#they just got home from a funeral.

[nullafic-ninjago]

"I'm sorry I let you down mom..."

Thinking about Cole and Lilly recently, waagghhh love how much of a mommas boy cole is sob sob

#lego ninjago #ninjago #ninjago cole #ninjago animatic #ninjago lilly #brookstone familiy #cole brookstone #lilly brookstone #lou brookstone #ninjago master of the mountain #I LOVE THEM SO MUCH I WANNA CRYRYYYYY #hes just a kid trying to please his mom :( #purposely made him look almost identical to her with the mole and the eyeshape+ eyebrows. also giving his current design a similar hairstyl #cole 100% enjoyed dancing as a hobby but lou def started taking it too seriously (in a supportive “i just want you to be better” way) #cole is SO the type of person to not shed a single tear at the funeral but breakdown completely once he gets home #ARRRGHGHHH I FORGOT TO COLOR LILLY'S HAND ITS SO OVER #i love them so much it hurts i wish we got more of the brokestone family dynamic.. :(((( #stole this from somewhere else but cole always carries around the lava rock necklace his mom used to wear because its the only remaining - #- thing he has left of her #THEY MAKE ME SO SAD WHAT THE HELL #gonna start crying i love them so much #GRRRR I HATE THEM I HATE THEM ARGGG I LOVE THEM SM

[grinchwrapsupreme]

the show casually ignoring the inherent tragedy of the Red Dwarf crew reading letters that were sent to them 3 million years ago from people and companies that are long gone

#the fact that they were travelling so fast for so long that those letter are only now reaching them #they were a dead ship being chased by sentiments from people who didn't know they were dead #i do wonder sometimes when rimmer's dad died #like was it before rimmer died? after? before or after the people of Io knew the ship was missing? #did she write the letter and send it not knowing if it would ever reach him? #did she care? #red dwarf #THERE'S A QUESTION #were there news reports about the ship going missing? #did they lose contact right when everyone died? #or did they not notice until the end of those 6 months when it didn't come into port #did they hold funerals? memorials? was there a big deal made about the Tragic Loss? #did holly bother to send a report on what had happened before he diverted the ship #so many things we'll never know because they'll never get back home #unless it's in one of the books and I just haven't read it #anyways i'm literally at work right now #but also its really funny that rimmer got a 3 million year old parking ticket

[scattered-winter]

last grief vent post lads

#i wish there was someone to blame. i mean there Is but it wasnt really her fault so i cant blame her really. #a driver had dementia and somehow slipped away from her caretakers and got on the road with her car and now my friend is dead #and there's nobody to blame for it. shit happens. she didnt know what she was doing. i know that she didn't mean to. #but the fact is that she got in her car that day when she shouldnt have and now a 20 year old girl with her whole life ahead of her is dead #and i am not gonna lie guys. im fucking pissed. #its unfair. its so fucking unfair. #but its also unfair for me to point fingers when it wasnt really that driver's fault. #she doesnt even remember causing the accident. she doesnt know where her injuries came from. #and i KNOW what dementia is i KNOW that thats part of it and it isnt her fault at all #but im really angry. not even necessarily specifically at the driver tbh just . angry #but. the funeral is over. so i think ill be ok from now on. #there was a beautiful sunset while i was driving home today. it was pink and orange #pink sunsets were her favorite. it was beautiful to see one today. #winter speaks #grief tag #tw death #tw car accident

[meggettes]

ok voyager rewatch continued etc etc

s2e14 and they are FINALLY discussing that Starfleet protocols may not be serving them well in the Delta quadrant.

Like, fucking finally! The previous episode was the first time, probably this whole season, that they mentioned the prime directive, and that even came as a surprise because of how Janeway has been going about this journey home.

And like, yeah, the Kazon have been troublesome, but they certainly should’ve been really reevaluating strict adherence to Starfleet protocol when they are in the Wild West/opposite side of the known world/completely abandoned to desperately fight for survival. Starfleet protocol is strict! Starfleet protocol is precise! Starfleet protocol is flexible, but it is vigorously adhered to.

So, it feels like it’s taken forever for them to finally arrive at this philosophical/tactical point. 

OK, I’ll keep watching the episode… 

#and I mean maybe maquis protocols are better suited #but maybe it’s just flexibility in general! #like really think about #if you and 150 other people randomly and suddenly got stranded generations away from home #you gotta meet your situations as they come to get back to their peoples’ home #meggettes watches voyager #star trek #also i like their funeral ritual with the whistle and everything

[orcelito]

What they don't tell you about losing a parent is that there is so so so so much to do

#speculation nation #my elder sister is gonna be executive of estate (once we get that sorted out bc we couldnt find his WILL) #so i thankfully wont have to deal with as much of the legal stuff #but im still gonna try to help out as much as possible #went through his papers yesterday and set up some preliminary stuff #gonna meet at the funeral home monday to arrange that. tuesday we're going to do some legal stuff for the will establishment #gonna have to take inventory of EVERY. SINGLE. THING. in his house. for tax purposes. #im gonna be inheriting a good amount of things probably. both a blessing and a curse #in that i didnt wanna fucking lose my father for it #but this is the hand we've been dealt and we're dealing with it. #i got excused from my last week of work Thank God so im hanging around longer than originally planned #gonna get my cats today. i fed them enough to last to today but that was when i thought id only be down for 2 days #no work to deal with now. i'll figure it out. #part of me's sad that it really ended just like that. didnt get to properly say goodbye to the store #but at the same time. my dad's death is so much more important. so i'll deal. #it was already gonna be a transitory time. but now it is INTENSELY so. #anyways thats why i havent been around much. i have quite a lot to do.

[1ovestay]

won’t lie, experiencing some horrors

#just cried uncontrollably for like 20 mins #cried like 3 times yesterday too #i have no energy for like anything rn.. went to buy new glasses today tried on 15 pairs hated them all and then went back to my car #and cried because i really need new glasses since i fucked up my current pair and they don’t sit right now and dig into my face #tw death . my grandma passed away while i was flying home from canada #and it sucks because everyone got to be with her and say goodbye but i didn’t #and there’s a viewing tomorrow and my dad thinks i should go since it will be my last chance to see her but i don’t want to #i get that it’s a healing way to say goodbye for some people but i don’t want to see my oma lifeless #i know i’ll never get to see her again and that fucking sucks but she’s gone and i don’t want to see her like that #plus i have work and i already called in sick 2 days i don’t want to leave them short again even if it’s understandable #anyway the funeral is on tuesday at least i have the day off already and don’t have to worry about work #everything sucks soooooo fucking bad rn i won’t lie i’m not doing too great #and i miss el so much like i would kill to be able to hug my gf right now #their mom sent me a video today of them laying on the couch with their parents cat cuz they visited for father’s day #and i’ve cried twice while watching it… #argh. anyway. going to go watch a silly little video of some sort and maybe sleep early cause i haven’t been sleeping well #it’ll be ok 🧡 #p

[crowleystolemyshoes]

why is there so much paperwork when someone dies

#it was my dad who died so my sister and I are next of kin and my sister isn't really capable of handling the paperwork side of things #there's a form to get the autopsy report. had to pick a funeral home. had to call the coroner's office to tell them which funeral home. #now they're sending paperwork to the funeral home and then the funeral home will send me and my sister forms we hsve to sign to release #the body from the coroner #thank fuck for my aunt paying for their cremation cause I can't #and thank fuck my dad got a gofundme funded for an urn for their wife who died about a month ago and they wanted their #ashes entombed in the same urn so we don't need to worry about paying for that #and apparently as next of kin I have to do something about their bills??? am I supposed to reach out to the electric company and tell them #they died???? their work??????? I don't even know WHERE they worked I just know it was remote #what about all of their things? I'm literally thousands of miles away #this SUCKS #cw death #tw death #vent tag

[chennnington]

Grandma has a lung infection and she most likely won’t make it. She suffers from severe dementia, she stopped recognizing even her sons several years ago so I said my goodbyes a long time ago already and tbh I’m not sure how enjoyable her life has been over the past years, but this still hurts.

#grandpa died in 2020 and he was mentally fit until the end so I could at least call him and talk to him #and I knew it was the last time I’d talk to him so I had closure #but I don’t even really know when I last saw grandma. it was way before covid at some family Christmas #she already had dementia back then but she was still able to live at home and hold conversations with a bit of help #and I live pretty far away and visiting her wouldn’t have helped anyone #she would’ve been confused about the stranger and felt awkward cause she’s rather shy and introverted #and I’m the same so it would’ve just been a bad experience for both sides #but I still have so much stuff from her #as a kid/teen I always got decoration items and pajamas and bed linen and towels and stuff like that as presents #as a kid that was a bit lame but now I value those things so much #I have so many wonderful memories of my grandparents and I want to remember grandma the way she was before dementia #tbh I kinda wish my uncle wouldn’t have sent me some of the recent pics of her #she stopped looking like the grandma I knew #I probably sound really shitty and egoistic with all these tags right? #but it’s just that I know I can’t do anything for her. and no gesture would even reach her. so why hurt myself? #if I knew she still knows who I am it would’ve been different of course #I wanted to visit grandpa before he died but it was April 2020 ao I wasn’t even allowed at the funeral #the doctors said she’s not in pain and they’ll make sure it stays that way #why am I even writing all this? #I guess this is when you’re supposed to have someone to comfort you but I don’t have that so I scream I to the void haha #but I’m fine. she’s 95 years old and had a good life

[beauty-grace-outer-space]

Y’all, I’m exhausted.

My uncle passed away over the weekend, very early on Saturday morning, after a very brief but aggressive battle with cancer. From diagnosis to death was less than a week. 

My mom and I have done everything in our power to be with my family as much as possible, and I am so thankful that I got to say my goodbyes and to be with them when he passed, and some portion of most every day since. 

But between work, therapy, previously scheduled appointments, funeral arrangements, choir, etc. and just general grief, I feel like I haven’t slept in days. I’ve barely been eating (or had time to eat) let alone manage anything else in my life, and every time I think I might have a moment to lie down or do some laundry, something else comes up. 

I am so ready and willing to do whatever is needed for my family right now, but I think I am reaching a bit of a personal breaking point. 

#Thursday I worked from 8:30 to 4:30 then picked up my parents and drove forty minutes out to my aunt's to see him #we were there until after 11PM and didn't get to bed until 1 or so #the next day I worked from 8:30 to 1ish when my cousin called me and said they needed me at the house #so I dashed home picked up mom and drove out there #we were at their house until 7:30 or 8PM then went home #but we were called back shortly after because he became non responsive #we went back over there and sat up until 5AM or so before falling asleep in my cousin's bed #he passed away shortly after 7AM #we got up #I held my cousins for a while #eventually I did a coffee/food run #my mom and I called hospice and the funeral home and arranged all of that #we spent the day with them #I put on a crock pot meal and we stayed with them until dinner time or thereabouts #we told them to get some rest and call if they needed anything #we didn't eat all day #went home and crashed #Sunday I just felt sick all day and was crying off and on #Monday I worked from 8:30-3 and then went to a meeting with the funeral coordinators with my mom my aunt and my cousins #Tuesday I worked from 8:30 - 4:30 then had choir from 6 -9 then went to the store and showered #yesterday I worked from 8:30 to 12:45 then went home for a long lunch hour therapy appointment #went back to work from 2 to 5 #took my dog to the vet at 5:30 #went to my aunt's at 6:30 #was there until after midnight #didn't eat #went home did dishes and took out recycling and had a quick shower #wrote the obituary #today they're touring a facility for the memorial but I can't take off work in the middle of the day so I'm not going to that #I'm working until 5 or so

[whybedennydifferent]

drove through the lakes. stopped at tebay. took the scenic route home once we got to scotland which ruined the whole day

#'ruined the whole day' we were at a funeral this morning #lol. lol. it just took ages #but cumbria! #cumbria was beautiful #then I got the train home from ayrshire and watched the sun setting over arran out the window #I'm so tired

[soupernatural]

nobody talks about how mary is given exactly two seconds to mourn the loss of her husband and babies and likely everyone she’s ever known.  when do they tell her that ellen is dead?  when do they tell her that ellen had a daughter? when does she have time to process the loss of the family she wasn’t allowed to keep building?

#maryellen #maryposting #ellen and mary sitting at the roadhouse and talking about their futures and getting out of hunting and having a life outside of this #ellen and her little knowing smile because mary has her out. mary's out is john and still here mary is #sneaking off to hide in the corner booth with ellen and talk about escaping like she isn't currently doing just that. #the out they want isn't from hunting its from conformity and husbands and fathers and they giggle about the bruised and cut knuckles #that mary got on her hunt and when ellen brushes over them she sees marys ring finger and the little tanline where she's not wearing /them/ #this is brought to you by my marytoni fic and how i'm trying to write in mourning ellen and jo. #jo would have called her aunt mary and would have loved her so so so much. mary knows this mary and ellen talked about how they'd raise #their kids together and in all their fantasies about it the husbands are suspiciously missing #all of this. all of that. and mary is expected to just keep going like she's fine like she didn't lose everything overnight #family home turned funeral pyre. life burnt up and left on the altar of Male Pain and Suffering. #sapphicnatural

[gothmothinc]

I am nothing if not a little guy that enjoys slushies

#like deadass #I’m on a 4 hour trip home from a funeral and sick #I just got a slushie and i think it’s fixing me

[toasteaa]

#toast talks #tbd #just got home from a funeral and hanging with friends #it's been a clusterfuck of emotions today #good and bad things #still recovering but everything is going to be okay

[tiktaaliker]

man I am just. tired

#howling #just got home from the viewing #funeral's gonna be in september #have work tomorrow and Sunday #and classes start this Monday #I'm just. ugh. I'm just tired

[clamorybus]

we got bacl from grammie's wake. it was surprisingly pleasant despite how sad we were

#i gotta hand it to the funeral home--she really looked like she was asleep #mickey.txt #despite well. the occasion #it was a surprisingly pleasant get together #a lot of her old coworkers from when she worked at the supermarket were there #and i got to see my stepcousins i haven't seen since before covid #and it took my niece about an hour to get fidgety and antsy #which is an impressive for an 8 year old tbh #it was funny after awhile whenever the mood got really low my mom was like 'okay kid--do a cartwheel' #because my niece LOVES cartwheels and there was so much space for cartwheels #it was fun lol #just what grammie loved honestly; everyone sitting and shooting the shit #and the grandbaby/ies being cute #ngl everytime my niece did a cartwheel or jiggled the fidget toy i lent her #i had an instinctual gut reaction of 'SHH NOOO YOU'RE GONNA WAKE UP GRAMMIE' #i miss her already. i never got to bond with her the way i would've liked to #but she was a lovely grandma. the type that always fussed over everyone #'did you want anything sweetie?' 'jen you want help in the kitchen?' 'want me to do anything?' type of grandma lol #she was a worry wort but very sweet. growing up she always sewed us coats and dresses and blankets #she taught me how to knit; like 80% of my knitting stuff used to be hers #she gave me a whole carpet bag of knitting gear and yarn when i was like 14/15 #she taught me card tricks when i was kid. she used loved brushing my hair but she used #her old lady metal brush that hurt lol #she used to take us to the library #and she used to take us to the movies a lot as kids but she'd take us to a convenience store first to buy our candy #and as kids we thought that was the coolest most badass thing in the world #growing up we used to spend a weekend at her house once every few months #and on sundays she'd take us to her mom's apartment to organize her pills and stuff #idk. im glad she was in my life but i miss her already. at least now she's with her mom and brother 💕

[lotussokka]

hey idk if any of you are pastors but you should not do a sermon about how humans are inherently undeserving of love and how adopted children are undeserving of adoption and dont ask to be adopted (???) during a funeral, especially during the funeral of a woman with an adopted grandchild

#the whole thing was bullshit from start to finish and its so clear he had never met my nana #which is fucked up bc he wasnt a pastor contracted through a funeral home he was her pastor #like yeah hes an interim pastor but was he only there for 2 weeks ??? #as it went on i progressed from trying to be subtle about rolling my eyes to open disgust bc it was so fucked up i wanted him to know #the entire story about adopted children was so distasteful that my nana wouldve gave him a piece of her mind if it had been my papa who died #he talked birth mothers stopping adoptions as them being selfish for keeping their child from Good People #which is horrendously offensive in general but also bc my aunt and uncle had birth mothers change their mind multiple times #and it was super sad every time it happened bc they were so excited to be getting a baby but they always had sympathy for the mother #the last time a mother changed her mind they were so devastated they almost asked to be removed from the list #but then they got a sudden call about robbie bc his mother hadn’t been Formally Planning to give him up while she was pregnant #he talked about adopted children like burdens that Good People™ take on infuriates me to no end #at least he didnt also do a call to salvation during the funeral like a pastor did at one my mom went to a few years ago #you dont care #on a different topic #my greatuncle was surprisingly disapproving of my current life situation which hurts bc he was on such a pedestal in my mind #also his wife is so empathetic about it that she brought it up to me #she has started to have sleep issues and she wanted to tell me that she now understands just how much that inhibits your life #it was genuine (and conversationally appropriate) she didnt just walk up to me and loudly tell me She Understands Now™ #you can reblog i guess ?? but please dont add my tags especially not the ones after ‘you dont care’