#the whole night was so unbelievably beautiful too idk … there was this rainstorm and even afterwards there were intermittent flashes

[l-cereta]

Like… idk it’s going to my head a bit but like. Being desired—more than that, being cared for and wanted—is actually a kind of crazy feeling. I never really grasped that I don’t think… the way someone looks at you? And we don’t love each other, she’s graduating in a week & it’s fine but just the way she kissed me made me feel so much better about myself & my ability to be desired than any actual sex I’ve had

#the whole night was so unbelievably beautiful too idk … there was this rainstorm and even afterwards there were intermittent flashes #of lightning (but never any thunder—it was too far away)… we were underneath this like overhang looking out at a field… #and the lip of the overhang meant that in front of us was this solid wall of rain coming down the roof #a few hours beforehand she gave me a flower crown… we both performed at the drag show before that… #I feel so corny I feel like. is this ok?? that I’m this happy about it??? #& like!! i was a crush of theirs for a long time apparently! I’ve always thought I was kind of undesirable!!! #hello??? *i* was a crush of *theirs*????? #ok. okokok i gotta get to sleep #but . I’ve just been walking around today with like cartoon hearts swirling around my head :>