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Most people looking at my ideal body:

Me:

[why-do-i-hear-boss-mxsic]

no I'm not dead. anyways listen to the record player song on repeat for 12 hours while u scroll through this hellsite it makes everything 10x better

#death mention #ana thoughts #just ed things #lose weight #meanspii #ana recipes #meanspp #thinsppi

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I want to be skinny, not dead.

honestly, I feel a lot of Anas have the “dying to be thin” mindset but I don’t count myself in. yes, an empty stomach feels great. yes, sticking to your calorie limit feels great. yes, losing weight feels great whereas gaining it, feels like failing. but you wanna know what doesn’t feel great? noticing your body shutting down. having trouble breathing when lying down, chest pain, a jumping, slowed down heart - all those things don’t feel good to me. they don’t make me euphoric because they’re a sign of me succeeding. they’re a sign of my body giving up and they scare me. a lot.

there is absolutely no use in being skinny if I don’t live long enough to enjoy my new body. I don’t care if I am already at my calorie limit for the day, I don’t care if it’s 3 am or if I just woke up, I don’t care if I was planning on doing a fast - if I feel like I am about to die anytime soon, I eat.

please do yourself the same favor. there is no shame or guilt in keeping yourself alive. doesn’t even have to be something crazy like a big meal. eat an apple. a slice of bread with cottage cheese. a salad. anything. just don’t ignore the signs. because if you’re being honest, you’re just like me.

and I want to be skinny, but I don’t want to be dead.

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fuck

#tw cursing

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Source: Skull from perplexing ritual site reconstructed

[why-do-i-hear-boss-mxsic]

Do not “wait to get worse”.

I don’t care if you’ve “been worse”

Your body is tired of this.

You deserve help in this moment.

[why-do-i-hear-boss-mxsic]

pls kill me I keep gaining and eating and shit I'm fucking gross pls kill me 😭😭

#lose weight #ana thoughts #ana recipes #just ed things #meanspii #meanspp #thinsppi #not pro ana

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when u skip school lunch

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is your dad’s side of the family highkey fucked up or are you normal?

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Be safe ❤

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has this been done because

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i wish i could afford that

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me: may I please have some serotonin?

My worthless trash brain: no but I can give you the 20 seconds before the chorus of Hey Ya for the next 2 hours

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Me during a maniac episode: