#tionne is . one of the most beautiful people ive met in my fucking life and for a second i was genuinely about to question whether or not i

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i've decided that i am once again allowed to be angry and that im allowed to believe that i think and feel beautifully

#personal #im allowed to think good things about myself #im allowed to glance at myself and believe myself beautiful sometimes #im allowed to be angry at people what theyve done / are doing #im happy that in autistic im happy that i have a cat and i have friends who love me and i love back #im happy that i have pink hair and someday soon i will play the violin for someone and fall in love w them #i didnt deserve to wake up **** ***** not knowing where i was i didnt deserve any of the shit men did to me i dont deserve most of all to b #told that i need to be more forgiving. no. i won't be forgiving. i havent processed it and i likely wont for a while because im 18 #and tired and vulnerable and my brain wont let me believe it was real but fuck i know i didnt deserve any of it ! #i deserve to be loved i deserve to feel loved #fuck men . anyway if someone chases you home . you tell the fucking police about it bc it can bite back later . top tips . xoxo ♡ #tionne is . one of the most beautiful people ive met in my fucking life and for a second i was genuinely about to question whether or not i #deserve to talk to her . No . thats not right . #and im allowed to be angry at people who made me think my existence is a chore . im allowed to be angry at them and im allowed to be angry #at men . it was a man . i know it was a man . i know certainly that it was a man . fuck #i might be dropping my therapist soon but he said some things right and i didnt want to believe him because i thought i didnt deserve it bu #no he's right . he's right about my mind . #im so so full of anger but it's not unfounded i am so full of rage and it's going to save me i am so full of poetry and love and music and #played tchaikovsky today and my teacher said i was gifted and i almost cried because we wanted to go to juilliard but fuck . men . #i love my friends i love my cat and i dont love myself but i dont hate myself at all #i care for myself #and i deserve that #im allowed that. #good morning. i loved you. goodnight. #my hands #are made #to hold #and be held.