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fanficobsess3d · 4 years

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period headcanons

wow I can’t believe I haven’t put out an anime fic yet, damn I really AM behind

this is my first headcanon for ~the boys~ so bear with me, but I just know that these are all fucking canon and yall can @ me

Also, I’m a little bitch on my period - I’m on it now and lemme just say BOY - so I’m basing this off of my experiences. I have heavy, painful, and emotional periods so….. if you cannot relate just enjoy what could be from the boys of class 1-A

Bakugo

He’s one of the only boys that will know what the fuck is going on with you

His mom is hella loud so it’s obvious that she’d educate her son on it

He may be a prideful asshole, but he was taught to be respectful and educated

He’s also not the type of guy to whine

So be prepared to hear a lot of insults when you whine

“oH mY FuKinh GOODDDDD!!!!”

“You are so annoying! I don’t sound like that!”

“Well, I’m so fucking sorry princess, I hate to break it to you, but you do fucking sound like that with your constant bitching!”

Yeah he highkey roasts you every single time you wanna start whining

But don’t be mistaken, the second you really start to feel the pain he’s genuinely worried

There have been a few times you’ve gotten really bad

You typically start feeling nauseous all day and don’t eat

So you collapse

Curled into a ball on the floor, groaning and moaning

The girls had been with you and hissed with sympathy, but you could already hear Bakugo yelling from the hall

“WhAT THE FUCKKK!”

He instantly scoops you up to hide in a classroom away from everybody

Setting you on the desk, you can see the worry in his eyes

He knew how you got when you were hit with the monthly hellfire rain waterfall

So he was prepared for this

But that didn’t mean he wouldn’t get mad about it

“Jesus fucking CHRIST Y/N!”

“‘M sorry, Katsuki….”

You were playing with your thumbs as he lightly knocked against your head with his knuckles with a scoff

“You need to take better care of yourself, dumbass. I feel like my hair’s gonna go gray every damn time you fucking collapse like that.”

“I tried! I felt like I was gonna get sick this morning! And the pain pills don’t work anymore!”

“Then we’ll fucking skip. Next time, don’t wait to tell me that it’s gotten that bad as you fall like a fucking idiot on the goddamn floor. Dumbass.”

You let a small smile slip onto your face

You knew that he had his own way of showing affection, so you couldn’t help it every time he went even the tiniest bit soft on you

You guys normally skip class after that

You sneak into your dorm to cuddle in your bed with your fuzzy blankets

And yeah you don’t forget the heating pad -- you have Bakugo: the human heater

He keeps a close eye on you the rest of the night, making sure you eat and pumping you full of pain meds to try and keep the pain at bay

But god FORBID you start crying

He is not the most emotional person so the second you start crying he’s like um

He just curls his hand around the back of your head and pushes your head into his chest

Letting his head fall into the crook of your shoulder as your sobs die down

“God, you’re so fucking dramatic, babe.”

“Shut up! The cat was fucking cute okay?!”

But he’s still there whenever you need something

Ask him to get stuff from the store for you and yeah he’ll do it

Prepare for the whining and groaning about it though

He’ll literally be on the phone with you the entire time just so he can be petty and grumble about it

But he’ll never admit that seeing you so distressed every month is more scary and stress inducing than literally everything else in his life

Because you’ve become his life

Not that he’ll tell you that

As for the sex part, I feel like he’ll only do something if you really ask for it or if you’re pissing him off

He’s a complete control freak, so if you think for a second that he’s gonna let you off after your attitude earlier….

Boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy you’re IN FOR IT

But he knows how much pain you might be in so he’s only gonna do it if the mood’s right

Otherwise he’s not gonna put any of him near any part of you because he accidentally read the situation wrong once and you freaked and then cried because you told him no

Yeah, that was a fun conversation

Bakugo was pissed when he found out the background about that answer

But if you are up to it, yeah y’all are going like seven rounds I SWEAR

That boy has the stamina of a fucking rabbit

Todoroki

This is also the only other guy who’s gonna know about uterus period stuff because of his sister

Yeah, he doesn’t know the specifics as much as Bakugo

But he’s aware of what’s happening

Honestly I feel like he’s one of the best ones to be around on your period tbh

Yeah, he’s quiet, but that makes your life much much easier when all you want to do is cry and scream at people all day

The second you get mad at something, he gives you that look

Everything will be fine, calm down

And it’s like everything is fine

You also know that he’ll be a little petty bitch if you decide to get mad at him about something

But then you’ll start crying because you didn’t mean to get mad at him and he’ll just smile at you because he knows that you genuinely do feel bad

As for the cramps, he’s already prepared

The second your period hits he just…. Knows

He knows you so well that he can instantly feel when your personality starts to change

So not even a period later he’s shoving chocolate and a teddy bear with a cute picture of you two, in your face

He does get really worried when the cramps get really bad though

Pain meds don’t really work on you, so the only thing that he can do is massage you with his left side

He knows that the heat helps so anytime your face contorts and your mouth lets out a grunt of pain he’s instantly massaging your stomach or back

My fatass cANNOT relate but N E WAYS

He’s not as dramatic as Bakugo but yeah, he does get really worried

He gets quieter than usual, if that’s even possible, and he never leaves your side

But that’s more for him than you since he knows that you get so caught up that you forget to take care of yourself sometimes

And he worries about you all of the time

Be prepared for a look if you start whining, though

He’s not really used to that

so if you start taking the immature route

whether because you feel bad or because you want to piss him off

Get ready for intimidating Todo

He kind of looks at you like you need to remember who you’re talking to.

But he does understand that there are some days when every little thing gets to you

So he’s always prepared to listen

“Why is it that I’m the only person on this planet who suffers!???? I swear to gooddddd my uterus is about to fuckING EXPLODE!!! AND THERE’S NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT ITTTT! AAAAAA!”

“Baby-”

“Oh my god!!! You called me baby!” suddenly you’re bawling again

He picks you up and sets you in his lap, letting you latch onto his shoulders and neck

I highkey feel like he’s one of the guys who’d try and help by sex ngl

Like if you’re in his lap for longer than a second

Oop you’re getting it

It’s inevitable

You really don’t mind tho cause BOY is an orgasm on your period fucking hEAVEN

Shoto’s also a switch so like

Since you’re such a goddamn sub baby on your period, what he says goes

the second you throw a fit, BOOM you’re gettin fucked

he’d prefer if you cry over an orgasm than a shitty dog commercial and that’s the tea on that

Izuku

Little baby over here has no fucking idea what a period is

he was never really around girls much, so he never really learned

not to mention that schools barely cover it as it is

He knows it involves blood

He knows it involves your parts????

…. and yeah, that’s pretty much it

So the second you start complaining about it he gets all blushy and confused

You didn’t have time to explain, so the rest of the day was an adventure for him to try and figure it out

He gets instantly focused

He starts murmuring weird theories and writing down weird stuff as the day goes on

Noticing your weird habits and how you seemed to act like Kacchan

You became impulsive and you cried like four times before the first class ended

Not to mention how many arguments you got into

he was convinced for a wholeass solid period that a demon had literally possessed you

He was very, very, confused

But he wanted to find out why you were like that

Later on, you sat him down and explained everything

Granted, he blushed like a little school boy and it was an awkward conversation on his part

But you were irritated because it was so annoying to have to explain it to every boy ever

but you were just glad that he was respectful about it

He felt bad that you had to sit down and explain something so normal and commonplace to him

then you felt bad because you didn’t mean to be mean to him

or make him feel bad

Yeah, you started crying again

But now he understands everything and he feels, like, really bad

He doesn’t get why it’s the girls that have to suffer through everything

he also doesn’t understand why nobody pushed for more education about it

he now understand more of the stigma around women and he feels really bad about that because he genuinely had no idea

And wow you gave him a pat on the back after that came out of his mouth

That got him so lovely bonus points

But he has that glint in his eye that you know very well, and you instantly sweat drop as he begins to mutter ideas to himself

The next morning you show up to class and he instantly greets you with a hug and chocolate and very cooey gooey words that made Bakugo gag at his desk

Later on that night, he makes you guys the comfiest blanket fort and sets up a bunch of movies to watch

Every time you cry he borderline cries himself, hugging you to his chest and wrapping you guys with the blankets

Every time you are in serious pain he feels really bad and hovers over you like a mother hen

One time you collapsed and he instantly picked you up and ran to Recovery Girl in the health center

He genuinely thought you had died or something

But no, the cramps made you nauseous and you didn’t eat so your iron levels dropped really low and you passed out

He instantly freaked and kept shoving food in your mouth for the rest of the week

Now for the sex part

You were in pain more often than not, so it was a bad idea for anything sexual to happen

But yeah, you got horny on your period like, half of the time

Somehow the topic of period sex was brought up between you and Izuku and he had no idea that that was a thing

The look on his face when he realized it was probably the funniest fucking thing ever

His eyes bulged out of his head like those weird animal pens

But he actually thought about it and literally a look at you would have you pouncing on him

It was 50/50 on whether you’d be in the mood, though

Sometimes you just wanted to fuck

Sometimes you wanted to suck his dick until he cried

Other times you just wanted to cuddle his chest

and, yeah, sometimes you wanted to throw a plate at a wall

honestly i felt that

After the first time you’d had a successful sexual encounter on your period

You wished him luck on trying to figure out when to do each

He just looked at you with wide eyes

“Yeah, I’ll just warn you now, because of how wacky my emotions are, if you tried anything like what we just did and I was not in the mood, my uterus would’ve had a royal fit.”

“What do you mean?” he looked at you cautiously

You turned to him, your eyes a dark glint, “I mean, if I’m not in the mood for sex, I’m either going suck you, cry, or punch you. Good luck figuring out when I wanna do each one.”

He looked at how close you were in proximity and promptly scooted back a few inches, almost falling off of the bed

But you grabbed his arm and yanked him back until he was pushed into your neck

“Yeah, also you can’t stop cuddling me until I say so, either.”

“... so as long as I do what you ask you won’t kill me, right?”

you had to giggle at that, he was just so naive at times

you hadn’t meant to come off so intimidating, because you were really happen that he was nice enough to take care of you like t

a lot of boyfriends you’d had in the past had been real assholes about it

“H-hey this is serious! How can I take care of you if i’m dead?!?!”

you turned to look at him

“That’s your only concern?” there was weird glint in your eye

“... am I supposed to be worried about something else?”

yeah, you jumped him again

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mochimim · 7 years

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Dead leaves - Chapter 6

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Word count: 3.8k

Pairing: Seokjin x Reader

Warnings: implications of smut

Summary: Don’t fall in love. Promise me.“ She said, gripping onto my arm.

“I promise.”

A/N: SORRY FOR BEING SO INACTIVE HERE I HATE MYSELF JSJSJSJSJ but yeah tbh i feel like this chapter wasn’t as good as I wanted it to be ???? but eh whatever it’s alright I HOPE YALL LIKE IT THOOOOO enjoyyyy (also this is my first time writing smut but it’s not really smut but you will see)

I was running.

“What do you mean she got attacked?” I asked Seokjin, horrified. His gaze dropped to his feet.

“Exactly what you think it is,” his voice cracked halfway. “Yesterday afternoon, she was walking to her car and she got mugged. The mugger stole her things and left her to die.”

Where was I running to?

“How do you know about this? Why didn’t you tell me earlier?” I dropped all my books, fearing the worst for my best friend.

“Hye Gi’s mother called me this morning. That’s why I didn’t tell you sooner.” New tears formed in his eyes, threatening to spill out.

“Is she dead?” I almost yelled, grabbing onto his shirt collar. His eyes widened in fear, glistening with unshed tears. He shrugged his shoulders, seeming desperate and I let go of him.

I looked down at my hands. They were shaking.

I didn’t even know.

I had to go see her. She was worth the punishment that I would undoubtedly get.

“Where is she?” I broke down in front of him.

“Seoul General Hospital.”

And so, I started running.

I had to find someone with a car.

I saw a bunch of Seokjin’s friends in a small corner, eating and talking. What were their names again? Taehyung, Yoongi, Namjoon, Hoseok and Jungkook.

“Could someone please drive me to the hospital?” I pleaded, clinging onto Hoseok’s sleeve. I was desperate, I had no time to worry about how bad I looked.

“Y/n! Are you alright? What’s-” Taehyung started, but Yoongi cut him off almost immediately.

“I’m down for cutting class,” he shrugged.

“But Yoongi hyung, you have Youngjae seonsaengnim next,” Jungkook piped up from his hiding spot behind Taehyung. Yoongi waved him off with a flick of his wrist, and I swore I saw both Jungkook and Taehyung take a step back.

“Anyone else want to come?” He asked, contorted his face as he dug through his pockets to find the keys to his car. Namjoon stepped forward, not opening his mouth. I looked at Hoseok, whom I was still clinging on to. His eyes shone as if he wanted to object, but he didn’t say a word, so I assumed he was in.

“I do.” I heard a small voice peep from behind me. I whipped my head around and saw Jimin with his head dipped down. Yoongi stared at the younger boy, as if he was thinking about saying something. But, honestly, I didn’t even care anymore. I just wanted to see whether Hye Gi was alive.

I let go of Hoseok and latched onto Yoongi, tugging on his arm, fresh tears spilling from my eyes. He sighed and gestured for Jimin to go to the hospital with us. Jimin’s face lit up just a little, and he quickly ran up to my side.

Jimin was my next victim, and I clung onto his arm, softly sobbing. Yoongi nodded at Taehyung and Jungkook, signalling that we were leaving.

“If seonsaengnim asks where you are, we will make an excuse up. Please hurry.” Taehyung sighed, and Jungkook nodded in silent agreement. Yoongi didn’t say a word and turned around to go to his car.

Trying to wipe my eyes and keep up with the boys’ fast pace, I was struggling. I felt like my lungs had given up. Probably because of all the crying.

Yoongi entered a black Mercedes, and everyone else followed. I didn’t even have time to gape at the expensive car before I slunk into it. He started the car, and we were off.

Sitting next to Jimin and Hoseok was difficult. Both of them exuberating positivity as they comforted me. It hurt, you know, that both of them could seem positive at such a low moment in my life. Namjoon and Yoongi were especially quiet sitting in the front, attitudes matching what I was more comfortable with at that moment.

In the midst of my panic, I looked at Jimin. He seemed… different. Skinnier, paler, sadder. I wondered why.

After many traffic lights and countless car horns, we finally arrived at the hospital.

Not even caring if I was supposed to exit the car or not, I pushed Hoseok aside and jumped out. I sprinted to the front desk, startling the young receptionist.

“Choi Hye Gi?” I asked, not giving her any context. Her initial smile dropped to an embarrassed one, and she whispered something that I couldn’t hear. I started hyperventilating, mumbling Hye Gi’s name over and over to myself. Another lady approached me, probably trying to help me out of my distressed state.

“Ma’am, please calm down. What is the matter?” She had a maternal sort of tone that persuaded me to stop hyperventilating.

“Choi Hye Gi.” I said between hiccups. Her face turned a darker shade and she swallowed.

“I’m so sorry ma’am.”

My heart shattered.

I was quiet on the ground. I didn’t have anything to say. For once in my life, I was speechless.

I could have saved her, I could have gone with her. But, I was too much of a bloody idiot.

I felt so stupid, I wanted to curl up into ball on the ground and cry until my tear ducts dried up. I didn’t understand why fate would be so cruel to me, what did I do wrong?

Karma is a bitch, but I didn’t do anything to anyone.

I felt so lonely, even though the hospital staff were swarming around me, pleading for me to get up.

I finally walked out of the dreary hospital. I felt so empty. I felt like dying.

I felt pain.

Physical pain.

I got onto my knees and looked up at the sky. The weather matched my mood, stormy and grey. I screamed at it. I couldn’t take it.

I felt a pair of arms around my waist, hoisting me up onto my feet. I turned around and saw Jimin’s youthful face, struck with concern.

“Will she ever come back?”

“Remember…holiday…week” That was all I could make out from the many words spilling out of Mrs Choi’s mouth. How could I focus on what the hell she was saying at a time like this? The memory of my friend’s death kept replaying in my mind, I was slipping in and out of consciousness. I had no will to listen. Even though it had already been about a month since she died, my heart still ached.

“Sorry I’m late Seonsaengnim,” a small boy that I didn’t bother to remember stood at the door and did a full bow. “I was attending my grandmother’s funeral.”

“Class is almost over anyway.” Mrs Choi nodded, and he scuttled into class.

“Speaking of death, isn’t it weird?” She started to digress. “I mean, people only cry about that person because we receive something from them. If we don’t know the person, or if they don’t give us anything, we won’t cry.”

The entire class stared at me as I started tearing up.

“Sorry.” I mumbled as I packed my bag and walked straight out of class.

My name reverberated around the dead halls, and I quickened my steps. I had to go. I had to get out of here, I had to g…

I slammed into someone and fell onto the ground.

I looked up and saw the last person I wanted to see.

I just started sobbing there and then. I let all my pent up emotions go. I didn’t care that Seokjin was there staring at me like I was a madman, I kept on crying.

He bent down and held my face in his hands.

“Let’s go on a road trip.”

I looked over at my mother as I stuffed the neatly stacked piles of clothes into my backpack. She was on the computer, probably doing some work, earning money to make her house even more dreary than mine.

“You know, mum, I’m going on a roadtrip with my friend tomorrow,” I started. “Don’t miss me too much.”

“Yes, dear.” She said, not looking up from her screen.

“Do you want to know where I’m going? Or why?” I furrowed my brows, a little hurt, but not very surprised.

“Enlighten me, dear,” she mumbled, mostly to herself.

“I’m going to Alaska to buy polar bear cocaine and get arrested for skinny-dipping.” I deadpanned, waiting for some sort of reaction from her.

“That sounds like fun, honey.”

“Mum!” I lost my temper, causing her to jump a little at the sudden noise, but her bored facial expression never changed. “I’m not coming home for 3 days, do you even care? Why are you even at my apartment if you’re just going to be staring at your stupid screen the whole day?”

“Of course I care about you.” She sang as she finally looked up. “I’m really busy at work, honey. You seem upset. Let’s talk after I’m done working. I’ll make some tea.” She flashed her famous fake smile, the one that made millions, and went back to work.

She liked to say that, but she never made me tea or talked to me about my problems. She probably owed me enough tea to fill the Grand Canyon.

I snatched my phone off my bed and texted Jin.

Me: Tomorrow can’t wait. Let’s go now.

Harley Quinn: I’ll be there in 10.

Now, I was just shoving everything that was in my reach into my bag. I just wanted to get out of my own house, for the sole reason that my mother was in it.

Slinging the bag over my shoulder, I glanced at her one more time.

“Bye. You know how to lock up.” I spat. I was half-hoping for a scolding, or at least an angry glare. But all she offered me was her sickly sweet smile.

“Au Revoir!”

And I slammed the door.

“Here comes the angsty teen,” he giggled as I stormed into his car. “Care to share your feelings, young one?”

“Yeah, my emotionless mother was irritating, anything new?” I rolled my eyes. “But you obviously won’t understand, seeing as your mother has emotions.”

“She doesn’t.”

I looked at him, but his cold expression screamed at me to shut up and move on, and so I did.

“Where are we going, anyway?”

“Does Busan sound good to you?” He asked, gripping the wheel a little tighter.

“Not really,” I sighed. “I came out here to temporarily forget about her, not remember that her death was all my fault.” I rushed through my words, tripping on a few.

“Look, it’s not…” He tried to talk, but I quickly cut him off.

“Let’s not talk about this.” I snapped, and he immediately retreated. It came out harsher than I had intended it to be, but I would do anything to get him to shut up about Hye Gi.

We stayed silent for a good fifteen minutes, the silence deafening. Suddenly, he piped up.

“Do you want to listen to the radio? Or I’ve got the BTX CD, if you like them.”

“Holy shit, I love BTX!” I gasped. “Who’s your favourite?”

“Rap Monster, duh,” he chuckled.”He’s great, I’m super gay for him.”

I choked on nothing and stared at him. His face and neck turned an ungodly shade of red and he looked like he was going to pass out.

“No…no…I didn’t mean it in that way,” he stuttered, and I giggled at him. “He’s just great.”

“I mean, hey,” I shrugged. “No shame man.” I wiggled my eyebrows suggestively. He took one hand off the wheel and hit me right in the arm.

“Dude, it’s chill. I’m super gay for Amber Liu.”

We spent the next 3 hours talking and singing to our favourite songs. Well, he sang, I was just yelling the lyrics.

“Do you know where we are?” I asked him when all I saw outside the window was grass.

“Nope!” He sang cheerfully. “But I know how to get back. My sense of direction is impeccable.”

My heart beat faster with every word that fell from his lips.

“Dude, I get anxious when I’m in an unfamiliar place,” my voice started to waver. “Please don’t get us lost.”

“Chillax, I know where we are. I was just pulling your leg, babe.” He giggled as one hand reached out to pat my thigh

What the hell did he just call me?

My already racing heart beat even faster.

I glanced in his direction, trying not to look to obvious. His hand was still resting on my thigh, and his cheeks were a little pinker than normal but it was probably because of the biting Spring wind. He seemed normal.

“Are you hungry?” He asked, taking his hand off my thigh and reached for a bag in the back. “I have sandwiches.” I immediately felt the sharpness of the air that hit the place where his hand was and I wanted it back there.

I dug through the bag and pulled a ham sandwich out. It was already dark outside and we had been travelling for 7 hours. It felt like 7 minutes.

We pulled over to a small cliff that overlooked a city. Artificial lights lit up the night sky, giving the city an eery look. The scenery looked fake, ethereal, something out of a storybook.

He put the top down on his car and switched the engine off. A gentle breeze laughed as it flew past my ears, making me close my eyes in bliss.

“How many girls have you brought here?” I joked, and he turned a little more pink.

“You’re the first one.” He mumbled, and I shot him a skeptical look.

“I’m serious!” He laughed. “I just found this spot yesterday. I go on many road trips by myself when I need to clear my busy mind.”

“It’s a beautiful place. Are we staying here tonight?”

“Yeah, sure.”

We had already decided that I would sleep more comfortably in the back, and he would sleep in the driver’s seat. Bundling myself into a blanket as I jumped behind, I snuggled up to the soft jacket I used as a pillow and scooched aside so that he could sit behind with me to talk until we felt sleepy.

“Can I ask you a question on a touchy subject?” I asked, sitting up. He hesitated for a little while, but he nodded as he shoved a handful of popcorn into his mouth that appeared out of thin air.

“Why did you reject me when I confessed to you?”

He choked on his popcorn.

“Uh,” he turned red for the hundredth time that day. “I…I wasn’t ready for a commitment. I had just broken up with Hye Gi, and I was going through quite a bit.”

“I used to believe that dating was stupid, because we were all going to be emotionless when we turn 21 anyway,” he sighed. I understood where he was coming from, but, very ironically, he was the one that changed my mind. “Then, Hye Gi came in and swept me off my feet. She made me feel like love wasn’t so bad.”

“But, I think that I’m ready now.” I looked up at him with hope in my eyes. “I like someone. And I think Hye Gi would approve.”

“Ooh, who’s the lucky girl?” I teased him, but all my hope drained out of my body.

“Nope, not telling.” He chuckled to himself as he crawled back to the front seat. “But, can I ask you how to make sure that she likes me back? I’m pretty sure she likes me, but I’m afraid that I will make a fool of myself if she actually doesn’t.”

“Kiss her.” I snapped.

“I mean, like you said, she likes you. And every girl in school would die to get a kiss from the famous Kim Seokjin.”

He just blinked at me, looking very confused.

“Are… Are you sure?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?” I lay down and closed my eyes, trying to get the thought of him out of my head as soon as possible. Of course I felt a little bad that I took my anger out on him, but I wasn’t going to apologise to him there and then.

He was silent for a bit, and I assumed that he had fallen asleep. But then, I heard the sound of skin against fake leather and the back seat dipped. He gingerly lifted my head and put it on what I guessed was his lap.

I was trying very hard not to hyperventilate. Or cry.

If it was any other time of the day, I would have blushed so hard I would have put tomatoes to shame. BUt, I was so exhausted, I didn’t protest or make a noise. I just let him move me, and I slipped into a deep sleep.

“I love you.”

“I like you, Y/n.” Jin smiled at me.

“Holy shit, are you serious?” I gasped. “I like you too! I’ve actually liked you for a long time. It feels good to let all of this out, I’m so relieved oh my god.” I was beginning to ramble, but instead of a happy response, he stared at me like I was an alien.

“Uh, Y/n?” He cringed. “I don’t like you that way. I like you as a friend.”

I woke up.

“Jin! Did I say anything weird last night?” He opened his mouth to respond, but I quickly cut him off.

“I mean, something really stupid.”

“Nah,” he smiled at me. “Nothing stupid.You were crying while you were sleeping though. My whole thigh was wet when I woke up - I don’t need to hear what your dirty thoughts are please, thank you very much.”

Thank God it was just a dream.

“Where are we?” I peered out the window, desperate for a subject change.

“I never know where we are, only where we’re going.” He told me, not taking his eyes off the road. “We’re going on a picnic before we head back.” “How long is it going to be? What time is it? Are we there yet?” I shot questions at him as I sat up, excited at the thought of food.

“Depends on how long you want to stay, 1.15 pm and we are here.” He stopped the car and gestured to the scenery in front of him. “Ta-da!”

I raised my head and gasped.

We were in front of a lake. Crystal-clear water filled the atmosphere, and the breeze was a little crisp and cool and refreshing.

“Hurry up! Let’s go!”

Jin’s Perspective

She looked so happy.

She wore an expression that I hadn’t seen in months. I missed it.

She was the light of my life, but she didn’t even know it. She had no idea, no clue.

I love her.

She had so much love waiting to burst out of her, she exuberated positivity, her pretty face of innocence made me want to make love to her until we were both too tired to even move. But, she didn’t seem to love me back.

Every time I thought of Hye Gi, her face would appear i front of me as if she was haunting me. Even when I was still dating the former, Y/N would always sneak her way into my thoughts.

As I watched the beautiful girl skip stones across the lake, I knew that I was undoubtedly, crazy, 100% in love with her.

We spent hours there, talking, eating, skipping stones and splashing each other until we were drenched.

We were just running, trying to catch each other under the warm sun, the sharp wind of Spring dancing on our cheeks. I was about to catch her, when she fell, and I instinctively leaned forward and fell down myself.

But, I was on top of her.

I quickly supported my weight on my arms, but I didn’t have any motivation to get up.

Looking down at her, I realised she had no flaws whatsoever. As she looked back into my eyes, I felt a burning sense of passion and love in me.

“A-Are you ready?” I managed to choke out.

Don’t lose it.

“Ready for what?”

She lost it.

I jumped to my feet, a little red in the face, a little hurt in the heart.

“Let’s go home.”

Y/n’s perspective

Our time at the lake was way too short. I wanted to spend more time with him. The entire road trip was hardly long enough.

We sat in silence all the way until we reached the same cliff, the radio emitting terrible static sounds. He didn’t seem to mind though. His brows were a little more furrowed than usual, his hands gripped a little tighter to the wheel than usual, and he was a little less talkative than usual. But, other than that, he seemed normal.

“Look, Jin. If you’re upset, you could just talk to me about it, you know.” I prompted, shifting my weight so that I could easily climb to the back seat.

He mumbled something that sounded like “Let’s not talk about it.”

“You have to tell me how you feel, though. Don’t bottle up your emotions, it’s not healthy.”

“Just leave it, Y/n!” He snapped at me, making me very irritated and frankly, a little hurt.

“Wow.” I rolled my eyes, leaning forward with every word I spat. “I’m just trying to help you, and you yell at me. What a great-”

But before I could continue, he shut me up.

By pressing his lips against mine.

His hands came up to cup my face, while mine were gripping onto the seat for dear life.

I felt a tear slide down my cheek, but it wasn’t my own.

When he finally pulled away, I just stared at him in shock. He had completely taken me off guard and knocked all the wind out of my body.

“Jin, wh-what the-” I stuttered, trying to regain my senses.

“You idiot, I’m in love with you, and have been for quite a while.” He looked serious, it was hard for me to figure out if he was joking or not.

“ mean, I’m in love with you too, but how do you like me? Wh-what? There’s nothing to like about me. I’m not remotely beautiful.” I blushed and looked down. But, he used his hand to lift my face up so I was level with his.

“What’s there not to love?” He gently pushed me to the back seat.

“There’s your gorgeous eyes,” I lay across the seats.

“There’s your cute nose,” he kissed my nose gently.

“There’s your beautiful lips,” he pushed his lips against mine, making me instinctively run my fingers through his brown hair. “They drive me mad.”

“You are beautiful.” He started unbuttoning my top, and I felt the cold air hit my chest. “There’s no denying that.”

My arms were hanging off his neck, and I started into his eyes once more, and found trust and love in them.

Let go, Y/n. Let go.

And so, I did.

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