#uahwghhhh im just tired

[strayheat]

it's okay guys we just have to get through thursday and friday we're good

#and also hobie brown exists #hey rant warning #more like feverish mumbling #i had such a stressful and annoying day today #everybody say fuck robert from the marketing department👍👍 #uahwghhhh im just tired #gotta wash my hair and i just ate some pizza its good #i have to be seriously thinking abt what im doing abt my masters #im so ducking stressed #do i do it on the side and work in the meantime <-would have to find a new job in the city i might move to. i have no portfolio nothing #do i go into it fully and not work <-i could be making money by im not. not that im in desperate need it would just be very nice to #be building a stash yknow #dude holy fuck what do i do #also if i were to move and change my job would i try to keep the current one until i find another or do i just drop it end of sept #like i planned #oh and also!!!! do i go and do a masters in programming which will probably give me a more universal chance of employment in IT #or do i go into gamedev whoch would be more up my alley i think but i also think would limit my chances in the general market outside gamed #if i did just programming i could take some gamedev courses on top #but god fucking knkws i wont unless thereatened with a knife thats just not gonna happen #and also i will be miserable the whole way through in programming bc i assume its just gonna be 2 more years of what i did for bachelors #while im hoping gamedev would be kinder to me but have no realistic way of knowing since we only had one class in game making for bachelors #i did like it though (as opposed to literally everything else past the first 2 lectures) #also im passionate abt games and gamedev (as in i love to look at it amd listen abt it. not that im deeply in love with doing gamedev and #This unsure still. like i like it from the outside. v much. havent had the chance to say for sure whether i love it from the actual doing p #rspective #also besides all that i need to buy an outfit for a wedding thats like 3 weeks away <-may be alot but not to me and not for buying clothes #and also also a persons hitting on me over dc and theyre getting me overwhelmed (i dont mind it mostly. i just think its pointless and they #e not getting the hint) #im so confused like how do u hit on a person literally the only thing u know abt is that theyre gay and youve exchanged like. 70 words tota #dude im in a fever dream