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#I was refraining from commenting on iwtv #but keeping an eye on it #but I saw a comment about leaks and so that’s the end of that #not trying to get spoiled so see you in may

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It’s one thing to talk about how media propagates certain images or pairings especially when it comes to interracial relationships. But when people apply it to real people it feels like a boundary is crossed. It’s a cousin to the queer baiting in real life discourse to me.

#representation politics #you care

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Citizen Queen - Y (Performance Video)

#youtube

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My one failing is that I can't let disorganization go. Like I see people dropping all the balls some of which they've forgotten about and I go "welp, might as well catch them and start juggling them around".

People are noticing but it's not always praise, sometimes it's people like 'oh and here are more balls i found on the ground, can you do something about them".

And this is not just a work thing but personal thing cause guess who is organizing family dinners and get togethers because we wouldn't have any otherwise?

I'm trying to get better about delegation but sometimes I want people to take initiative.

Anyways this weekend, spent time writing stories (not the fun kind) while watching random YouTubers (i've been really into the Wildcard clique of Youtubers lately, "Mongie Mondays", what they call their weekly sessions of Among Us, has been a "put it on as background noise" god send).

#lene and things

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Amaarae - Angels in Tibet (Official Music Video)

#youtube #kinda trippy #though very still which is also trippy #so used to everyone doing the most choreography with this song

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bree runway photographed by campbell addy and styled by patti wilson for dazed spring/summer 2022

#bree runway

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Bree Runway should be one of the “pop girlies” social media stans go crazy over but alas.

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counting down the days until my pto at the end of the month because I am exhausted.

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I personally find the Cord Jefferson remarks on Black stories an eye roll because I’ve never entertained people’s complaints that there’s too many Black struggle movies. Twitter will literally call any and every Black story a struggle story. It’s such a disingenuous argument that punishes Black artists disproportionately. We can talk about producers and what gets funded but no there are not too many slave narratives or hood stories or Jim Crow movies. In fact there are not enough and the American education system is making sure to suppress the little exposure to Black American history that we have.

Tl;Dr social media is weird and people are talking out of both sides of their mouths here.

#and things #rant

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Anyways, me watching stans free themselves from stan culture and the parasocial need and expectation to be some rando's pr/management/crisis manager/promoters/street team/agent/caterer/therapist.

#and things #i broke myself free too #so i get it

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It is always funny to me when I decided to write a post on a forum and the moderators are immediately like 'not on my watch'. Like I'm not even saying anything wild, malicious or low effort, so what is the problem here?

#grand opening #grand closing #you care

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I looked up to you Akira Toriyama, you were my inspiration for doing what I do as a writer. You made my childhood great and started up my imagination. Thank you for everything you've done and we will all miss you :(

#akira toriyama #rip

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If you have ever watched Naruto, the Real Housewives of Konoha youtube series is pure entertainment.

#Youtube #the avatar version is pretty good too #naruto #real housewives of konoha

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The new manager wanted to see my GitHub contribution history so I showed him. He was shocked, wondering why it was so low considering my experience. He said he had like 3 times the amount of commits.

I was so confused at first because how could he have a history 3 times that when he just joined the company.

Then I saw him advising some new people to use their personal GitHub accounts and ask for access to the company's repos and then I understood.

I honestly didn't know people were using their personal accounts to connect to company resources. I usually just create a new account every job I get. Not all of my jobs used GitHub either so honestly even if I had been using my personal account the whole time it wouldn't have mattered much in terms of history.

It hasn't really mattered in the long scheme of things--I've never been in an interview where someone has brought up my account history. However, maybe in the future I will use my personal account just for kicks.

#and things #software dev

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https://x.com/arojinle1/status/1763926373821804676?s=12&t=Inwi4nRcEnEk1OfCD2pErg

#to watch

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had the most bizarre dream

tw: gun violence

So I was at work, specifically my current job and they called me to interview a guy with another coworker on my team, one coworker on another team, my manager and and some of the tech leadership (cto and a vp). It was a guy that the manager knew and who was described as an entrepreneur.

So I ask the first question which is 'Can you introduce yourself'?

And he is like 'Wrong question!' and goes into this whole speech about canned questions and how they don't tell anyone anything. The energy in the room was immediately frosty cause it was so random and out there. Like I know he wanted to show off as like a go getter but like, dude it's a self introduction that's your time to make yourself look good. But I was like ok, 'can you tell me about yourself and your technical background'.

He decided to answer that question talking about his life story and specifically not saying anything about tech until the very end when he mentions that he making iphone applications using C#.

C# not a language used in our current tech stack so I followed up with 'I want you to tell me how you would approach an unfamiliar codebase in a language you didn't have a lot of experience with.'

And while he was answering that, the cowoker who wasn't on my team whispered in my ear that his previous answer was kinda shit for various reasons that I can't specifically remember (probably a wrong reason my brain made up because you can make ios apps with C#)

So I try to hand it off to the VPs like "ok, I'll let so and so ask you some questions'. And then there is a silence when the VP just kind of pauses, looking at the guy being interviewed and he sighs and goes. "Ok, we're done here."

Which is a wild ending but I was already like 'fuck this guy' from jump because who gives you attitude over wanting an introduction, like this is 101 interview type of stuff. And I was lowkey glad that everyone else was turned off because sometimes people (men) like that kinda overly aggressive, motivational speaker bs.

So the guy is walked out, and my coworker is like 'You haven't seen anything yet, you just caught the tail end of the trainwreck, we haven't passed anyone today'.

And before I could say anything there's a commotion at the door, and it's the guy who failed the interview and he has a hand gun. I'm near a desk and immediately just fall to the ground hoping not to catch the guy's eye as a target. So basically everyone is jumping on him and trying to get the gun out of his hands. He gets a few shots off, but doesn't hit anyone, and they do manage to get the gun out of his hands.

And finally I'm like like 'ok, what the actual fuck brain' and woke up.

Like what the fuck, but the fact that it was so vivid and the details so recent in time is just proof that work has been stressing me out.

I want worried about taking time off because i have to take of a lot of time to go to my grandmother's funeral and the family had already planned on a vacation so I plan on taking a lot of time off the first half of the year. But honestly now I feel like 'fuck it, i need a break' lol.

#and things #my dream #tw: gun violence

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What’s that saying? Your lack of preparedness is not my emergency?

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