#which is that its emotionally fucking exhausting (/pos)

[isogenderskitty]

guys avpm is going to be 15 years old

in 18 days

what the fuck

#im . #wow #starkid #avpm #i rewatched avpsy today and i remembered the real reason i havent watched it nearly as much as avpm and avps #which is that its emotionally fucking exhausting (/pos) #and also im watching starkid homecoming rn and im. losing my mind #augh #a very potter musical #a very potter trilogy #avpt

[ohshy]

Apart from Hipercy, what are your favorite punch out fics?

im assuming u meant ships right?? IN AAANY CASE, here u go bro !!

Royal army (von kaiser x king hippo) is definitely up there as my favorite PO ship. I love how it started out as a crackship from a joke in animal crossing but then just delved into Whatever the fuck w/ maber KJDHKSJF.

But seriously though !! they just Work somehow... like you have both of them having royal names (albeit i hc hippos is an actual title he carries, and kaisers more of a stage name bc of his interest in royal n military history). Plus, I think kaiser would b very interested in learning more ab hippos culture n hippo would b happy to indulge him. It's what elevates Kaiser from ''just another peasant'' to Hippo as someone who he's willing to talk to! Not many people take his title seriously as hippo island's fairly unknown outside of the south pacific hes from, so when they first meet, Kaiser's a huge breath of fresh air to him.

Seeing as Kaiser is a polyglot as well in my HC, I like to think he was one of the few people in the WVBA who had prior knowledge of Hippo Island and it's language. Although Kaiser can only speak a couple basic sentences and struggles with the pronounciation, Hippo still appreciates the effort. In turn, Kaiser has also taught Hippo some German, the language being easier to Hippo due to the sounds made.

Totally T4T (tism4tism).

ALSO imagine the hippo island kids n kaiser's academy kids going on some type of exchange w/ one another !! theyd have the time of their lives !! The kids would totally get into an argument over who's cooler too.

They're a lot like opposites attracting as well. Hippo, although he is responsible to his people, is generally a lot more easygoing n defo helps kaiser let loose a bit more like how he did in his 20s (berliner party days baybe !!!) But Hippo learns a lot from Kaiser too ! he really admires his work ethic, and loves how much of a leader n fatherly he is to the kids he teaches. He admires his resilience as well, both having confided much into eachother. His resilicience almost like a... MACHINE?!? Either way, both have positions in which they lead in some way, and theyve both taught eachother a lot.

Also they bond over dead mother figures (hippos who died of illness, and kaiser's who went missing when he was very young.)

As for how they'd butt heads, would be kaisers endless need to seek approval due to his dad being emotionally constipated, and hippos occasional emotional outbursts (poor emotional regulation). also hippos friendly teasing (how he shows affection, aside from physical contact) sometimes strikes a nerve w/ kaiser, esp if it's about his age or career.

One time, after a particularly exhausting match, kaiser just fell asleep on hippos lap as the latter was holding him. Aran walked by in disbelief, w/ hippo going ''heh, jealous? ;)'' w/ aran going ''Nah, not at all''

One last thing.... hippo sees kaiser as a kitten (thank you maber for that idea i am obsessed); kaiser's height n physique r significantly smaller than hippo's, leading to hippo often times patting him on the head n even picking him up like he weighs nothing. Kaiser secretly rly likes it, but he won't tell him directly because yknow... hes got a rep to protect.

^ Kaiser to Hippo

other ships i like include.... Red bull (soda x bull) burnt bread (joe x aran) u can blame charlie for both those (jk jk bro im glad u got me into those ships. But please read his fics, thats how i got into them) and disco kid x heike kagero !!

Red bull is just very neat bc of the whole, in simple terms, sunshine x grump dynamic (and im saying simple terms bc charlie's fics flesh out their relationship A LOT more n its basically the best ok go read his fics), burnt bread bc of how unlikely yet funny it is, and disco x heike bc, eventhough theyve never interacted, you KNOW theyd absolutely be bffs at the very least.

#thank u for the ask jose !!! #hope u guys like long answers bc i got plenty of them >:)))) #von kaiser #king hippo #punch out #punch out wii #royal army #monkey brain typing #asks

[corvid-corvette-coven]

emails between my and my school psychiatrist, Kat (the beloved <3) || VENT!! || long post but i vented to prove my point to her aswell

Corvid-Corvette-Coven <[email protected]>

To: Kat (the beloved <3)

Wed 25/10/2023 9:22pm

Subject: <this field has been intentionally left blank>

we had a meeting scheduled for today right? Cos i wont be at school today It's gonna be a bad day for classes for me and I honestly just pussied out of it its more likely i have an underlying buildup of anxiety thats doing that but yeah

literally me /\

Kat (the beloved <3) <[email protected]>

To: corvid-corvette-coven

Fri 27/10 2023 11:21am

Subject: Re. <this field has been intentionally left blank>

Hi, How are you feeling today? I hope you are at school. Cause you know the longer you avoid anxious triggers, the more difficult they may become to face…just saying….

With Gratitude, Kat (the beloved<3 | Psychologist  School Jesus School 100 School Street | PO Box 8008 | TOWN NSW 8008 ABN 17 690 720 860 P [phone]p E [email protected] W http://www.school.nsw.edu.au

Corvid-Corvette-Coven <[email protected]>

To: Kat (the beloved <3)

Fri 27/10 2023 12:24pm

Subject: This email took an hour to write lol (can you tell I used to do public speaking and debating)

I'm feeling good today, I've taken my meds (which is why this email is so long and detailed), and I plan to get work done. ('good' really means normal, and for me n o r m a l means I'm still carrying my constant emotional baggage but it's not necessarily bumming me out right now)

COUNTER ARGUMENT!!! The longer you stay in situations that stress you out the further that will continue to build, and really I am de-stressing to avoid burnout. THINGS THAT STRESS ME OUT (non exhaustive list) -Dysphoria from my friends  (appearance and social gender envy from Ara Ara)  (emotional, appearance, and social gender envy from Brisket)  (emotional, appearance, and social gender envy from Paella) -General emotional uncertainty and inability to connect with my friends as deeply as I wish I could -Particularly painful classes as a result of disruptive students  History, Christian Studies, (English + Math sometimes) (I've gotten over the initial misery I had with english) -Not having classes with ANY friends beyond my electives not only considering they can have classes together which allows them to have more developed friendships, but also the classes I do have with someone I know (that isn't an elective) I have with Shakira who is far from my first option and who I'm only really 'friends' with because of proximity and the fact she isn't too bad (even if a bit irritating, rude, and fickle) (the only nice thing about having Shakira there is she creates a barrier between me, and To Slo/ biggus (despite the fact they only sit near because she's there)) I tend to avoid recognising this in particular because it evokes the part of my thought process that thinks the state of reality now is what it will always be like (hopelessness) -Dysphoria in those classes not only from the perceived disconnect between my behaviour and the girls but from a general assumed association with the boys (the disruptive students) -The fact that dysphoria makes alot of good things more bitter than sweet for me, which can be disheartening for my friends And also that I'm so consistently upset and emotionally devastated that they have given up on trying to comfort me despite that being what I need so much in those situations -That fucking bald spot -Dysphoria from being apart of the boys sporting class and smelling horrific with sweat (even if I wear more than enough deodorant any smell is far too much) -Even food tech (one of the good classes) take some serious emotional manoeuvring to enjoy since I have to  not stress out Ara Ara too much and adapt to what she wants to do. Being funny whilst not interruptive and not a too masculine way to avoid the emotional distress of potentially not being someone she enjoys being around (and avoid more dysphoria) ALL OF THAT brings more dysphoria when its cross compared with her relationships with Brisket and Paella and MORE dysphoria comes when I see the relationship she has with Mrs F, how she's able to talk to her and joke with her and everything -The general emotional uncertainty that I feel Ara Ara and I have, it feels like they are more and less unhappy with me every other week and I can't decipher which of the thousands of possible reasons that could be, or if its real at all and I'm just entirely incorrect about that. Exams are really an afterthought because they stress my brain out too much to think about the effect they'll have (same with my future (both the good and bad possibilities)) I think it might be a defence or coping mechanism but instead of reconciling and working with that stress I somehow have both an oblivious and aggressively optimistic outlook with a glass half full sort've way. "In less than a week and a half it'll be over" is generally what I try to remember. Not thinking about it much is bad for me because I can't seize every chance I could to study; thinking about THAT too hard will stress me out so I'm trying to just think about studying more instead of how I'm studying less that I should.

It's not something I can always feel buildup consciously, even if I'm feeling good in the morning I know when a day is going to be bad for me, so anxiety is the hypothesis. (I can also tell what days I'm going to be the most prone to dysphoria) that was most of the points I can remember at this time, though I know there's more stresses and arguments I could make but that summarises my current state fairly accurately.  that being said, I am at home today and my excuse is it's actually better to have the whole day to study (even if I just spent the first few hours rotting)

#vent ish #It's definitely the meds consolidating all these thoughts for me but it's good to say everything I want #to someone who categorically SHOULD be able to hear that #names not referenced explicitly cos i can do what i want #get therapy #she/they

[whattheschmuck]

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Intellectual property has been stolen from me.

Not just me, this was stolen from @darktonic​ too--seemingly with the intention of posting its content in personal works given the context of the situation. I really didn’t want to have to actually call out the person I’ve been having problems with and potentially identify them but this is something I can’t ignore. Before I continue, I’m going to objectively give context for the situation and explain what happened and also clarify that the issues are only between me and [person]. So, here goes...

About a week ago I had a fight with a now-former friend and collaborator. Now, this person has been in a pretty shit position so I, doing what I felt was right without being asked to because that’s just the type of person I legitimately want to be, decided to try to be there to help said person because I did care and I did want to help. This isn’t the reason why I was so livid with the individual in question but it is important and it is related. Let me be clear, the way this entire situation started wasn’t so bad. It was enough to piss me off (which is very difficult to do, might I add) but it wasn’t something that I’d hold a grudge over. It’s what happened afterwards that made it bad. It all goes like this: in the past I’ve already had some quarrels with [person], and the thing in this instance in particular was an issue that has come up several times in the past. And every single time it has come up I felt like it was very clear that I was bothered by it.

I was excited because I met a pretty awesome girl on a dating app (Her) and was expressing that. As some of you may realize, if you live in/go to school in a conservative area of a conservative state like I do, a lot of LGBT people try to fly under the radar (myself included for a time) for their own safety...thus making it really difficult for me to find a girlfriend the “organic” way. So Her is more than just a last resort, it is the only safe way that I currently know of to find a girlfriend. [Person] knows this.

Despite that fact that [person] knew this, they once again made me feel kinda bad for using “lame” dating apps because I wasn’t meeting people “organically.” Given the fact that I have had this debate several times prior to this, I became irritated and reminded them that I have been punched in the face at school for being gay. For being gay. So yes, I thought it was really insensitive to say that when [person] knew I was attacked. I also thought it was doubly insensitive given the fact that [person], who isn’t a U.S. citizen, knew what was happening with Trump and knew how anxious I was about the entire situation. Despite this, in response to “yeah, but you’ve never been punched in the face for being fucking gay,” [person] said “no I haven’t, but I have been for being white, for sticking up for someone, for no reason at all, etc. etc.”

I wasn’t insinuating in any way shape or form that this type of stuff only happens to gay people. But the point is that we get attacked for the same reasons and then some! I can’t walk up to random women and start flirting with them--the fact of the matter is that being gay is not as socially acceptable as being straight. Redneck guys will punch you in the face like they did to me. You will be sexually assaulted for being gay...like me. Yes. That happened. I managed to get away before it got really bad but that still freaks me out to this day. I said all of this in the conversation and then because I was so livid, I just said “fuck it, just forget it,” and left the chat to cool down. But not before being further angered by their response: “Don’t get sore at me over nothing, you brought it up like it only happens to gays or something. Jesus.”

So by this point, I’m completely pissed off and it normally takes me a few days to simmer down before I can have a calm discussion after the fact. But here’s the thing: they just kept going. And I kept getting more angry. First of all...

1) I had confided in [person] about the issue a while ago because it had happened a while ago. It is not my problem if this was not deemed important enough to remember. 2) Since when was making a point equated with weaponization? What right-minded individual would want to weaponize sexual assault? I did not appreciate that insinuation, and I was still really livid at the time so I just didn’t respond because, again, I knew things would escalate if I did. So I’m already a bit stung by that on top of still being angry but I let it go to calm down instead. Then I got another message about 14 hours later:  “This is getting out of hand. What you're doing is >actual emotional abuse<, and I know you know how it affects me, because we've talked about it before. You're being cruel.”

Now tell me something, how is taking time to simmer down suddenly equated to emotional abuse?! I know I said I was going to be objective but what?! I was actually emotionally abused up until I left for college. I think I know what emotional abuse is, and I would never emotionally abuse an individual. Never. And after how much I cared and was there for [person]? That hurt. A lot. Because it basically told me I was an abusive POS and that my help apparently meant nothing. That despite the fact that I always drop everything to be there for anyone at anytime, I’m abusive and cruel? I made it very clear after that point that I was angry, that it took a lot to get me that pissed off, that I need time to simmer down, and then I told [person] to leave me alone until I could calm down.

They didn’t leave me alone. They continued messaging me. Then they essentially decided our friendship for me before I even had a chance to calm down by deleting/unfollowing me on all forms of social media. Then they’re still actively monitoring my social media despite not following me anymore, actively venting to a mutual friend over posts that I had literally just made, seeing every single post as being about them, and then they started to message me again after reading a post I made on here expressing how hurt and emotionally exhausted I was.

This was really befuddling to me considering they removed me from all social media and essentially sent the message to me that they didn’t want to be friends, and yet just because they randomly changed their mind I owed them a response after all of that? They also tried tactics like pretending to get Skype call notifications from me when I had very apparently not tried to call them just so they could get a response out of me. They tried again and again but after being as hurt as I was, I was to the point where I didn’t even want anything to do with them anymore. I was also deeply unnerved by how much they were messaging me and I was also unnerved by some other stuff that I know happened that I’m not going to discuss on here to be respectful. So, it got to the point where I was forced to block them.

So getting to the theft now with this context... [Person] collaborated on a fic with me and Dark in the past and they apparently wanted a part they wrote. I was obviously leery initially because it came across as very sketchy and seemed like another attempt to get my attention (why did they need to ask me for it? They could have asked the other collaborator). I didn’t know their intentions for writing material from a fic that is currently being rewritten. Ultimately, it was determined that the excerpt was indeed 100% theirs and we released that and nothing else--we weren’t going to give them access to all of the fic for obvious reasons. Anything that is collaborative is not any one person’s property and should not be used for personal submissions if other people have participated in it. I also want to clarify really quickly that we are not using any of [person]’s ideas in the fic rewrite because we have more integrity than that.

So fine, but now I’m finding out that they’re trying to claim that chapter 17 of the fic is basically entirely theirs too which it very much is not. Then I checked the Croft Manor e-mail to see that it had essentially been hijacked and the recovery e-mail changed. Then I saw that they stole a copy of the chapter in question for themselves--seemingly with the intent of using its content for their own submissions. I feel like I don’t need to tell you why that isn’t okay but in case I do, let me be very clear: just from looking at the doc’s detailed revision history I found that out of 7712 words in the chapter’s content, and based on criteria like who had the ideas behind content and stuff I wrote in the chapter alone/with [person], I own 3590 words. 47%. And I could probably claim more if I decided to look through my old writing notes. Just writing something doesn’t mean you automatically own the ideas/concepts behind the content.

So no, that chapter is not entirely theirs and it is plagiarism if they even try to post it. So that’s why I’m posting this. And that’s why I put images of the chapter in the beginning (with the slashed-through parts being the parts that I actually own to my knowledge so far). They do not own all of the ideas in there. The scars thing? That was inspired by a poem that I wrote. I own that idea (I forgot to slash out the content associated with it so my word total is actually probably closer to at or above 50% ownership). They do not own any of the past fanon referenced via character dialogue and if they try to reference that, they are plagiarizing a collectively collaborative work’s canon. In all reality, they only have a right to naked Salara woundcare and that. Is. It.

If they post anything else, they are thieves and they are plagiarizing my intellectual property as well as the intellectual property of others and gaining a readership off of mine and Dark’s fic. Yes, they worked on it but they are not entitled to anything. Just like how Dark and I wouldn’t be entitled to anything either. Because we only have a partial ownership of the fic. So I’m telling you now, if they publish this chapter in any way, shape, or form whether it be verbatim or including my writing or ideas they are thieves and deserve to be treated as such.

#S.S. Endurance #Salara #Lara Croft #Sam Nishimura #tomb raider #plagiarism #intellectual property theft #triggers #writing