#work is evil. school would theoretically b fine if i had a brain that worked

[filmcel]

genuinely feel so lost in life. i fucking hate my job. i don’t want to be in school but i have to or my fucking parents r gonna kill me. i think going to school will make me more suicidal because that’s how i felt in highschool i just can’t fucking do that shit. i don’t even wanna hear about no “college is actually wayyy better than highschool” FALSE. idc if the work is easy. having work at all is genuinely gonna fucking kill me. my school anxiety was almost entirely bc i couldn’t fucking work. i turned in everything so late and had so much shit excused because i had a nice teacher. if i go to college without even wanting to be there i’ll fucking shoot myself like BRUUUHH. going to school literally only means i’ll have to email all my teachers every week that my assignments won’t b turned in on time because i’m suicidal

#so fucking stupid i hate this life #literally fucking over it #captain’s log #gonna be forced to train the new employees again because my fucking GM is a bitch and doesn’t wanna pay me more for it #fuck him like ur so lucky i do everything i should bc i wanna help out my coworkers. #gay as fuck bruh get me out of here #UGHHHHH #and only barely finally got a second fucking work shirt so i don’t have to worry about smelling at work anymore… so embarrassing #but like. I genuinely am suicidal. #not in a way where like. u need to worry about me. #but i’m like WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO. #i need a fucking LIFE. #work is evil. school would theoretically b fine if i had a brain that worked #gonna have to suffer thru it all i guess to make my parents not b more disappointed in me #also forgot to mention my parents hate me now 😍. #they’re waiting for a time to ‘have a talk with me’ because of my failure life. #i love it here so much 😍. #it’s so dumb cuz no one can tell me how to fix my lifeZ #simply is ‘deal w the bullshit’ #dumber ppl than me have gone to college and succeeded but i just don’t have any drive #and it doesn’t help to be CLOSETED .