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jensensitive · 5 years

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Thanks for bringin that thing up on twitter, I was honestly so despaired about it all but I had no one to talk about it and am too anxious to engage online even with a mostly anon account, but now that I dont feel like a complete lunatic I can sleep for the first day in three days in peace lmao gnight

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loll 💕 Yeah honestly I didn’t believe it, and then i did believe it, and then I didn’t again, and now I do again akdhsak

Part of my believing it again is because of these responses I got about a question I asked about a comment that was posted on that insta, which I was about to make a post for but I’ll just post here–

notwithd

Hi i speak spanish, and let me tell you, the person who wrote that comment doesn’t, that sentence is grammatically wrong, you are right with your traducction, and herma doesn’t mean anything else.My guess is that this is a random person who just asume Alma is a spanish or latino-american girl because thats a comon spanish name. (alma also means soul in spanish)

notwithd

perpetua means something like endless, but more deeper, like till the end of time and beyond.Is a very poetic word, and odd alongside Alma.Definitely not a name.

So if that comment doesn’t actually mean anything, and the name definitely isn’t their name (and thank you for responding, @notwithd!), then all the other coincidences are just too much for me too ignore. Like his deleting his poetry that looked similar recently, which I think you or another anon mentioned, his being their only mutual, the handwriting is eerily similar even to the point where they both use multiple versions of the same letters in (a swirly and a straight y, specifically). Most obviously, their weird g’s are exactly the same. This one, as far as I can tell, is floating in some fucking water with sand at the bottom when misha just happened to be at the fucking beach (and do they have red leaves in belize? that I don’t know. Does anyone know what kind of leaf that is? because I do not. Hmu if you do. Or gimme some money to go to belize, and i’ll go investigate). This one uses the word “kerning” in a romantic context, which, i mean… yeah.

It’s all certainly a lot to just be coincidence. I’m convinced tbh. If it means cockles, idk. But I think either way, we should keep it in our back pockets, not comment on it with spn accounts, yknow, not yell about it on twitter or any of his platforms. I wouldn’t want to scare him off.

and if it is him and it does mean cockles, like, how fucking sweet that he posted that poem as soon as they started shooting again. And how fucking sweet that he posted this one the same day as jensen’s “I kinda dig the whole thing” comment (and I may have actually just looked up the exact timeline to see if it fit, cause I’m a goddamn freak, and it does. Jensen commented on the poem around 3pm LA time. Misha liked it at about 3:30pm, and the poem on the other account was posted at 6:38pm LA time. Yeah.) ETA: actually I converted the time totally wrong, the video was posted at 11am, the written poem at 12:38pm, jensen commented at 3pm, misha liked it at 3:30pm. But honestly tell me that gay poem that misha read didn’t resonate with him as being about jensen anyway.

And also if it’s him, I just really fucking love a lot of these poems. The one about the stag is viceral af. If I’m gonna be honest, misha’s poetry has never hit me too hard. I don’t dislike it, it’s just never resounded with me that much, but I really like these a lot. I can also understand why he’d choose these to share anonymously and not his other stuff, because it just feels much more raw like he’s exposed so much more of himself in it than he does in the other poetry he’s shared before, I just feel it more.

Anyway, yeah, I like the account whether it’s misha or not, but if it is, ughhh. I love him even more yknow. Even if it’s anonymous, whoever it is, is really putting their heart and their insecurities and everything out there, and it’s beautiful whoever it is.

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#alma #cockles speculation #poetry #anonymous

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