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i feel so seen!!

(twitter thread)

#asexuality #gender identity #retagging later #my whole ass life experience

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: General Audiences Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Oda Sakunosuke/Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs) Characters: Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Poetry, Sonnets, allusion to the overarching love plot of these two idiots, Happy Birthday Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs) Series: Part 3 of Kami of Fortune and Beautiful Sounds Summary:

A promise made to be kept.

A protest made so to protect.

#bungou stray dogs #oda sakunosuke #sakaguchi ango #odango #bsd fanfic #bsd poetry

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Oda Sakunosuke/Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs) Characters: Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs), Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Sexual Content, Consent Issues, Body Worship, Blindfolds, this is a stripped down exploration on intimacy and consent, considering parts of the BSD canon, at least these two are trying, and had no way to organically add this but yeah this is likely a birthday night for Ango, Happy Birthday Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs) Series: Part 2 of Kami of Fortune and Beautiful Sounds Summary:

A quiet, intimate moment between the two. An attempt is made.

A relationship milestone.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd fanfic #oda sakunosuke #sakaguchi ango #odango #sexual content tw

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Oda Sakunosuke/Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu & Oda Sakunosuke & Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs) Characters: Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Sakaguchi Ango (Bungou Stray Dogs), Dazai Osamu (Bungou Stray Dogs) Additional Tags: Happy Birthday Oda Sakunosuke (Bungou Stray Dogs), Blindfolds, Bondage, dildo, Anal Fingering, although the sexy bits are very brief they still make this, NSFW, dazai you well meaning loser friend, I also forgot Oda bday is on the 26 and not the 27, I am in panic-mode the entire time Summary:

Dazai: I've been traumatized. ( ; A ; )

Ango: My plans have been interrupted. ( = ^ = )

Oda: I've been cock-blocked. ( T _ T )

#bungou stray dogs #bungousd #bsd fanfiction #bsd sakaguchi ango #bsd oda sakunosuke #bsd dazai osamu #odango #tclulubellwrites

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[BSD fanfic] Three Steps to a Reunion

Summary: What does an umbrella symbolize to you?

Craftsmanship?

Symbolism?

Dreams?

A convoluted ghost story of love.

AO3

#bungou stray dogs #bungousd #bsd fanfiction #bsd sakaguchi ango #bsd oda sakunosuke #bsd dazai osamu #odango #tclulubellwrites

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[BSD fanfic] The Addendum Text to a Love Story between a Mortal and a Kami

Summary: What do we do when we clearly see happiness within our grasp?

Hold on to it? Or simply let it go?

Short stories set within the Dark Era about the awkwardly blooming love of two semi-oblivious idiots.

AU series.

Chapter 3

Featuring: tanuki tanuki tanuki.

AO3

#bungou stray dogs #bungousd #bsd fanfiction #bsd sakaguchi ango #bsd oda sakunosuke #odango #tclulubellwrites

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[BSD fanfic] The Addendum Text to a Love Story between a Mortal and a Kami

Summary: What do we do when we clearly see happiness within our grasp?

Hold on to it? Or simply let it go?

Short stories set within the Dark Era about the awkwardly blooming love of two semi-oblivious idiots.

AU series.

AO3

Two chapters up.

#bungou stray dogs #bungousd #bsd fanfiction #bsd sakaguchi ango #bsd oda sakunosuke #odango #tclulubellwrites

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[BSD fanfic] Do we truly only live to save ourselves? Then, what does that make of you?

Summary: What is he to me? What does this mean, to us? The time we spent? Wasn’t it the same with Dazai?

A smile blooms, a slash of petals of a blushing shyness of plum blossoms on snow.

Inspired by the second light novel.

AO3

#bungou stray dogs #bsd fanfiction #tclulubellwrites #bsd ango sakaguchi #bsd sakunosuke oda

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I can’t believe mom did that to you. Actually… I can totally believe it.

Steven, please! She’s already dead! You can’t murder her a second time!

In all seriousness, Pink Diamond’s biggest character flaw has always been the fact that she underestimated how much she meant to other people. A lot of that is certainly due to how she was raised by the Diamonds. They were so bad at showing affection that she honestly believed that she could fake her own death and the Diamonds just wouldn’t care. That’s merely the most extreme example, but it applies to almost all of her relationships, including with Steven. I don’t think she had any idea how much Steven would struggle with her absence.

#steven universe the movie #steven universe spoilers #rose quartz #pink diamond

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That. Right there. A pivotal moment for Rose (upon second viewing), re-contextualizing how she’s been treating those around her exactly like the other Diamonds treated her. She had fled from it, but she’d internalized her role. Loving but condescending and hurtful all the same. She had known no other way, until someone, Greg, finally treated her as an equal.

#steven universe the movie #steven universe spoilers #rose quartz #pink diamond

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Finished this wonderful show so had to make this quick dood

#infinity train #tulip olsen #king atticus #one-one

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[BSD] excerpt from fanfic idea I’ve had in my head for upwards of 4 months...

edit: OK I GENUINELY BEEN TRYING TO POST THIS STUPID THING FOR AWHILE BUT TUMBLR YOU SUCK!

Ok, I keep thinking and thinking of this idea, and like a sharknado, it keeps getting messy. Worse still, this was meant to be an emotion-driven character study, maybe some cute WAFF romance, not SAD ANGRY BOI SPOUTING NIHILISTIC POP PHILOSOPHY. D:<

I already have a bunch of random ideas and scenes and conversations stored away so I can use them when I really do decide to really flesh out this story kicking and screaming inside me. But I need to know if, based on this excerpt I pooped out in the middle of the night, if I’m heading towards OOCness even with the justification of this being an AU inspired by the BEAST novel existence and the ramifications this has with the Book and reality itself.

Scene set up: A teenage!Dazai is doing some investigation for the Agency (for the governemnt? personal reason? don’t know, not important). He ends up meeting someone he hasn’t seen in years.

D:< D:< D:<

Horizontal gaze, horizontal brows, horizontal mouth.

Vertical posture, vertical gaze, vertical words.

Blank mirrors for eyes.

“I cannot wallow. I have made my choices. Yes, poor ones. Yes, willingly too. Is that something too far out beyond your understanding of me? Did I not make a confirmation of my unwittingly, painful performance of another’s puppetry of my person? I made losses, for you and for me. In this world and in his. In yours. Perhaps mine, one day, if I choose to bring myself to consider paying any attention to it. That is the past.

“I decided nothing is impossible anymore. I might not be capable for some actions, but I can trust in this vague, indecisive, claustrophobic world to provide bodies of wilfulness and determinism to complete such choices. Just because it’s inevitable, it doesn’t invalidate it. I rather continue to futilely cling and drag it down with me, because it’s worth debasing oneself with feeling rather than to detach yourself to a numbness of your own ineptitude to accept something will happen regardless.”

The mirrors stop reflecting me.

This gaze... too uncomfortably familiar.

I didn’t think he would let them become wet in front of me again. Time, and time, again to lose something important, because nothing is permanent and everything leaves. Why continue to peruse this performance-!

That gaze burns. Odasaku, what did you say back then!? For such a thing to be exist on his face-!

“Do you really think that numbness came from not feeling anything? Form your vast intelligence and understanding of human behaviour, is that your conclusion? Has it ever occurred to you that to receive so much feeling that your are unable to process it in any form, because of our human limitation on understanding ourselves beyond our vastly narrow perspective? We don’t know ourselves and spend lifetimes trying to make sense of the cosmic randomness that is our person. We are all crippled and in pain, deeply isolated from others, never to understand at all. Is that meaningless? Futile? FUCK NO. We are always MEANT to be that ignorant. Living any life, as painful, strange, remorseful, relentless, ecstatically, vapidly, vastly means there is so much more to experience. To be overwhelmed from. To be stuffed, gutted, and our viscera from the breach to be made beautiful arrangements from what been done!”

His arms movement is jerky, flung far and away from his body. Flapping around as he continues to talk. And talk. And Talk. And Talk. AND TALK-! He contorts his posture in one abrupt, backwards motion, to flop his head back, to look upwards into the endless sky. His knees are bent forward, while his back curves and his chest laying parallel to that endless sky. It’s so dark without the stars; clouds are hiding the sky from his exhibitionist-like action. His chest is moving so wide, then contracting into himself, and wide, and into himself once again. Such deep breathing...

“No matter how intelligent you are, and how aware of people you are, and how you can pluck their strings to dance to your melody, and how deeply isolated you are feeling... You are still one stupid, stupid child, playing the fake society role of ‘adult,’ nonsensically clinging to a story that already ended. I don’t think things will play out as you wish; you believe it will. Because people are still choosing, even in ignorance. Your complacency doesn’t absolve you, but neither is your pro-activeness will be deliverance. We don’t Need anything; we don’t Want anything. We only really need to simply need. We only really want to simply want. It just be simply, simple.”

Is he all a giant sigh? Why were you looking at me like that? I was certain you and Odasaku understood where we were all coming from. Just like back then, there are new futures to pursue, to experience, to protect. Odasaku said it is better to be a good man... And I do want to try. I want it so much, so... of all of us who is trying so hard to be good...

What led you towards this path?

You were the last person we believed would become like this...

“Your intelligence only really reveals your mind-boggling stupidity. I just wished I realized it all those lifetimes ago. I wish I was smarter to realize Sakunosuke was already walking the path he dreamed of, with you.”

I know how lucky I am to have Odasaku this time around. But what does that has to do with you and Dostoevsky working together and for-!

Oh, that mirror is back up, alongside your physical self sending itself towards me.

“I’m sure I know what the Agency is planning. And I will do what I can to make it as difficult and uncomfortable as possible. Not because I don’t want you succeed; somehow you will regardless. I trust that much in the Agency, in you, in Sakunosuke. I only ask that whatever may happen, I will receive the Book for a few moments. Hopefully I can grant my final wish before oblivion.”

But where is that heart of yours?

#bungou stray dogs #bsd fanfiction #bsd dazai osamu #dazai am I doing your character justice??? #Odasaku is mentioned a lot for a guy I didn't plan on being super involved in the story #yet he is the core of the character's journey into... not feeling terrible all the time #odazai is mistaken to be happening #i don't know if I should tag character no 2 #but it sort of is obvious who Dazai is talking to #I think...

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So what I’ve learned from the past couple months of being really loud about being a bi woman on Tumblr is: A lot of young/new LGBT+ people on this site do not understand that some of the stuff they’re saying comes across to other LGBT+ people as offensive, aggressive, or threatening. And when they actually find out the history and context, a lot of them go, “Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I never meant to say that.”

Like, “queer is a slur”: I get the impression that people saying this are like… oh, how I might react if I heard someone refer to all gay men as “f*gs”. Like, “Oh wow, that’s a super loaded word with a bunch of negative freight behind it, are you really sure you want to put that word on people who are still very raw and would be alarmed, upset, or offended if they heard you call them it, no matter what you intended?”

So they’re really surprised when self-described queers respond with a LOT of hostility to what feels like a well-intentioned reminder that some people might not like it. 

That’s because there’s a history of “political lesbians”, like Sheila Jeffreys, who believe that no matter their sexual orientation, women should cut off all social contact with men, who are fundamentally evil, and only date the “correct” sex, which is other women. Political lesbians claim that relationships between women, especially ones that don’t contain lust, are fundamentally pure, good, and  unproblematic. They therefore regard most of the LGBT community with deep suspicion, because its members are either way too into sex, into the wrong kind of sex, into sex with men, are men themselves, or somehow challenge the very definitions of sex and gender. 

When “queer theory” arrived in the 1980s and 1990s as an organized attempt by many diverse LGBT+ people in academia to sit down and talk about the social oppressions they face, political lesbians like Jeffreys attacked it harshly, publishing articles like “The Queer Disappearance of Lesbians”, arguing that because queer theory said it was okay to be a man or stop being a man or want to have sex with a man, it was fundamentally evil and destructive. And this attitude has echoed through the years; many LGBT+ people have experience being harshly criticized by radical feminists because being anything but a cis “gold star lesbian” (another phrase that gives me war flashbacks) was considered patriarchal, oppressive, and basically evil.

And when those arguments happened, “queer” was a good umbrella to shelter under, even when people didn’t know the intricacies of academic queer theory; people who identified as “queer” were more likely to be accepting and understanding, and “queer” was often the only label or community bisexual and nonbinary people didn’t get chased out of. If someone didn’t disagree that people got to call themselves queer, but didn’t want to be called queer themselves, they could just say “I don’t like being called queer” and that was that. Being “queer” was to being LGBT as being a “feminist” was to being a woman; it was opt-in.

But this history isn’t evident when these interactions happen. We don’t sit down and say, “Okay, so forty years ago there was this woman named Sheila, and…” Instead we queers go POP! like pufferfish, instantly on the defensive, a red haze descending over our vision, and bellow, “DO NOT TELL ME WHAT WORDS I CANNOT USE,” because we cannot find a way to say, “This word is so vital and precious to me, I wouldn’t be alive in the same way if I lost it.” And then the people who just pointed out that this word has a history, JEEZ, way to overreact, go away very confused and off-put, because they were just trying to say.

But I’ve found that once this is explained, a lot of people go, “Oh wow, okay, I did NOT mean to insinuate that, I didn’t realize that I was also saying something with a lot of painful freight to it.”

And that? That gives me hope for the future.

#retagging later

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The difference between actually BEING old vs. FEELING old:

Fucking bigger than expected.

#retagging later

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I’m really glad that KC Green’s work is being more widely recognized after the whole “This is not fine” comic came out.

He’s been in the comic making game for a really long time and he has…a bit of a knack for creating things that are used as reaction images and never credited back to him.

He’s a really cool guy and a great artist and I HIGHLY recommend following his work.

#kc green #comics #retagging later

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memeception

#memes #meme culture #meme analysis #joke analysis #meme evolution #meme experimentation #meme remix #meme mastery #meme mashup

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HELLO???????? TAIWAN HAS OFFICIALLY LEGALIZED SAME SEX MARRIAGE. AKA THE FIRST IN ASIA

#LGBT #marriage #taiwan