#terrible things ahve happened and how im still pushing forward and everything is fine except for when i Remember. im feeling it now mr krab

[pepprs]

ngl it’s genuinely kinda crazy how much of my life i have lost to mental illness :3 lol

#purrs #not time wise necessarily but like… aspect wise. like talking to my friends and pursuing hobbies and doing things that give my life meaning #and the very nature of the mental illness reinforces the detachment and fills me with so so so much shame for having lost these things that #it deters me from fighting to get it back. i feel like my life has gotten so gaunt since covid hit and sometimes it occurs to me how many #terrible things ahve happened and how im still pushing forward and everything is fine except for when i Remember. im feeling it now mr krab #delete later #like i used to be someone who hung out with my friends at least once a week and texted back and wrote poetry and played piano and kept my #room clean and took great care to stay organized and connected. and now at my own hands i am spiralling through space. im fighting my way #out of the quicksand i really think i am trying to but im still very much in the quicksand 😻 #side note idk if anyone else is having this problem but lately tumblr has been adding two hashtags to tags which keeps knocking off an #extra character to the end of my tags and it’s fucking annoying. i meant *krabs not krab lol