venusatnight

[venusatnight]

You can hide loose skin and wear smaller size clothes. You can't hide the fat rolls, though, and you have to shop online because most stores don't sell your size. It's your choice. Loose skin or fat rolls? Sure, neither are preferable, but you fkd up, so now you have a choice to make.

#fatass #fucking gross #fat ana #tw ed discussion #feeling insecure #i need to lose so much weight

[venusatnight]

I went to the doctor, and they congratulated me on my weight loss. I'm down 40 lbs since the last time I was at the doctor. But, it doesn't stop there.

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[venusatnight]

I just want to go home and sleep and cuddle into my nice warm bed after a nice hot shower and maybe drink some nice hot tea.

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[venusatnight]

Putting my feet together and my calves don't touch. It's definitely not as satisfying as the idea of my thighs not touching, but it's a step in the right direction.

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[venusatnight]

Not me updating my current weight. I'm 10 lbs down from my last update.

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[venusatnight]

I've been away from home for the past 4 days at a relatives house. And I've been eating semi-normally. But I'm so used to fasting and having one meta day on the weekend that all this eating has stressed me the fk out and I've ended up purging all weekend. I feel terrible for doing it. My throat has been scratchy, my sinuses hurt, my mouth tastes disgusting. Luckily I have terrible hay fever 24/7 so it's easy to play off the scratchy voice and puffy eyes and face. I'm going back home, so I'll be back to my usual routine of fasting and OMAD. Above all else though, my teeth hurt because my sinuses are so enflared. Ugh, throwing up is so bad for you, and I hate that I did it... several times. But I was so stressed eating and I obviously didn't have my scale with me because I share a bathroom and they'd want to know why the hell I felt the need to pack a whole scale to bring with me for a weekend away. I'm scared to see how much I've gained.

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[venusatnight]

Do you know how traumatizing it is when someone yells at you or teases you about not and eating and tells me you can't starve yourself or you're being ridiculous or that's not the way to lose weight. You think I enjoy this? You think I like never going out because I don't want people to make me eat or see how little I eat? You think this is fun for me? Because it's not, but at the end of the day, I'll prove you wrong, I've already proved you wrong because look at all the weight I've already lost and kept off. Just wait and see what I can become.

#tw ana diary #fatass #fucking gross #fat ana #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ed discussion #feeling insecure #i need to lose so much weight

[venusatnight]

I've lost so much weight, then I ate normal this weekend because I was spending time with family and friends so I wanted to be social and eat. Well, yesterday was my breaking point. I couldn't pretend and just smile and eat anymore, so I ended up purging three times yesterday. My throat is so raw and scratchy today, but my body honestly feels good having removed the gross fat and salt from my body. So, worth it I guess. But let's try to not eat or eat very healthy cute girl today.

#tw ana diary #fatass #fucking gross #fat ana #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ed discussion #feeling insecure #i need to lose so much weight

[venusatnight]

Nothing to stroke my ego after feeling bad about breaking a fast for a meta day like my mom asking how I got so skinny. I was walking around in a tank top before work because I was on my way to her closet to steal a sweater and I crossed her and she's like, "omg, what's your secret?! How do you look so skinny?!"

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[venusatnight]

I ended my fast early (early for me). I made it to 75 hours, but I've been feeling really foggy-headed today, so I decided to enjoy some safe food.

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[venusatnight]

Had a little fast cheat this morning. I was feeling a little foggy headed and had to drive far, so I ate a protein bar (110 cals). I'm not going to quit fasting, though. I consider this having taken a momentary break rather than completely ending my fast.

Just remember, it's always okay to take breaks, especially for your sanity and health. But it's NEVER okay to simply give up.

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[venusatnight]

I looked at myself in a mirror, and I didn't gag. I'm far from satisfied with my body. I need to lose so much more weight. But considering I ate Burger King last night, the fact that I'm not bloated and feeling terrible today is such a win for me.

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[venusatnight]

Fasted for 50 hours, now I'm gonna attempt a 120-hour fast.

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[venusatnight]

Today, I decided to eat pretty normal and enjoyed some safe foods. I feel really sick and tired from eating. I'm going to do a 48-hour fast and drink a lot of water to help digest now. I'd like to fast longer, but I'll see how it goes.

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[venusatnight]

People only like you when you're pretty.

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[venusatnight]

Finishing a 125-hour fast. The crazy part is usually I do liquid fasts, so I still drink my calories in liquid, but this time around, I barely drank any of my calories. This was actually a really successful fast for me. I'll be finished tonight by the time I get off work, so I'm excited to go home and eat my all-time favorite safe food (macaroni and cheese) and watch TV.

#tw ana diary #fatass #fucking gross #fat ana #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ed discussion #feeling insecure #i need to lose so much weight

[venusatnight]

Don't mind me. I'm just shopping for my skinny self.

#tw ana diary #fatass #fucking gross #fat ana #i want to ⭐️ve #tw ed discussion #feeling insecure #i need to lose so much weight