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DISSEMINATION 6/29/17   If the practitioner has not dedicated himself fully to his transformation, his Ritual and Craft can often become a substitution for experience rather than an expression and catharsis of it. I once read that one of the earliest forms of artwork ever discovered had been created by a migrating band of hunter-gatherers. The art itself was in the form of a desert rock painting, depicting a herd of animals and their hunters. No animals similar to the ones depicted have ever existed in that terrain during the artist’s time or otherwise. The idea was then put forth that the quite literally starving artist wasn’t expressing something which he’d witnessed or been a part of in this new land, he was instead using this crude depiction as a substitute for the experience of hunting, perhaps even as a plea to whatever possible force he may have believed controlled such things. Regardless of the accuracy of that article, I find the metaphor of this Paleolithic painter to be an accurate one.

Lately I have felt as if the public journaling of my transformation has taken over too much of the process, eating up time that I could be devoting to something that is of a more immediate importance. In fact, I’m certain that my Arrangement has been trying to tell me just that. This revelation along with a nagging intuition tells me that I am soon due to begin a new phase of transformation. This realization has lead me to the decision to put this aspect to the side for the time being so that I can allow it to come to full fruition. I feel that enough material has been put forth, and I do not want to force more as it will only lead to redundancy. 

Today I read a book that was less than one hundred pages long and touches on several aspects of Ultra Atavism, even some of which I have yet to publish. After finishing the book, I went for a session of Reverie into the forest to meditate on this author’s description of the undertaking. I found a lot of encouragement in that 70 year old book. The goal of Ultra Atavism is transformation, but it is a transformation that is borne out of a renewed connection with our primal selves. A carnality that lies dormant inside of us now but only because civilization has been designed to beat it out of us at birth. Once we’ve reconnected with that primordial spirit we begin to uncover the tactics modernity uses to keep us from it and we immediately understand why. Once we’ve connected with it, we begin drinking from a primordial stream of consciousness that can be followed back to an ocean of ultimate truth. That truth is the same for all of us. To the authors that have directly inspired me are drinking from that stream, as are the authors who will inspire me that I’m yet to discover. The Dissemination of my transformation and the path I take to get there is a kind of spiritual duty. It’s a flag in the ground to say “here I am, this is what I can do, these are the blueprints to becoming free in my time”. It’s a howl in the woods meant to attract the attention of more of my kind. Whether they join my pack or start their own is of little difference to me. The more rebels in the forest, the better. Humans Remain is a collective founded within the ideology of Ultra Atavism, but is not a division of it. The group is one that I am piecing together with acquaintances that I feel embody one or more aspects of Ultra Atavism, but there is no demand placed on them to adhere to it as if it were their personal ideology. Some Members choose not to even participate or be known even within the enclosed group. The collective itself is meant for Dissemination and Erudition purposes. It is not a Clan within itself. Members are welcomed and encouraged to take whatever aspects of this fit their transformations and do with them what they will to create and strengthen their own Clans but if you are looking for a sense of “brotherhood”, you won’t find it here.

I have little tolerance for those who put on airs and graces. Personal transformation that leads to further self-reliance is the pursuit of the Ultra Atavist. I have seen those acquainted with Humans Remain as well as those who have chosen to stay outside of it do fucking great things already. I love to hear someone tell me that they’ve been inspired to pick up a paintbrush, take a class, make an album, join a gym, or even go for a hike because they were inspired by something that I’ve written. I don’t want or deserve any credit for it, I’m only doing what my transformation and Arrangement insists that I do. Even if I were to seek credit, what would I seek credit for? The primordial stream flows within all of us, I’m only describing my own attempts to get there.  There is an element that I see creeping in from the outside that is not like those who are truly participating in the undertaking. They take from the whole for self-serving purposes, as I’ve intended it to be used, but rather than strengthening and reinforcing it by applying it within their own Clans, they instead weaken it with substance-less showmanship. There is no true desire for transformation. They take the broadest parts of the ideology, the aspects that seem as if they can be easily demonstrated, and do so with the sole purpose of garnering attention for themselves with a false facade of individuality. All that truly lies underneath is the burning desire for acceptance overshadowed only by their paralyzing fear of being exposed. I continually see these leeches repeat the same patterns again and again. They take from another’s method, sap it of spirit, and then regurgitate it to an awaiting hive of human blanks at the ready to coo over the resulting pablum. One of the tried and true ways to kill a parasite is to detach it from the host. By the time I return from hiatus, they will have moved on, likely citing the lack of online activity is indicative of a lack of ambition or they will invent some imaginary disagreement that is meant to be interpreted as their transcendence. One thing that is always certain with these types is that they never go quietly. Meanwhile, those who are truly engaging in the vital existence should hardly notice my absence as they’ve never made particular note of my presence to begin with. Throdle Vieda! Sean David Stoltenburg _____________________ As this is my last Dissemination for some time, I figured I’d end it with some things that I am looking forward to between now and my return to Disseminations, probably sometime around Halloween.

As far as the pages are concerned, there should be no lack of projects and events to keep them from going dormant for too long. I am still asking for Disseminations from Members and supporters if they feel that they have something to add to the Canon. They are also welcome to curate their own Sonic Ritual Chambers, which are something that I will also be ending for the time being. I’m also encouraging Members that if they want a project to be advertised by Humans Remain and Handwerk to contact the page about it. In exchange for your contribution to content, a graphic will be created for it and it will be used as a paid promotion free of charge. You can also create your own graphic as long as it meets the aesthetic criteria.

I’m awaiting the proof of Ultra Atavism: An Anthology of Articles for Humans Remain, Volume II which will be out on October 1st. It includes all of the Disseminations to this point (excluding this one) as well as a few unreleased drafts and writings, five new Articles including two which were previously unreleased Cleromancy and Acumen, and two Rites including The Rite of Erichtho that previously only came with the Nekromantia Talisman and The Rite of the Pythia which is unpublished.

I’m already planning the next two journals, Of The Body: An Anthology of Articles for Humans Remain, Volume III and a fourth volume, both ideally set for release next year. I plan on continuing with the essay format for Volume III, which I hope will be made up of a large majority of writings from other Members and acquaintances rather than just myself. Volume IV, which is going to be simply titled Ndinzengalg will be the biggest undertaking, involving more than just myself, of which aspects will be revealed in due time. _____________________   In personal, non-Humans Remain related news, my “noise poem” The Hawk and the Groundhog will be released as planned on July 4th on Handwerk and will be available on Amazon. There is also a free sampler on the Bandcamp page right now that includes tracks from all of my releases so far. When I do find time to write, I plan on beginning Brimstone Road Part 2. When I re-released Brimstone Road, I released it with a lot of different material than was in the first edition. I took out several essays that I felt were unnecessary and replaced them with other essays, one of which was a very long autobiographical essay about one of my “lost years” living with a notorious character. I plan on Part 2 having much more of this autobiographical tone. With my perspective now, I’d like to re-explore a specific time of my life in that context. My adolescence was a very interesting mish mash of five specific backdrops, my violent home, my violent school, my conservative ultra rural surroundings, my conservative suburban church, and my involvement in the local punk and hardcore scene. I think that I will then foray a bit into other lost years and maybe a lengthy reflection of my eras in music from Eastwood, Murder4Hire, Mysterious Black Helicopters, Jaw Horse, and Coffin Spell. Starting at the end of August, I will be re-opening and making daily posts in the Halloween group that I started last year which was called Coffin Spell’s 66 Days of Halloween, but since we are no longer playing, I’m just going to go with The Mystic Light of Halloween. I have no shame in allowing myself to be enveloped within social media for those days. Halloween is my favorite everything and it’s the time when my Clan makes our most cherished memories. It’s an indulgence. All are welcome to join.   I also have some other minor projects that I am considering. _____________________ Here are some events already upcoming that you will be hearing much more about. July 9th I will be participating in an art show in Sunbury, PA just as myself, with a small table selling books, I believe the show has a total of 7 members of Humans Remain participating with tables, the show is being hosted by Hideous Vision and Rad Pizza Dad. EVENT LINK September 23rd there is an event in Williamsport, PA that I cannot say anything more about until I’ve been given the okay that it is ready to be officially announced. October 20th my wife is curating her third craft and art exhibition in Selinsgrove, PA. The first under her moniker Nouveau Witch, which is also titled The Mystic Light of Halloween. This is an evening event that will feature several members of Humans Remain and will also include music and libations. This is an adult Halloween event. EVENT LINK   _____________________   Last but not least, the artwork that accompanies this final Dissemination before hiatus is a manipulated photograph of a large one-of-a-kind lithograph piece created for Humans Remain by Matthew Kunkel, which was a part of the A Night on the Brocken display at the In Bloom exhibition on Walpurgisnacht. I don’t have the time right now to explain how the mountain is maybe the most apt representation of mankind’s existential and physical struggles as well as the transformative rewards found in each, so you’ll have to just trust me that it is.   

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