yashahasmyentireheart

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feeling so many feelings but i guess i have a new government assigned sad wizard crush </3

#cr spoilers #help #critical role #shes just so tragic im not over it ahkjdaksfj #pls send help

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update;

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ok beauyashas now that we dont have to manifest anymore lets do everyone a solid and manifest turtle!ickythong!! lets go lesbians!!! wooo!

#how r we feeling #that was the most stressful episode since 26 #holy shit #umm #cr spoilers #critical role #cr2x128 #beauyasha #aaaaaaaaa i am! not ok

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did this episode just make me an astrid simp

#she just so #TRAGIC #but in a SEXY WAY #god i just #i have no nails left to bite #critical role #cr spoilers #cr2x127

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I Cannot Wait To See Tonight’s Confirmation Of That Which We All Know To Be True: That Essek Is Fine!

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A memory of days long gone.

I think sometimes, that back at the circus Molly was always there for Yasha when she got too deep in her memories. He had no idea how to talk to people about their past, but he could offer her his company, at least. A tarot reading maybe. Be a distraction she needed.

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ok beauyashas now that we dont have to manifest anymore lets do everyone a solid and manifest turtle!ickythong!! lets go lesbians!!! wooo!

#critical role #cr spoilers #beauyasha

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yasha protecc

she atacc 

but most importantly, she got beaus bacc

#talks machina #critical role

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OK HERE IS BEAUS PART I AM STILL SCREAMING

beau did not want to go to kamordah. she did not want to see thoreau. of course she did go, because it would help her friend, but she didn’t want to. it was all too fast. 

what did that matter though, beau was nothing if she wasn’t if not useful. she held herself together when she faced him, because it had to be done, and her broken body stayed standing.

and oh did it hurt

and oh was jester beautiful and full of light and. telling beau he loved her, and just didnt know how to show it?

huh

and then it was yasha, black and white yasha, solid and strong yasha, who told beaus father that she was important and loved and 

yasha. black and white and love and protection

maybe beau was reminded, then, of that bit of yasha she had been ignoring

yes yasha was black and white and thunder and lighting but so much of her was just

the calm before a storm

purplesbluesblackgreywhitesofuckingbeautiful

that was pretty scary to beau. maybe.

maybe she needed to leave?

its 3 am and i am Up because i cant stop thinking about i fell in love with you in kamordah

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so have some meta rambles ig!!

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yasha. saw beau again in kamordah. of course, she had already seen her a lot. little things about her that started to seem like everything 

you know the kind

she knew beau didn’t want to go, not really, but she also knew that beau was solidly too stubborn to do anything other than go.

and then she watched a woman who had been broken into a thousand pieces and glued herself back together all by herself face the man that broke her and stand strong

it was beautiful and yasha was in love

she told that man that beau was loved and he should be grateful for any chance he gets to love her because. it was true.  and then she watched beau offer to scrub away the years of glue (?? metaphors are hard) on purpose

to pull the bandaid off a wound that was never there

under the guise of selflessness

and she knew what it felt like to want to hurt yourself as punishment for nothing and everything

to look the source of your pain in the eye and tell it to hurt you more

but yasha had just found beau again and she didn’t know if she was going to let herself feel what she was feeling but she did know that she wouldn’t let beau just up and leave

so she went to go stop her leaving. there were more flowers to find, but nothing like beau.

and so maybe, when she asked caleb if ‘he loved her’, she wasn’t just asking caleb

she was asking herself too.

she already knew the answer, though

#THIS ONE WAS WAY WORSE IM SORRYY #BUT I JUST #THAT FUCKING LINELKSDHFL #UHHHHH #ANYWAY #BEAUYASHA #CRITICAL ROLE #CRITICAL ROLE SPOILERS #UMMM #THE END IG #SEND ME ASKS OR SMTH

[yashahasmyentireheart]

its 3 am and i am Up because i cant stop thinking about i fell in love with you in kamordah

.

so have some meta rambles ig!!

.

yasha. saw beau again in kamordah. of course, she had already seen her a lot. little things about her that started to seem like everything 

you know the kind

she knew beau didn’t want to go, not really, but she also knew that beau was solidly too stubborn to do anything other than go.

and then she watched a woman who had been broken into a thousand pieces and glued herself back together all by herself face the man that broke her and stand strong

it was beautiful and yasha was in love

she told that man that beau was loved and he should be grateful for any chance he gets to love her because. it was true.  and then she watched beau offer to scrub away the years of glue (?? metaphors are hard) on purpose

to pull the bandaid off a wound that was never there

under the guise of selflessness

and she knew what it felt like to want to hurt yourself as punishment for nothing and everything

to look the source of your pain in the eye and tell it to hurt you more

but yasha had just found beau again and she didn’t know if she was going to let herself feel what she was feeling but she did know that she wouldn’t let beau just up and leave

so she went to go stop her leaving. there were more flowers to find, but nothing like beau.

and so maybe, when she asked caleb if ‘he loved her’, she wasn’t just asking caleb

she was asking herself too.

she already knew the answer, though

#its 3am and i am gonna reread this in the morning and be like HUH #but whatever #hey harold guess whatt #theyre lesbians #uhh #yasha said this person is at their lowest and still standing and i am in Love now and i think thats extremely valid of her tbh #uhhhhhh #critical role spoilers #beauyasha #cr 2x126 #might do a beau one tomorrow bc brain still b buzzin #oops forgot the main tag lmaosldfls #critical role

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“I want him dead. He ruined my life. He took my life away from me, and I fucking helped!”

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#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #he is healing because GO CALEB GO #AND NOW WE GET THE DATE #cr liveblog #I CANNOT.

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veth. GIRL. thE WORLD IS ENDING WE CAN SAVE IT FOR A RAINY DAY

veth: “nothing is more important than you [caleb]”

i don’t know veth i think in this case A FEW THINGS MIGHT BE MORE IMPORTANT THAN CALEB

[yashahasmyentireheart]

beau and sokka are the same fucking person in this essay i will-

#ok but listen #they are both blue #they are both simps (affectionate) #they are both assholes (affectionate) #they both love piecing shit together and being detectives #they are both little shits (affectionate) #THEY BOTH HAVE UNDERCUTS #critical role #neither of them use magic/bending #NEED I SAY MORE #no i do not. #tadaa #essay over

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did you know that beau is really hot on the dragon yasha were you aware of that? shes not scared at all shes just rly hot rn thats all thats happening so hot very hot

#cr liveblog #beauyasha

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College/band/human au

The lyrics are from ‘Let Me Hold You’ by Nick Wilson (a song from Yasha’s most recent playlist)

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Veth and Caleb: Our guilt and happiness are intertwined in a way that is both dangerous and loving. We’re scared of what we are and what we may be without one another. We love each other.

Jester and Yasha: Love is mundane, and that’s its magic. Its about comfort. Its about seeing a person as they are and knowing that this is their vulnerability, their honesty, and that is love.

Fjord and Beau: BRO you have a GIRLFRIEND. BRO i also have a GIRLFRIEND BRO. BRO. BRO WE HAVE GIRLFRIENDS.

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Lucien TheNonagon: Using his terrible eldritch powers to spy on the very dangerous adversaries he’s camping alongside, trying to get an ear into their magically covered conversations

M9, said adversaries: And then we kissed??? am I making it weird? How did your date go?

Lucien: