#yet again it is shown that i can't rely on other people for ANYTHING bc they'll always use me for all i'm worth and then dump me

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FAMILY, am I right?

#well that certainly explains why they had no sympathy for me realizing i'd been groomed by someone! #venty vent #vent cw #vent #ask to tag #annnd now i need to play emotional support for them except even moreso now. fun. thanks for waking me up from the middle of a nap #to tell me that my entire life is changing again. #for the worse. in the middle of me being the most suicidal and depressed i've ever been #suicide ment cw #suicide cw #Spotify #yet again it is shown that i can't rely on other people for ANYTHING bc they'll always use me for all i'm worth and then dump me #murder murder kill attack bite gnaw bite #its fucking exhausting bc my brain is still prioritizing their wellbeing over my own and i cant just turn that shit off #technically i could go to europe with them but that's mean waiting on getting an advanced id and passport and abandoning all of my #mental health services nd prospects in america. and also being the fucking third wheel. AGAIN. #at this point i've accepted that the only family that can ever love me in a healthy way are my brothers