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[theravenlyn]

thinking about how isabella was just ranting away to herself in the diving bell and suhail was like 'she's gonna want this written down for future reference' aND HE DID IT

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #marie brennan #memoirs of lady trent #a natural history of dragons #voyage of the basilisk #// #IT'S ABOUT THE MUTUAL SCHOLARSHIP #ACROSS DISCIPLINES #ACROSS FIELDS #THAT EVEN THOUGH THEYRE NOT SPECIFICALLY INTERESTED IN THE SAME THINGS #(EVEN THOUGH THEY DO OVERLAP BUT THATS A RANT FOR ANOTHER DAY) #THAT THEY RECOGNISE A KINDRED SPIRIT #AND KNOW HOW TO SUPPORT EACH OTHER IN THE MOST PERSONAL SPECIFIC SPECIAL WONDERFUL ENCOURAGING AMAZING WAYS #I'LL SAY IT AGAIN #IT'S MORE THAN THE ROMANCE #IT'S A CONNECTION ON A LEVEL THAT TRANSCENDS

[theravenlyn]

im a big fan of how we turned polls into minigames

#throw enrichment into my enclosure #// #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt

[theravenlyn]

on that note i finished reading 'this is how you lose the time war' today and im just gonna lie on the floor until i can regulate my emotions

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #this is how you lose the time war #amal el-mohtar #max gladstone #// #i dont remember having so much fun reading in a long while #something new at least #really had me hooked #i love them #im gonna be dreaming of red and blue #also started annotating again #my copy is now so deranged hahahqh

[theravenlyn]

you know it's a good book when you're left like O-O

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #// #you know like #when you close turn the last page and you know you've been changed #it's planted deep in your soul #a key moment #oh this is about iron widow by xiran jay zhao btw #as a chinese queer person it was very everything to me #i felt it real bad #even thru the diaspora #ive never felt so strong a catharsis of female rage unbridled #and where we've left off is rooted deep im gonna be thinking about it forever

[theravenlyn]

i think it’s fun that when you ask people things in cantonese, youre using the verb and the negative verb together so you can end up saying things like “to be or not to be” on a regular basis

#lyn's cantonese journey #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt

[theravenlyn]

i think it's a little bit ironic that it's taking a while to figure out how to pronounce ‘girl’ in cantonese

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #lyn's cantonese journey #// #laughs nervously in gender no #anyway i think it's just that the latin letters threw me off #..laughs in trying to use latin letters to denote cantonese sounds

[theravenlyn]

sdfgjhkl sorry for flooding your dash with everything everwhere all at once besties i cant be normal about this movie

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #// #unironically this movie is everything to me #if it was a bog i would lay down in it and sink into it forever #also i cannot possible articulate what it was like going into the theatre with my homophobic and chinese immigrant family #where we were like hehe mulitiverse movie with michelle yeoh <3 #and then getting smashed in the face with generational trauma and etc etc #theres so much to talk about within this movie #essays upon essays #anyway it was an awkward car ride home <3 #also the only reason im stopping rb-ing is because my computer can no longer handle scrolling so deep in the tag adskjfhalksjdfhlksadf

[theravenlyn]

me: (^ ^ ) <- hasn’t finished reading stormlight archive yet

also me, reblogging fan art: 📱-(👀 ) surely nothing will happen

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #i feel like im playing with fire #but pretty art #listen im 90% thru oathbringer #it's sorta okay by this point i suppose #if i suffer spoilers it is what it is #also want so bad to be drawing art but so far the two fan arts ive made are shitposts so #on brand of me #i suppose #serious art where?

[theravenlyn]

i am. considering redesigning gilan again. and not saying anything about. like sorry he looks different now what are you going to do about it

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #sorry but i need a separation between fandom's interpretation and my own i think #i cant take it anymore alksdjf

[theravenlyn]

the part where Isabella gives the original rubbing of the Cataract Stone to Suhail makes me want to scream,,,, my heart: bursting

like imagine being stuck at home dealing with disapproving family member/s when you long for the seas and exploring new places and deciphering dead languages, and getting entangled in messy political affairs. you were dragged into these murky grey waters and youre drowning in them and every day is just another day and you’ve lost touch with your passions because of your obligations. it’s your grey years. there’s nothing to look forward to. when you look to the future, you don’t see anything at all. who even are you anymore? you’re not a face, just the hand of your brother, doing his bidding.

and then this person who you shared an adventure in the past shows up?? and after dodging through social customs, you finally get to speak to each other properly. and she gives you a gift. not just any gift. but a gift so specific to you. 

it’s a gift that proves that someone saw you and knew you deep to your core. it’s a gift that proves that someone does care about the real you. it’s a gift that proves that you are still you.

not only did she give you a key part to your research into the Draconic language, she gave you the original. she delayed making it public knowledge to the science community on the off chance that she might see you again. that she cared enough, thought you important enough, thought you worth the wait. she had this piece of knowledge and all she could think of was giving it to you. and you’d chide her for her foolish irresponsibility but the world is quiet and your mind is roaring.

it’s a token of hope. a flicker of light in the fog. when you look to the future, there’s something there. 

platonically or romantically or other, it doesn’t really matter. that’s pure love, in my opinion. i just think that we treat love like it’s something so complex and it’s almost strange that it is boiled down to one four-letter word (and 100% there’s so much to love, don’t get me wrong) but i think that there’s also a simplicity to it. sometimes you just see another person and you care about them. you want them to be happy and you want them to thrive. Isabella was so intent on bringing something important to Suhail because she knew that he would appreciate it most, and then when she empathised with his passion drying out due to his duties, she found a way to alleviate it and i think that’s a beautiful thing.

#*slaps roof* this bad boi can fit so much pure love #this was supposed to be a one line post but ended up ranting alksjdlkjhfd #listen it's about the yearning to be known i think #for someone to know you deeply and to love you as such #// #marie brennan #in the labyrinth of drakes #lady trent #isabella camherst #suhail ibn ramiz #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #a natural history of dragons #memoirs of lady trent

[theravenlyn]

"Because... because I do not want to go into the Labyrinth of Drakes without you. Never mind the practicalities of it; that is what we have al-Jelidah and Haidar for. I do not want to see that place without you at my side. I want you to show me the ruins that inspired you, and I want you present for any discoveries I might make. Now, and always."

- Isabella Camherst, Memoirs of Lady Trent: In the Labyrinth of Drakes

#hold up while i cRY #still thinking about subella #// #marie brennan #memoirs of lady trent #a natural history of dragons #in the labyrinth of drakes #isabella camherst #suhail ibn ramiz #subella #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt

[theravenlyn]

thinking about halt meeting abelard for the first time

#🤌 it's about the softness and the tender love and devotion #// #john flanagan #ranger’s apprentice #rangers apprentice #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt

[theravenlyn]

isabella, watching some random guy dive into the ocean from a cliff: hope this doesn’t awake anything in me

#sighh #i cant stop thinking about suhail #brb #// #marie bernnan #a natural history of dragons #voyage of the basilisk #isabella camherst #suhail ibn ramiz #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #memoirs of lady trent

[theravenlyn]

how does one even begin expressing the frustration that comes with wanting to do something fun for one of your fandoms and that the organisation is part of what you enjoy but it also just seemed like something nice to do with everyone and that made you happy but then the idea gets scooped up by some random person who obviously was inspired by your own posts because of the language they used and that they started posting recently after your own (out of the blue without consultation, making a new blog not a side blog and following your blog!! bruh.) and even after you tried to make it clear that you had it all under control and things will be ready soon they continued to do their thing??????? and even though you’ve now finalised everything and the finished post has been out for a couple weeks now and it all just sucks man it sucks because this was supposed to be fun and now there’s two things running and to me that seems almost divisive when what i wanted was something that brought people together,,,,,,,,, and like it’s not an original idea of course! it’s something that’s been done hundreds of times in different contexts!! but here was a space where there hadn’t been one yet and my fucking god this has just become a whole thing in my heart and i almost don’t want to participate anymore 

#it's that wet anger babes 🍹-(' ' ) #this on top of everything else that i have to deal with #it's the straw man it might be the last straw for this old camel #idk #im just #like literally so upset it's ridiculous #i shouldnt care so much #like im not feeling threatened #it's just os annoying #im sad #💔 #// #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt

[theravenlyn]

trr 5: esccape from falaise spoilers

me, throughout the entirety of RA: i dont think halt is unfashionable. far from it. he knows exactly what looks good and does the opposite on purpose because he wants to distance himself as far from his royal childhood and trauma as possible. he could go to the barber to cut his hair but he doesnt want to. he chooses to have a messy haircut with his own saxe because it expresses his individuality and that he is no longer that person anymore and—

flanagan writing TRR5: :)

#trr 5 spoilers #escape from falaise spoilers #john flanagan #ranger's apprentice #rangers apprentice #the royal ranger #halt o'carrick #theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #// #im MAD #IM STILL #ASDDFGX #WHY #EVEN IF IT'S NOT THE NUANCE I PUT IN #YOU LIKE TURNED THE WHOLE JOKE ON ITS HEAD #😔

[theravenlyn]

something something knowing things about my family’s culture yet not feeling like i exist or belong within it

#theravenlyn.zip #theravenlyn.txt #lyn's cantonese journey #// #iM SORRY I USED ROMEO AND JULIET #I WAS JUST #i had this image in my head of me and then my family's culture and we were separated by a wall of glass #like i can see it and i know things about it and i engage with some parts of it #but i am not on the other side of the glass #i dont know if i strictly want to be on the other side but like #i wish there was a door #you know? #anywAY REMINDED ME OF AQUARIUMS AND ONE THING LED TO ANOTHER #DONT MIND ME JUST USING HUMOUR TO COVER THE ACHE IN MY HEART