#that i wasted all the sunshine. 🫠🫠🫠

[jvzebel-x]

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#ive been in kind of a depressive low point for. a sec now lmao. #it swung down after the months of Bad Mania in response to the meds balancing out i think idk. #either way ive been in a weird state of disassociative depression for a couple months now #but i can feel it swinging back as the month goes on&we get closer&closer to autumn lmao. #right about now for a couple different reasons is when my Internal Balance starts to shift yearly in response to the anxiety #that i wasted all the sunshine. 🫠🫠🫠 #idk. its putting me in that weird spot where my depressive episode isn't exactly Over yet #but i can already feel that buzzing in my bones going on lmao. #its also bringing up weird thoughts i guess as my brain scrambles for actual reasons to be so anxious #&just like when i wake up in pain that always bleeds over into reasons to be Angry not Anxious bc Angry is easier lmao. #like hypocrisy has been a topic of discussion in my life recently bc of everything back home&if i let my head spiral for too long #ill end up back at the point where my shithead ex told me for 3yrs that i was a hypocrite w double standards #w his primary example being that he Let Me talk to other guys but i didnt Let Him talk to other women #w the one sole example being how after i moved my entire life across an ocean to an entirely foreign place where i had no support but him #i was made extremely uncomfortable when i found out he'd been talking to his ex during the entire process. #so my attitude toward that translated into i guess a weird boundary that i never actually set bc he enjoyed to call me a hypocrite lmao. #its just weird having my thoughts slide from discussions about hypocritical actions involving Lahaina&its handling by the fake state #over to old thoughts about how i just let someone call me a hypocrite to my face for years bc he wanted to w no actual reason lmao. #&this sort of All Over The Board weirdness is really only something that happens in these strange Inbetween times for me. #... pls for the love of everything holy let this fucking be over soon lmao i solve these problems Poorly bc these time periods #wreck my impulse control lmao.

[bettyfrommars]

I saw a post yesterday or the day before where someone was saying that this side of fic world was quiet and there was not much to read. It made me sadddd because there are so many talented writers still blogging away, and so I decided to make a list of recs with recent stuff I've enjoyed. I have a very small page and not much reach, but hopefully a few of you can find a couple new ones here to sink your teeth into.

If you are a friend of mine and I missed you on this list, pls know that I'm a fan of edibles and I forget things. But I will probably do a couple of these.

I'm not going to organize them into groups, because these are all good regardless of the main.

(in no particular order)

Pick up, will you? - @somnambulic-thing

rockstar!Eddie in this one and Somna is such a creative genius, you will thank me if you are able to go through their Masterlist. One of the more underrated creatives on this app, everything they put out is gold.

As Above, So Below -@jo-harrington

Kas!Eddie for the vampire/monsterfuckers out there. This story is so rich, Jo is one of those fic writers that make me say out loud: Wait, we get this for FREE?? Highly recommend.

Wasted Years - @neonghostlights

rockstar!Eddie and 90's au! Bee is one of those fic writers that make you want to consume everything they put out so fast because they are all SO good. Plus, she's just genuinely an amazing person and deserves to be supported/protected at all costs.

Exile in Guyville - @chestylarouxx

90s au Eddie, and let me tell you that I am not one of those who waits around for a fic to warm up or get good---this story will grab you right from the start and literally transport you to the 90's. Plus, Eddie is soooo hot in this. Please, you will love it.

WAIT HOLD ON LET ME TALK ABOUT GATOR TILLMAN FOR A SECOND

Joe Keery is about to be in the next season of Fargo as Gator Tillman and @courtingchaos did their own breathtaking spin on him. The creativity is out the roof, y'all. @usedtobecooler also gifted us with some Gator content that had me on my knees the other day. These are the only two I know of, but let me know if there are others so I can check them out!

S.J. - @lesservillain

Less just decided to drop the most beautiful story on us last night as I was about to go to sleep 😭 Based on the most wonderful Black Mirror episode ever, the way she made this her own is just breathtaking and sad in the best way.

Saccahrine - @pepsimunson

The rockstar!Eddie smut that you've been dreaming of, for real. This is one of those fics with a lot of parts already published, so you can really sink in an enjoy.

all of Drac's Sapphic Summer - @dr-aculaaa

really tho, the creativity and work she has put into these beautiful fics is insane. The Robin Buckley Y2K one is my favorite so far...it will give you the best nostalgia tingles. Seriously, you will fall in love with these.

Sea Stars and Sunshine - @imjuststeddietrashatthispoint

Steve Harrington Summer Love🫠 Another win for this writer, I love everything they create. This story will taste like summer and sand on your tongue as you read it, for real. All the beach vacation vibes...it honestly feels like a warm hug from Steve, chest hair and all.

There are also a handful of popular creators on here writing their hearts out for us all on literally a daily basis, and if you ever have any fic recs, please send them to me!

#fic recs #eddiemunson #steve harrington #robin buckley #gator tillman