#which. aughhhh

[average-hua-cheng-fan]

another reason i think that xie lian felt an instant connection on the ox cart is because he and hua cheng both grew up in xianle.

there are maybe 4 people still alive that grew up in that culture. based on my own experience, you can pick up on things like accent, cadence, references, and humor that suggest a person is from the same place as you without consciously noticing it. that sense of comfort and similarity probably played into their instant chemistry.

#thinking about how they are bonded together by being the only people who remember their dead culture... augh it kind of makes me want to cr #as much fighting as fengqing do they are really the only people who will EVER understand each other's childhoods #which. aughhhh #there's a lovely modern au fic by heavensturtle called ''i'm just there to admire you.'' where they talk about chinese diaspora go read it #fics that mention paradise manor being in the xianle style also make me want to bawl. especially when fxmq notice it #other people that remember xianle: qi rong. jun wu. mei nianqing. yeah. none of those people are easy to talk to #buried deep in the xianle quartets heads are things like xianxia silly bands and xianxia nickelodeon and xianxia hi chew that LITERALLY #NOBODY ELSE IN THE ENTIRE WORLD REMEMBERS. DOES THAT NOT MAKE YOU FEEL INSANE #the immortality in tgcf and how it affects memory and sense of self and relationships. ourgh #i speak #tgcf meta #tgcf #tgcf spoilers #i guess? #tian guan ci fu #tgcf books #heaven official's blessing #hob #xie lian #hua cheng #hualian #feng xin #mu qing #fengqing #xianle trio #xianle quartet

[ruporas]

asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)

[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.

The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.

Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."

A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]

[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff #bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH.... #when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of #asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want #maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him... #and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up #please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it. #and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first #time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate #wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask. #wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point #but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely. #bc he loves him a lot. but anyway #i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs #ruporas art

[americankimchi]

thinking about how both tfa (2015) and rogue one (2016) came out post-disney's acquisition of lucasfilms (2012) and both those films live on so fondly in my heart but have also, somehow, been earmarked in my head as the last true additions to star wars canon to have come out ever since

#personal #like even if i enjoy watching things that aren't those two movies post-disney it's like #for whatever reason. my head files it as ''haha that was fun. glad that's not canon'' #WHICH IS ADMITTEDLY. A WILD THING TO THINK. LIKE THOSE TV SHOWS AND CARTOONS ARE DEFINITELY CANON #but my brain REFUSES to acknowledge them as such #obviously half of it is ''some of this reads like absolute bullshit'' #but the other half is ''i straight up enjoyed this. this was fun to me. but also it's not canon <3'' #wish i could just unequivocally like everything but alas my standards are hard to parse even for me #the person who has them #AUGHHHH #don't ask me how tcw fits into this as it's in a weird middle ground #tcw in my head is like...... jedi apprentice.... or the comics...... in that it's canon except it isn't except it IS. #i CANNOT elaborate. my thoughts are an enigma unto myself.

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

the record, staring at me: you know you want me

me:

the record: LIMITED EDITION ORANGE CRUSH VINYL YOU KNOW YOU WANT ME

me: but you're not that great an album and it's not like records are cheap and there's like five other special albums that have my fingers itching

the parental advisory sticker: bitch what about me you know you wanna get one o' mine before actually turning 18. do it now

#im pretty sure im gonna pick up my records tomorrow and exchange this specific album for another one i know and love #but dont yet own that is also available on coloured vinyl which is amazing. BUT. that sticker #goooosh my local record store has a couple REALLY great albums for pretty cheap rn and i still have a coupon and hngggg #i looked through em today and had a few albums put back for me but. aughhh. theres so many SO COOL records. my fingers are itching #i do not have the money to collect records like i want to #i mean. it wouldnt be that fun and meaningful otherwise but AUGHHHH SO MANY GREAT ALBUMS. AFFORDABLE. IN COLOUR #a biscuit's rambles

[boonanaghost]

Big Man gijinka + Big Betrayal doodle

#myart #big man splatoon #bigman #big man #shiver splatoon #shiver #frye splatoon #frye #splatoon fanart #splat3 #splatoon #I told myself I’d never make a gijinka cause I’m uncreative but i literally saw him in my dreams so I had to draw him #He like floated from the sky and the dream ended. A fairy…. #Anyways I went crazy with the hammerhead shark leifmotifs (is that correct??) because I KNOW that’s his literal favorite #Plus a pink version cause again I cant tell which colors look better #No rendering cause I had to fit this doodle session in with a big math test coming up… studyinggg aughhhh

[lokh]

i want him to get mad i NEED him to get mad i so desperately need him to find out and get angry it's what he deserves

#AUGHHHH IM ONLY ON VOL 8 SOMEONE HASNT RETURNED 9 TO THE LIBRARY #and for some reason both libraries are missing vol 10???? huh???????? #i know its like. just read it online. but. idk where fhnfnfng #lucy liu voice TEAR THE BITCH APART #AT THE MOMENT IT HAPPENED WHAT DID HE FEEL... FEAR?? BETRAYAL??? RESIGNATION????? #WAS IT SOMETHING HE COULDNT BELIEVE HAD HAPPENED OR WAS IT SOMETHING HE ALWAYS SUSPECTED #HE WAS CAPABLE OF.......... WHICH IS WORSE

[teamfortresstwo]

I feel like Martin could’ve been a really interesting character in tma but so much of the content about him is about jmart and being like “oh he’s so nice!”. Character who should be put on a high up shelf for a tiny bit while the fandom considers it a little maybe. He has a bunch of moments I really liked but I’m not a huge fan of the interpretations most people have.

I got somewhat more rambly than usual and most of my mutuals probs don’t want to see this so:

YEAH SO TRUE!! He is literally so compelling in s4!! There is so much to like about him!! There’s so much I want to know more about and an arc I wish so badly that he’d had!!!…..

But then he just. Kinda didn’t? Like they put a bunch of cool ideas for him on the table then pushed them all off in s5 by giving him nothing to do except nag at Jon which did nothing but make him sound really annoying. Plus like…. He was framed more righteously than before y’know? Like the narrative was leaning into those ‘cute little UwU bean’ interpretations and it just came across as so…. !!!! Like!! Annabelle Cane literally talks about how good of a web avatar he would make so why didn’t we spend ANY of s5 exploring that!! Why did we barely get to explore him at all outside of like 2 lonely based episodes!! Why is everyone convinced that he’s both super smart AND the epitome of moral righteousness!! We’ve only seen him be manipulative once (which lead do the end of the world) and then got a whole bunch of lip service about it and we were straight up told that a lot of his fluffier qualities are a straight up lie!! And nothing interesting comes of this AUGHHHH!!

Sorry for rambling a bit, I just remembered how much wasted potential Martin had and it hurt.

#Martin negative #TMA critical #like I literally loved all the s5 statements that were focused on him why couldn’t the rest of his cha #characterization in s5 been like that aughhhh. #me bwood I love you but I hate you but I love you #Please explore him. if you’re going to have JM then at least use it to explore their characters a bit more like it could be so interesting #it canonically *is* interesting it’s just also framed as the most boring and flat thing by the narrative #which is also how I feel about s5 Martin #TMA negative #anti TMA #anti Martin #Martin critical #discourse #fandom critical #trying to tag everything I can think of so nobody who doesn’t want to see this does

[swordmaid]

they're so strangles the air 😭

#shri'iia being playful aughhhh everyone MOVE!!!! #really like picking the playful options esp around act 2 i think that's her being more of herself #which is something that she did not really get to do..!! since her individuality is so tied to her oath and her religion...... #but now that she is free her own personality is resurfacing .. and she's more comfortable with saying what she wants bc before #she is just saying what she thinks the other wants to /hear/ since she's constantly seeking approval and validation ..........

[moe-broey]

YOUR ASS HURT. DONE.

This is my island, Starfall!!!!! I had vague but elaborate lore for it and the residents, some sort of mystical enchanted forest town that's home to some strange guys (a mermaid on land, a vampire, an alien..... two random old OCs of mine LMFAOOO and MEEEEEE 💖)

These are only snippets of Starfall, so I recommend visiting if you're interested! Plus I. Worked hard on it and am still proud of some of my builds 🫣 It was never Finished finished, but also it's at a point where I don't wanna do anything else but nuke it 😅

Dream Address is DA-9640-4620-8466 like it says on the tin!!! 🤗

#animal crossing new horizons #acnh #PLEASE VISIT i even set out some items. which isn't much but it is very enriching when visiting dreams LMFAO #i probably won't be nuking it immediately i may wanna take more pics esp of my ocs #and also that. took so much time. that's the problem w ac LMFAO sometimes it's more of a chore 😓 #ALSO I NEED TO NUKE THIS SO BAD. it was DEF made in my v early parts of transition #where i was heavy into still being a cutesy 'girly' soft boy and. AUGHHHH I NEED TO KILL HIM #NOT REALLY. BUT STILL. like i still think it's true but i'm NOT soft anymore. i'm punk. i'm PUNK #i couldn't even deck out my guy in fully edgier attired cause that's the vampire's gimmick. cute but sharp. #espppp in the start i think my guy's gimmick was pretty boy princely still v femme/cutesy #which is FINE. but god. I'M EVIL NOW‼️‼️‼️ I'M SUPER EVIL NOW‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ #when i start over my guy's whole thing is he's gonna be a fucking weirdo freak. idk how i'll communicate that #through props/dress alone but i'll fucking find a way #tbh i feel like a fun new theme could be a playfully spooky island..... like starfall has hints of this #but i think i can go further. lean way into it. #ANYWAYS IF YOU VISIT. TELL ME!!!!!!!!! if you want 😇 #dream address #idk. if there's a proper tag for it.

[devilbrakers]

when u start making a uquiz but then realize u have to come up with questions...

#AUGHHHH i loved drafting the answers (which oc would date u. btw) but i'm too dumb for this

[lemongogo]

no i need the trimax vash nendoroid so bad u dont understand

#edit i lied im sosorry its not a mahito nendoroid like i tjought 😭😭😭 <fake fan #i dont want 2 edit my tags tho peace n luv #mahito was actually going 2 be my first and ONLY! nendoroid but the vash one is soo cute #plus its his og design so its like . WORTH ITT!!!!!!sorru im such a pickme but i rly hate the stampede designs💔 #but tbh i dont want to collect nendos so its like.. mahito.. or vash.. tbh .. honestly who cares . what if i break a little rule .. get both #AUGHHHH #no bc im not even like a jjk diehard but i want all the jjk ones they r so cute #the kny ones too actually not as bad which is crazy bc kny is my like longterm media #trigun #trigun maximum #vash #ok literally shut up idc i will probably forget and never get them but be like aah😋 so cute i want it😋(continuing the cycle)

[ye-olde-trojan-horse]

I have a cold, and it’s only 3 days into pride month.

this feels homophobic of the universe.

#i am not sick #I refuse to believe this #nope #:/ #aughhhh #what the fuck do i do with this #i haven’t had a cold in so long #like 3 years kind of long #before covid started i think #because I basically avoided the world #and people #which i still do #but apparently to a lesser extent #APPARENTLY NOT ENOUGH #idk how to be sick anymore #what the fuck #kill me now pls #nathara is active? what.

[masqueradeoftheguilty]

listen i love diluc but im begging people to reread his character story 4 bcs i keep seeing fanon insist that:

diluc only went to snezhnaya for three years (false he very explicitly went to all 7 nations)

he's??? an underling in the info network??? (in the span of a year he got promoted to the "upper echelons" due to his own talents and skills - not to mention he was the youngest knights captain in history and thus yknow. has experience in leadership)

the second one especially annoys me bcs it ties into this weirdly pervasive fanon idea that diluc is "weak" in some way 😭 (which is another whole post on its own bcs i have Opinions but)

#sorry. diluc lore makes me ill in a very specific way. #god. sorry. the second one always makes me roll my eyes bcs its. #aughhhh just. theres a weird pattern of people dumbing diluc down which this is part of. #step right up! || 🪄.txt

[vonlipvig]

i don't know how to feel about my current predicament

#TOLD YOU WE WOULD GET THAT GAS FIELD we're SO ok with energy #and we're at +3 budget per turn which ok that's nice that can turn around in a couple turns! #but authority? GOD THEY HATE MEEEEE #AND I KEEP MAKING IT WORSEEEE #and without authority i cant do FUCK ALL AAAAAA #literally the decree page is so funny it's all like ❌❌❌❌❌❌❌ #but OH WELL. we will Carry On. i guess next time they give me a freebie +1 auth i'll have to take it #(even if it means being Mean aughhhh i dont wannaaaaa) #jules plays suzerain

[sonic-adventure-3]

i shouldve been asleep 7 hours ago. i opened up blender just to quickly check out a couple things and then suddenly i was modelling jerry. weirdly higher poly than rig or squabble, super scuffed, but i am indeed able to model in blender. i need to go to beddddddd

#repurposed rigs head with a ton of work. idk why i didnt work off squabble's head instead #rambles #3d adventures #aughhhh learning's learning. i'll take whatever hours i can focus for. however i would also like to wake up before 2 pm sometime soon #i dont know if theres a symmetry mode. i've just been splitting it in half then duplicating + merging #i know there's symmetrize but i couldnt figure out how to make it work properly? i couldn't figure out how to change which axis it acts on #and with a supremely quick skim i couldnt see like another symmetry tool. but istg ive used it previously #but i absolutely could not find it

[squidkidnerd]

this is a psa that "if i could tell her" from dear evan hansen (specifically the sapphic version by reinaery) is SUCH an agent 24 song it's unreal. CRIMINAL no one's made a pmv of it yet

#splatoon #agent 24 #'but we're a million worlds apart' yeah how abt growing up in two different societies that are enemies of each other #just AUGHHHH #anyways i would definitely make a pmv if i had the time and the art skills #which i dont #so yeah #if u decide to make one credit me /j