writingonthewalls

[writingonthewalls]

I will never be happy. I’m going to die in pain and alone and there is nothing I can do to stop it. I’m going to fucking rot into nothingness.

#6/19/2019

[writingonthewalls]

Who am I?

#5/29/2109

[writingonthewalls]

I want to kill myself so I’m not a burden on everyone anymore

#4/30/19

[writingonthewalls]

I’m starting to miss him wtf.

#4/28/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I think I might just be fucking crazy. What am I even doing?

#4/20/2019

[writingonthewalls]

Wtf is going on

#4/9/2019

[writingonthewalls]

What am I doingggggg. Aaaaaaaa. I’m having fun and he seems to actually like me but wtf am I doing.

#3/25/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I feel like I’m not in control, I just keep doing stuff even though I know I shouldn’t. How do I stop? Should I stop? I think it’s making me happy but it might just be dulling the pain. Is there a difference?

#3/17/2019

[writingonthewalls]

Things seem to be looking up? It’s weird and idk wtf is going on but I think I like it.

#3/14/2019

[writingonthewalls]

Fuck I’m so alone it hurts. What am I doing any of this for?

#3/11/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I remember when I had a home to go back to. Someone waiting there for me. I didn’t feel this emptiness. I had the energy to try and better our life. But that’s all gone now and it’s all my fault. Now I sleep alone. Nobody knows if I come or go. Nobody cares. I could just disappear. This feeling is breaking my heart all over again.

#3/10/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I stuck up for myself today and it felt good. He hurt me, I literally have bruises from me struggling to get away from him. I don’t want to have a conversation with you holding me down. It scares me. I’m a person but you don’t see me like other people, you tell me you veiw me more highly than them but that’s just another lie. You treat me like I’m worthless, like what I want doesn’t matter. Like I don’t matter. You’re so fucking blind that you can’t see that you caused me to lose it. You made all of this happen and you’re blaming it on him. I can’t fucking do this anymore. I’m going to do whatever I want to do and nobody can choose for me. It’s my life. Fuck you.

#3/9/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I’m so fucked up rn. I don’t have a single friend. They’re all leaving me. I’m so alone. Please help me.

#3/7/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I hope everyone is happy. I’m done. I don’t want to live anymore and they don’t want me here. I fucking hurt myself today. They have pushed me so far. I thought I was better than this now. But I’m just as much a mess as I always have been. I was so stupid to think otherwise.

#3/6/2019

[writingonthewalls]

Why can’t I just be happy all I want is to be okay. Everyone has their opinion on what is right and wrong for me but nobody cares what I think. Giving me an ultimatum for friendship is super wrong. It doesn’t sit right with me and I know I should just tell him to fuck off but I literally have no one. I just want it all to stop. I wish I could go back. I’m not okay at all.

#3/5/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I really just wanted him to come over today to cuddle and nap like we planned but I guess he likes her more than me. I don’t blame him I was just really looking forward to it. I had a really hard day and just wanted to be held and feel like someone cared about me. That was stupid of me though, I know that nobody really cares. I just let myself believe for a second that he wouldn’t let me down this time. So stupid of me. Why can’t I just get over him already, he clearly doesn’t want anything to do with me. I hate myself so fucking much. I hurt so bad.

#3/4/2019

[writingonthewalls]

I hate my fucking life. I’m not important enough for anybody. I’m not worth anyone’s time. Nobody loves me. My family doesn’t care about me and I don’t have friends. I’m so alone.

#3/3/2019