#that sleep paralysis Within a dream one tho. fuck that one lmao

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i napped the entire day away and my dreams included, but were not limited to: big earthquake that, as it was happening, i was like "oh this is a bad one" and my stepdad went "its not that bad" - our house slid down a ravine into water / very vivid evening apocalypse that - after the blast hit and i died - swirled into sleep paralysis that occurred While I Was Dreaming (and i do mean swirled. i got whipped around like an inflatable tube man) / rich people sitcom where everyone was unbearable but i had my dear cat Letti with me / sound-based monster shaped like my mom that i kept from killing me via a funny joke (i didnt even get to finish my microwaved macaroni smh)

#it was dream after dream after dream #man that apocalypse one tho. slotting that one into one of my favorite death dreams it was so pretty and peaceful #everyone was just meandering to the beach but for some reason my legs were really weak and i couldnt walk #i tried! but i wound up just collapsing on the crosswalk. but a nice lady stopped and helped me up #and she helped me to the beach where everyone was gathering to watch the oncoming blast #oh man it was gorgeous. it was the only source of light so the ocean was glimmering with it and a low golden hue was cast over everything #no one was screaming or panicking! no one was scared. there were people on picnic blankets or just standing and watching #it was gorgeous and calming in a morbid sort of way. we were all in it together <3 #absolutely unprompted #a great break from the irritating other dreams! #the earthquake one was Incredibly realistic - foreshocks and accurate ground movement and everything! #house shook right off of its foundation #that sleep paralysis Within a dream one tho. fuck that one lmao #i woke up and was So confused for a second bc i couldve sworn i had already woken up #good to know even my subconscious is done with The Demons trying to get me #i love clawing my way tooth and nail out of sleep paralysis and not humoring The Paralysis Horrors #if i ever see my sleep paralysis demon im biting it so fucking hard. we have beef

[hellokenmaz]

50 questions 

tagged by @ouryoonoh

What takes up too much of your time? tumblr to be honest 

What makes your day better? crying solves everything lmao its a cleanse 

What’s the best thing to happen to you today? I FOUND MY PRINTER PAPER THAT IVE BEEN LOOKING FOR EVERYWHERE IN MY HOUSE

What fictional place would you like to go to? hogwarts bro

Are you good at giving advice? depending on the situation lol

Do you have a mental illness? ADHD, depression & anxiety .

Have you ever experienced sleep paralysis? do PTSD dreams count? if so yeah 

What musician inspired you the most? idk britney is iconic tho

Have you ever fallen in love? yes disappointingly lmao 

What’s your dream date? watching studio ghibli films, cuddling and it raining outside. 

What do others notice about you? apparently im nice idk

What’s an annoying habit you have? i never shut the FUCK up 

Do you still talk to your first love? i’d rather get injured than talk to him lmao. so no

How many exes do you have? 1 

How many songs are in your playlist? i dont do playlists i just have 3000 sounds 

What instruments can you play? 3!!! clarinet, piano &  Guitar. 

What do you have the most pictures of? nct, Jaehyun & my god daughter. 

Where would you like to go before you die? japan seems lit 

What’s your Zodiac? Sagittarius 

Do you relate to it? yes i have every single one of the negative things about this sign lmao 

What is happiness to you? contempt within oneself and their life, happiness follows after those are found. 

Are you going through anything right now? uni. its hard sos. 

What’s the worst decision you ever made? cutting my fringe myself while crying 30 mins before a final exam in grade 12. 

What’s your favourite store? the local art store, the got some cool ass shit. 

What’s your opinion on abortion? every woman has the right to have access to have one on her own accord. 

Do you keep a bucket list? no lol 

Do you have a favourite album? literally any song joji has had anything to do with fuck me up joji 

What do you want for your birthday? moneyyyyyyy

What are most people’s first impressions of you? here is a quote from my friend amanda “opal, you’re unreadable. like you’re so quite and just come to class and then fuck off. you also look like you could stab someone if they deserved it.” 

What age do you seem according to most people? like fucking 13 

Where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping? on the floor lol

What word to you say the most? “mate” “fuck” “ sovereignty”

What’s the oldest age you would date? cap it off at like 3 years older 

What’s the youngest age you would date? i have 5 younger brothers i literally refuse to date or look at any male younger, you are automatically put into the little brother zone. girls? like a year younger

What job/career do most people say would suit you? lawyer lol i’d hope so too 

What’s your favourite music genre? lofi type shit 

If you could live in any country in the world, where would it be? idk?????? 

What is your current favourite song? slowing dancing in the dark - joji 

How long have you had this blog for? like barely 4 months since i started using it lol 

What are you excited for? finishing this semester 

Are you a better talker or listener?idk i cry to people a LOT but i also listen so both

What is the last productive thing you did? found my printing paper 

What do you want for Christmas? sleep 

What class do you get the best grades in? legal research, writing and analysis, also contract law, getting A’s in both. 

On a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now? like 7 maybe 

What can you see yourself doing in ten years? lawyer with enough money to have regular as the theme song of my life

When did you get your first heartbreak? 16 

What age do you want to get married? yuck commitment 

What career did you want to have as a child? police officer, lawyer thats it lmao 

What do you crave right now? sleep

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