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edit - thank you for those who shared & msgd me for commission. especially to those who donated to my kofi i appreciate the kindness so much. i hav enough now for rent this month & other expenses 🥹

i really hate to beg so often, but rent is due in 3 days and im 180$ short. i'v been working on comms nonstop to try and open more slots before the month ends but stress and overuse is starting to make my hand shake and its impeding my ability to draw quickly

im expanding my slots from 10 to 15 bc of urgency. if you could so kindly share this or my commission post itd be greatly appreciated. i do character portraits where you get 3 separate arts for 50 USD, like these

otherwise if you like my art and like to support me some other way i hav a ko-fi. thanks for rreading & if u share, itd help out a lot

#tear.txt #iv been applying to jbos nonstop for 3 months but i could only land 1 job where i only come in 1 day a week ... #idk what im doing wrong but im trying rreally hard idk what else to say idk how to write these posts #id just like to feel some relief rn bc idk if iv been feeling naeseous from looking at my screen too long or from anxiety

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Update 💗:

I signed up for more prerequisites for my major at my college so it looks like I'm still gonna be away from tumblr for a while to try to keep my head clear.

#tear.txt #lms if u can #also gonna have to take at least 2 math classes so its gonna b extra stressful 🙄

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does everything but study for english (^:

#because apparently cleaning my notebooks and writing letters is 1000% more important #tear.txt

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pls rb for larger sample size n___n and feel free to add why you prefer your app of choice in the tags/replies

#tear.txt #polls #i wanna seeeee what ppl r using #i use autodesk sketchbook ... i hav ibis paint and medibang downloaded but theyr too cluttered for me haha #theres too much going on on a tiny screen i like sketchbook bc its simpler n___n #but one thing abt it is that i wish i could arrange the brush order or delete some ... #its annoying having to scroll all the way down bc i switch between brushes a lot #and i wish there was brush stabilization and ability to clip layers #i didnt realize how badly my hand tremors before using this app !!! 😭😭😭 #also iv only used the first 3 apps in this poll i just googled popular drawing apps for the rest lmao #bc i hav android i dont hav access to procreate pocket or adobe fresco u_______u

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#tear.txt #polls #i use cement lol. light mode >

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reposting my friend's gfm here ! copy pasting from the link:

Hi, my name is xtine and I'm helping my friend C raise funds to escape their abusive household. C will be traveling from the midwest to the west coast. The trip will take 28 hours by car and span 2,000 miles.

C initially had some money set aside, but due to unforeseen circumstances with the rental car company, their escape was set back, and the delays have extra costs. Since they quit their job in anticipation of this trip, they no longer have a steady stream of income to cover these surprise costs. C is applying for jobs and doing gig jobs, but the interview process is slow and gigs don't pay steady.

C is currently shipping their items across the country first, and using a rental car to travel with their large dog to their destination.

Here's the breakdown of how the money from this GoFundMe will be spent:

shipping packages cross country ahead of the trip (~$200 per package for 2 packages = $400)

will go towards the gas money from traveling (~$350)

the hotels + meals for human and doggy along the way (~$250)

any amount past the travel costs will be used as wiggle room for the first month of rent as C gets on their feet at their destination ($500 + $500)

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this far!! We appreciate anything you can contribute!!

reblogs are appreciated!

#tear.txt #idk what to tag this. iv seen that tagging as d0n@tion is bad on tumblr?? #WHY WONT TUMBLR LET ME POST THIS THE FUCKING HELLLLL 'A WILD TUMBLE BEAST ATE UR POST' ILL FUCKING KILL Y #edit: ah

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updated my tumblr web theme do u guys like it

#tear.txt #bye xl. im in my flop airplane era

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its my birthday so for my present if ppl coudl reblog my commission post or lì xì me thatd be great thank u lmao

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iv had this list forever and i should really start chipping away at it but i can never decide which one to read first -______-

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in addition to what mobile phone drawing app do you use

pls rb for larger sample size n___n idk how common phone drawing is lmao

#tear.txt #polls #i hav a galaxy note8 so it already had a pen inside it #idk how well universal styluses work w compatibility etc bc iv never used them

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hey. as an viet american i dont think ppl should hav to apologize for putting “free palestine” posts in the “stop asian hate” tag. especially palestinians

ik they dont want backlash from americans and for others to resent their cause if they feel palestinians are “appropriating” “stop asian hate” so im talking to americans here, theyr being forcibly evicted, bombed, killed en masse, ethnically cleansed, and just casually being war crimed

im not making this “oppression olympics” i just want others to understand theyr extremely desperate. and social media is their ONLY recourse since the news outlets wouldnt cover them and even now that they are (and only bc it was trending on sns) its filled with pro israel propaganda and their own hashtags r being suppressed, so they hav to get their cause trending somehow

the way i see it when they make parallels to “stop asian hate” theyr trying to appeal to us and asking for solidarity not “undermining” or “appropriating” it. from what iv seen palestinians hav always stood with others across borders and overseas even when they r one of the ones who hav suffered the most

and i think everyone who supports “stop asian hate” should unquestionably support “free palestine” especially asians since palestinians are west asian and especially americans considering the us gives $3.8 billion yearly to israel and funds 20% of israels overall military budget that they use to brutalize and bomb palestinian civilians

so to the asam, as one asam to another, if you are squabbling with pro-palestinians over “this hashtag is mine!!” when their own hashtags are being censored, instead of sympathizing with the palestinians, our west asian siblings overseas who are going thru what could arguably be called genocide ............ please get your head out of your ass

#tear.txt #free palestine #stop asian hate #nobodys gonna read this theyr gonna see a text wall and dip #but i just wnted to get this off my chest going thru the free palestine and stop asian hate tag and seeing all the free palestine posts #apologizing at the bottom for putting it in our tag. im sad they feel the need to apologize #when theyr going thru so much #also if ur non asian u can rb this just dont add stupid shit thx

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supporting palestine: u.s. citizen’s beginner’s guide to calling congress

5/22/2021: i’m making this for anyone who is a u.s. voter intimidated to call congress, as a person who has trouble speaking on the phone and didn’t know how to call congress 5 days ago

5/28/2021: edits made to the script & description of HR2590 since i paraphrased the bill incorrectly. apologies!

i had a lot of questions but i asked myself “if i could only make 1 phone call to each of my officials, which way would be the most effective?” so i’m going to try to be as thorough as possible

this guide will be specifically about calling your elected officials to support HR2590: a bill to protect the human rights of palestinians and ensure u.s. taxpayer money isn’t used to fund israel’s further annexation of palestinian land in violation of international law

the united states provides $3.8 billion to israel annually and is responsible for making up 20% of israel’s overall defense budget

i encourage us citizens to call congress in addition to emailing & signing petitions because calling is the most effective way to get your voice heard and disrupt congress from home. emails and petitions these days are mostly read by algorithms and responded back with auto replies, and while the issues are counted, there’s no guarantee an actual person will see it

finding & calling your officials

find your city’s district representative here and click on their name to be redirected to their individual site. (or if you don’t know who that is you could just google “your city, state district representative”) find their office locations and call their LOCAL DISTRICT office. local offices are less busy and calls are more likely to go through

here is a script to base your representative call on:

“may i speak to the staffer assigned to foreign policy” ¹

...

“hello my name is [NAME] a constituent ² from [CITY] and i am calling about palestine to request [REPRESENTATIVE] cosponsor HR2590 to protect the human rights of palestinians and ensure u.s. taxpayer money is not used to fund israel’s further annexation of palestinian land in violation of international law. i am opposed to the use of my taxpayer's dollars to fund israel's apartheid and brutalization of civilians in palestine”

...

“thank you for your time, goodbye” ³

¹    talking to the correct staffer will get your message where it needs to go faster. but if they are unavailable skip this completely and give your message to the person currently on the phone

²   its important to mention that you’re a constituent because officials care more about the voters in their district than others outside of it

³   they may ask for your number and/or street address before this so be prepared to give that information. if this is a voicemail say instead: “my callback number is [#] thank you for your time, goodbye”

find your senators here and click on their names to be redirected to their individual sites. find their office locations and call their LOCAL DISTRICT office first

here is a similar script to base your senator calls on:

“may i speak to the staffer assigned to foreign policy”

“hello my name is [NAME] a [STATE] constituent from [DISTRICT #] and i am calling about palestine to request [SENATOR] cosponsor HR2590 to protect the human rights of palestinians and ensure u.s. taxpayer money is not used to fund israel’s further annexation of palestinian land in violation of international law. i am opposed to the use of my taxpayer's dollars to fund israel's apartheid and bombing of civilians in palestine”

“thank you for your time, goodbye”

done! if your call seems too short, that’s fine! what matters is the substance of your call not the length. if you feel like leaving a voicemail is useless and calling is a waste of time unless you talk to a real person, it’s not! your voicemail will be counted and sorted under the issue you stated, so as long as you made your request clear you’re good. it’ll just get logged faster if you talk to an actual person.

also if you can i recommend calling everyday until your representative cosponsors it :) on average it doesn’t take more than 5-10 minutes to make 3 calls in my experience (because i run into voicemails most of the time)

tips

1.   say at least one sentence about how this personally affects you to make your message stand out and show the staffer you care. example: “as a taxpayer ...” “as an asian american...” “as the child of a veteran...” etc

2.   research them and appeal to their concerns. this can be as easy as looking up their twitter. for example my representative recently made a statement supporting the aapi community so i chose to appeal to them like so:

“as an asian american myself i thank [REPRESENTATIVE] for their support of the aapi community, but i ask of them to extend the same sympathy to the asians overseas who are being brutalized by israeli forces funded by us taxpayer dollars like mine”

3.   if your representative supports israel say that you will donate to their opponent, support campaigns against them, or not vote for them in the future to get them to care

4.   if you’re going to do any or all of the above it would be helpful to write it out beforehand if you’re nervous you’ll forget or fumble during your call ... like i did ......

5.   but it’s also okay if you fumble because it’ll show them that you’re human and you care! as long as your request is clear and they know that this is important to you as a constituent, you’re good. remember to be kind to the staffer as well, they’re human too, and you want them to side with you!

you can do it !!!

all this comes from my own experience talking to legislative aides on the phone for the past few days. but again, i didn’t know how to do this a week ago, so if there’s anything i’m missing please let me know! i will also update this post if any of the information i presented here is wrong

if you can’t call 

you can also text your elected officials to email them by sending “RESIST” to 50409 and “PTFDZN” to 50409 to sign a petition in support of HR2590.

it’s really easy to use, i tried it out myself and got emails back from my officials so it works!

(you can also use it to identify your representatives and get their numbers which saves you the time of going through those links i provided, BUT it will only provide their dc office lines, which have less impact than calling their district lines)

i hope this helps !

#tear.txt #free palestine #stop asian hate #im sorry if this is excessively wordy i wanted to be thorough #and answer the questions i had before i knew how to call #can you tell i hav anxiety #and memory problems bc i probably repeated the same bits of information 5 seperate times in this post #anyway i hav a headache i cant look at this anymore #also im rly sorry if ur not american but im not putting this under a cut </3 i hope u understand #txt

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my 2020 tumblr top 9 💃🏻🎶

wow ... there sure is ......... wei wuxian !

ofc the shitpost art takes the first spot

white backgrounds . ground breaking

the way 5 of these r commissions [+1 a commission sample] lmao

did not get to draw as much as i wanted this yr. most of the stuff i drew were commissions ... as evidenced here

interesting to look at i guess. i made this with jetblackcode’s tumblr top 10 except i formatted the 9 on my phone w insta layout app since im not rly into that long scrolling format. hopefully next yr i will make more interesting art ! perhaps even a background if im lucky

#tear.txt #also ykno whatd be funny if i did a tumblr flop 9 .least popular art posts of 2020 #im not gonna but the concept amuses me

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as of july 4th 2020 nearly one year after elijah’s death in august 2019 the officers who killed him have not yet been arrested or tried for his murder

justice for elijah mcclain petition

support black lives matter

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whenever people bring up mlk jr in response to all this they dont seem to know or bother to remember he was the most hated man in america during his lifetime. or his frustration with white moderates. or that, after mlk was assassinated over 100 cities erupted in riots for days and a few days later the civil rights act was enacted. the same people who use him today to try to shame violent forms of protest i have no doubt would’ve hated him still if they were born the same time that he was

you cannot prosper in a game where you are the only ones expected to play by the rules, and a game that was designed to have you lose

and let me make this clear nonblack people this is not your excuse to live out your violent anarchist fantasies. especially whites. if riots are to happen and often when they have already happened they weren’t even caused by the protestors, but undercover cops or nonblack people looking for an excuse to be violent or white supremacists aiming to damage and destroy the movement etc they should be instigated and led by the group oppressed. we as a nonblack people have no right to instigate violence in the name of black lives matter because the blame falls to them. in this we must follow black leadership because this is THEIR movement. this is about THEM. we have no say in how they protest other than to use our voices and privilege to aid and elevate

also

resources on ways you can help with the black lives matter movement

including educational materials on black history, structural racism, effective allyship, ways to donate without any money, and more

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the amount of catboy urls in my notifs

#tear.txt #looks at my hands what does this mean