#who seriously. if he hadn't cut someone's legs off with a plasma arc due to this. if he hadn't LIED about it.

[regallibellbright]

“You should go to a hospital.”

“You”--Miles eyed him--”have just lost your authority over my actions. May I remind you. Simon.”

Miles has just been fired by someone who is functionally his uncle, who he called “Uncle” until he entered the Imperial Service nine years ago. Simon’s clearly broken up about this and would have taken any possible out if Miles had given him one. Simon also just witnessed Miles have a seizure in front of him. (Simon also, as family to the Vorkosigans in all but name AND Imperial spymaster, has to be aware of the fact that Miles is a suicide risk right now.) He may have had to fire Miles, but he clearly still cares a lot.

Miles responds by switching back to first-name basis just to twist the knife on that line. It’s awful.

#suicide mention #attempted suicide mention #to be more specific knowing what's about to happen #i guess this is a vorkosigan saga liveblog now #vorkosigan saga #memory #miles naismith vorkosigan #is an impetuous little shit here and is damned lucky Simon cares so much #the self-destruction and lashing out at other people has already begun and it began with Ivan earlier #Simon Ilyan #who is the only commanding officer who could have possibly put up with Miles because only family could ever stand it #who loves him so much that Cordelia could tell he was having a breakdown writing the report where Miles was killed in action #because for once he was euphemising and dodging the point and doing everything he could to avoid saying 'Miles was killed in action' #who seriously. if he hadn't cut someone's legs off with a plasma arc due to this. if he hadn't LIED about it. #if he hadn't passed up EVERY POSSIBLE OPPORTUNITY to save himself. Simon would have tried for Miles. #who is Aral Vorkosigan's liegesworn vassal in all but name not just because of the political reasons but PERSONALLY and everyone knows it #who we all know what's coming up yeah? The good news is Miles is going to redeem himself hard for that 'Simon.' soon enough #but knowing what's coming just makes it hit even harder. OUCH Miles.