#they’re all scuzzy and sticky like plastic is when it’s been washed too much

[autumnhobbit]

my parents house genuinely just makes me so sad

#and frustrates the crap out of me lol #my mom hates throwing away paper towels so if they’re ‘lightly used’ she just #leaves them crumpled on every surface for ‘later use’ #every single empty container is kept even though they’re never used and there’s no room for them #the cups haven’t been replaced since at least 2016 cause I was here the last time they were #they’re all scuzzy and sticky like plastic is when it’s been washed too much #rotting fruits and veggies litter the counters #honestly I wish I could get them to decluttering but both my parents have that deep-seated Great Depression #leftover guilt about throwing anything away or not keeping anything #even if you don’t need it even if you don’t want it even if it would better suit someone else #even if it’s taking up all this room and you never actually use it for whatever you’re ‘saving it for’ #mom fussed about clothes and shoes and books #but the siblings bedrooms are both clean and organized #and the rest of the house is a wreck #they need to take a stand on papers and garbage and unnecessary items #but they won’t and so the cycle will repeat #in a lot of ways my mom has gotten better but it still just makes me sad that they’re both this old and still can’t keep house #without it being agony for both or either of them #because dad remembers everything he’s ever owned and constantly demands them when he hasn’t known where they were since 1996 #and blames everyone else for not being able to find His Thing #and how we /always/ take his stuff and he spent his whole life providing for us worthless people and we pay him back #by taking all his shit i guess #just cause we all love getting yelled at. #sigh.