#was the week back frm spring break..had two meets one of which was out of town on a saturday taking 30 kids

[sungwoonha]

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#this week has been… just extremely … #as of last week mentally n physically i had just been drained… #was the week back frm spring break..had two meets one of which was out of town on a saturday taking 30 kids #it was A Lot n then it was also my bday that day so it somehow felt more of a drag bc it’s like … idk my bday doesn’t mean much nor do i #even do much but… it being on a saturday n still having to work n be around the kids it felt extra draining #it was nice tho.. kids had great swims it went by fast n we all went to get ice cream together after #so i’m not complaining but i’m super introverted so by this time of the season my social battery is just.. on the floor.. #this coming up week is our most important week of the season for the team as a whole so i’ve just been stressed x9273738 #and mentally i do feel exhausted and this past week has just been hard.. #i am still in a state of disbelief n everything feels like a daze i can’t bring myself to even say his name …like i feel more than ever i’m #on autopilot it’s just all muscle memory taking me through the remainder of the season bc after this i’m rly just drained of everything #ik there was a reason for this post n me talking abt where i’m at but i can’t rmbr…. #i’ve sat here for a minute n it came to me again #so that’s where i’m at rn and as usual sungwoon came n gave us the words i needed to hear #wnvr i’m at my lowest he just Knows somehow n tells us exactly what i needed to hear in the moment #he updated us saying he can’t believe that at this time next year he will be back home<3 #only one more year to go and we’ll b reunited.. i’m sooo so happy #and then he said he’s been in deep thought these days and that he hopes haneuls are healthy both physically and mentally and that he misses #us so much #like….. yea… i just love him sm #anyway… i’m almost free frm the stress of our season n hopefully after i’ll make it through this long tunnel i feel i’m in and finally #Breathe…. i also have two cons next month so i’m excited to get a few weeks of relaxation before that n going w a light heart to the cons #seeing txt and wei<33333 like i’m so excited #hope everyone is hanging in there<3333 #p