gusto pero ngayon nakukuha ko na never ako nagdoubt sa kaniya araw araw matutulog akong nakangiti then gigisng ng nakangiti pa din , yung time na nililimos ko sa maling tao before nabibigay na sakin ng tamang tao ngayon. Get a man who has a plans and thinks about future. Hindi yung puro kabastusan at papogi lang ang alam , Get a man na hindi puro small talks lang like " Kumain ka na ba? " " Gawa mo ? " but choose a man who talks about his habits and what he wants for the future. A man who listens to you, support your vision, see you win , and a man who will learn for you , Choose a partner na magbibigay sayo peace of mind and happiness, not stress and consistent lies, yung hindi man ikaw ang top priority pero binibigyan ka ng oras. Above all yung marunong makuntento sa isa, not the one who has eyes for very girls, At tsaka isa sa mga basic rule dyan wag magmahal ng taong kailangan pang bantayan para lang hindi ka lokohin, know your worth.

In a world of full of chaos and change, where everything seems so strange, One things remains constant and true, My love and devotion to this person, Through the highs and lows, The joys and the sorrows I'll choose him always today, tomorrow and all days, in his arms i find my peace a love that will never cease, I'll choose him always until the end of my days. Out of all people i have met in my life, There's somethings special about him that sets him apart from the rest. I can't quiet put my finger on it, But there's a certain quality in his personality that is so refreshing and unique, When I'm with him, I feel like i can be myself without any pretenses or mask. his authenticity and genuine nature have bee a breath of fresh air in my life and i'm so grateful to have him in it.

Hi love , Thank you for everything you've done for me. I appreciate it all. You don't have to doubt your actions, You're doing great and I know that you've been doing all the best you can just to provide the love and support that i deserve. I don't know how i can return it but i will do my very best to do every thing I should do. You're worth it. Iloveyou .

To my love i hope you don't change , the nights we talk, The days we're together, You don't know how much you make me happy. When you leave me, The smile in my eyes may also disappears, So thank you for treating me right. Thank you for always reminding me how i deserve all the good things in life, Thank you for being a good listener and for choosing to stay despite of my flaws

again, ILOVEYOU :)

You're my safe skies

#love #great love

[zelengph]

Finally I made it

Dear self

Hi self it's been 2 years when i posted my last post about myself and here i am again posting about myself but this time with a happy heart na :) . last time i remember while typing there's a tears in my eyes. i just want to share with you about this person who make me better and give me motivation to pursue anything i want and the someone who i want to marry with. this person is a friend of mine since college, siya yung kabiruan ko before sabay kaming mangbully ng kaibigan lang din namin yung mga trip namen very magkavibes , until one day nagkaron ako ng chance na magwork kung saan siya nagwwork that time lagi na kami magkasama , lagi na kami nag-uusap at ang hilig nameng gawin ay mag laro ng online game like COD (call of duty) , MAY 2022 when he told me through chat that he likes me , and that moment hindi ako makapaniwala, hindi ko alam kung ano ang irereact ko , dahil sa nangyari naging awkward samin lahat to make my story short i rejected him, then after wala na kong narereceive na message sakaniya , which is nakakalungkot until one day narealize ko at natanong ko din sa sarili ko na bakit ko hinahanap? bakit ako affected which is hindi dapat kasi nireject ko siya after a few days naging ok kami nagpapansinan but halong clingy na galaw na hahahaha . yes po tama ho kayo hindi siya tumigil at tinuloy niya dun ko narealize na aah! ok love ko na tong tao na to .. at ayun na nga naging kami ng friend ko, until now sobrang happy ko pa din :) .. i remember nung sinabi ko sa sarili ko na " ghorrll deserve mo yung lalaki na consistent yung love na ibibigay sayo at ipapramdam sayo" this time nakilala ko yung lalaki na yun, Nothing is more beautiful than seeing yourself happy and getting excited again at the things you are passionate about, healing from the things that used to hurt you and being able to radiate and smile genuinely. I'm lucky with the man I'm talking right now. he makes me feel understood, listens, knows how to communicate, updates, assures my thoughts, I'm very satisfied with the person who makes my heart happy right now. After all heartbreaks, trauma and failed relationship. I'm finally happy with someone who treat me right. To this person I'm loving right now, I appreciate you for giving your time and making time for me and to always reminding me how i deserve all the good things in life, I hope you know how i want us to work, you're my safe skies, thank you lord binigyan niyo ko ng lalaking tutulungan akong i save ang sarili ko , for giving me this person to make me happy again . this time finally i made it.

#i love him #loving

[zelengph]

HELLO SELF :)

Dear Self, 

                I just want to say congrats :) . kasi nakaya mo this past few months ang dami kung narealize at natutunan,  na hindi pala enough ang LOVE para magstay ka sa isang tao kasi kung ang love na yun ang magiging dahilan lang ng pain mo you need to stop or huwag mo na ituloy yes, love mo yung tao but you need to love yourself first, para at the end hindi ka talo. this time I am choosing me , Self love and self betterment. you  know what my last relationship taught me? the more chances you give someone, the less they value you they’re not afraid to lose you because they know no matter what you won’t walk away so never let anyone get too comfortable with disrespecting you love yourself first. learn to distance yourself once you feel unappreciated.  I still remember how i cried myself to sleep because how broken i was, i never want to be that weak ever again lahat ng luha , pain at depression na naexprience ko nitong nakaraang mga buwan lahat yun sinurrender ko kay God, lahat yun sinabi ko kay God ang sabi ko sakanya “ Lord please ayoko na po sa ganito, Lord please alisin niyo po ko sa ganito “ naniniwala ako na hindi habang buhay ganun ako, alam ko ilalagay muna ako ni Lord sa isang sitwasyon na mas tatag ako saka niya gagawing masaya. God says: please understand that i hear all of your prayers. Just because you don’t receive everything that you ask for, doesn’t mean that i don’t listen. It means that i have somethings far better in store for you. God removes people from your life because he heard conversation that you didn’t hear.  totoo pala no kapag napagod kana  kusa ka na lang bibitaw yung hindi ka na magagalit sa kanya basta yung biglang wala na, wala na yung galit , wala na yung attachment isang araw nagising na lang ako hindi na masakit, hindi na nakakaiyak , hindi na mabigat sa loob minsan kapag tinatanong ng mga kaibigan ko kung namimis ko pa daw ba kahit papano gusto kung sumagot ng “ Oo kaunti” pero paghinahanap ko yung dating pakiramdam sa puso ko hindi ko na maramdaman, ngayon lumilipas ang ilang araw bago ko marealize na hindi ko na din pala siya masyadong iniisip . sarap din pala sa pakiramdam na pag natauhan ka na. yun paggising mo na lang isang araw tanngap mo na hanggang dun na lang talaga. Marunong akong sumuko, inantay ko lang yung oras na mapagod ako ng tuluyan. Dahil lage kong sinasabi na hanggat may pag-asa maayos pa pero pag ako napagod na “tama na” hindi ako madaling sumuko kasi ako bago ako sumuko sinubukan ko munang unawain ang sitwasyon, bago ako tumigil, ilang luha muna ang iniyak ko, bago ko sinabing tama na ilang beses ko munang sinabi sa sarili ko na baka may pag-asa pa kaso kahit ilang beses pa kong umiyak o kumapit hindi na mababalik yung dati. hindi ko pinapalaya ang isang tao dahil gusto ko, pinalaya ko ang isang tao dahil kailangan naming dalawa. ghorll you deserve a man na hindi ka babalewalain, hindi yung lalaking hahayaan ka kasi kampante siya na di mo siya iiwan dahil mahal mo siya. you deserve a man na consistent pa din yung love and respect sayo, deserve mo yung lalaking ipaparamdam sayo araw-araw kung gaano ka niya kamahal , Don’t be to desperate kung ayaw ka kausapin, wag pilitin. kung walang pake sayo, huwag  pansinin, trust me it feels great when someone gives you the attention you want without asking for it lahat tayo worth it pero hindi lahat ng tao makikita yon kaya next time piliin mo yung taong pahahalagahan ka Always remember A boy will say: you deserve better,  but a man will say: I will make myself better to deserve you 4 years is not easy to let go but i need to move forward just to save myself. Thank you for making me the happiest! you’re a lesson but a traumatazing one. I am already on the road of healing myself. I have slowly accepted everything. I just need time to really move on. it might not be today, tomorrow or the next day. only time can tell. i can hardly wait for that day when you will be just a memory and a learning experience. It will never be the same without you but i will be ok. 

#moveon part1