#which is usually strongest with Implications instead of proper whump or whatnot

[averlym]

Im sorry but can you do 45 angst for parrlyn? U don't have to tho!

45- "leave" (very quick doodle for you!)

#hi anon akshdjdhd thank you for asking so politely i guess #here's this .. 'm not sure what exactly but it's exam project season rn #and like!!! screwed up stress responses all over the place!! #anyways. #six the musical #six the musical fanart #anne boleyn #catherine parr #parrlyn #... the angst of being in an awkward situation #quick run down: been reading fic (not helping my revision any but nevertheless) and looking back at old characterisations of cathy #and like one thing was the coffee/ lack of sleep/ stress response thing that seems like part of widely accepted hc #and. well. um my stress response is avoidance! including of people #so yeahhhh maybe pushing people away is bad but also people can be so overwhelming even in the same room yknow #aka why i haven't been studying with friends (sad haha) and like maybe i'm projecting a little bit . shh #also also anne! bestie! me too! logically it's the 'ily but i really Cannot rn' and yeah it checks out but #on the other side of it the rsd / anxiety hits hard it's like oh i'm a terrible person #then you spend the next hour coaxing yourself out of that piece of sh- mindset #so. that's the idea of angst but also apparently most people don't know the insides of my head so what's angst for me #which is usually strongest with Implications instead of proper whump or whatnot #isn't probably angst for the. general populace .. #maybe it's the anxiety? *fingerguns* #alright! gn! #<side story: there was once this guy who kept trying to get me to go out with him to study (?still actually but now he's resigned to reject #-​ion) and i couldn't say to his face ' i would want you to stop breathing tbh because your physical presence in the same room would set me #absolutely off and into a nervous breakdown' and that's how i ended up saying 'people are distracting' and implied i was interested in him> #<lowkey. very yikes>