#this isnt to diminish shauna gifting her the necklace btw !! that IS so important because it is her saying she loves natalie

[lambjock]

genuinely hope natalie keeps jackie's necklace in s3 -- that she fiddles with it and stares at it, a little crooked heart on a golden string, and thinks about jackie taylor and how never in a million years would she have given this gift to nat, and yet it now belongs to her anyways. the good luck charm. the blessing of protection. an undying promise of a love natalie has struggled to know her whole life ( i would never hurt you on purpose / you're my best friend and i'd do anything for you ) and most importantly it's something that replaced the cold steel of a knife against her neck in the form of their soccer captain's delicate heart. it's hers, hers, hers, and when her head is weighed with antlers the only warmth she feels is from a metallic shape that's long since indented itself against her sunken, bony skin. a love she'll pass down to prey she'll always feel sorry for but a love that'll return to her all the same. and maybe in a kinder life it was something nat rightfully earned rather than the premature consolation it really was. and maybe in that other world the necklace comes from a well maintained, plushy hand : dangled into nat's ring-clustered fingers with a smile. and instead of pitiful sorry i love you's, it's a sickly fond look, one that's just for her.

#my posts. #shows › yellowjackets #jackienat. #can you tell im in my feelings ??? that i'm going nuts in my enclosure ??? #in a less poetic way : let nat selfishly keep the necklace and let this be another thing her and shauna beef over lol #i just UGHHHH ... nat having the necklace hurts me so deeply because it's a best friend thing and she. she HAD one of those in kevyn #but that love was different. and it was special. but i think some part of her always wanted what shauna and jackie had #who wouldn't? especially someone as lonely and shut off as natalie #so her getting this item that's symbolically about that close knit bond. that deep relationship. it'd stir up a lot of emotions methinks #this isnt to diminish shauna gifting her the necklace btw !! that IS so important because it is her saying she loves natalie #but it's in a way nat is so used to. which is 'i'm sorry. and i love you.' #a love only given to her because they're about to hurt her. a love that's only admitted as a quick comfort before something awful happens #idk i feel crazy i'm just like oh NATALIE ... truly a character of all time #okay done yjs posting for another month time to do something else :salute: