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isolctions · 3 years

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...hey, y’all. so here’s the thing.

idk if any of my mutuals / partners are around and lurking, but if you are, this one’s for u. when i went on hiatus a little over two months ago, i wasn’t exactly in the mind state to really explain and have a detailed reasoning behind doing so (not that i need one, ‘cause this isn’t anyone’s job and i do what i want), but now that some time has passed i feel like i can adequately explain how i was feeling at the time.

without realizing, i was...very not well balanced. i found myself depending on the attention and interaction i was receiving here. then, when my drafts and replies dwindled by no one’s fault, my motivation dwindled. it got to the point where i was like...almost obessively looking at my notes every single day, searching for shit that wasn’t there. but hey, not everyone’s been feeling t*mblr and the dash right now, so it was fine! i decided to lean more towards discord. but then...i was checking that app almost every ten minutes, looking for DMs and messages within my servers that weren’t. fucking. there. again, to absolutely no one’s fault, because we’re all busy and none of us are obligated to give our all to imaginary servers when we don’t want to or can’t do so. because of this, i didn’t want to give the impression of pressuring others when i hate having this used against me, so i decided to just go on hiatus and log myself out of discord indefinitely. granted, wasn’t expecting it to be this fucking long, but historically, y’all know i remove myself from writing when i’m not feeling adequate enough to ground myself. this wasn’t the first, won’t be the last.

on top of that, i was also like?? alarmingly s*******??????? like, i was s-wording HARD. it was very uncomfortable to deal with and think about. won’t get into it now, just now i’m like...afloat atm, thanks to a fixation i’m enduring atm. and on top of THAT, i’m the unluckiest bitch ever and am dealing with, yet again, another bout of health problems. this time, neurological. basically, my hands, fingers, legs, toes, etc. have been in varying intervals of being numb to being in extreme pain. i have an appointment for an MRI at a neurologist’s in may, so there’s that. but uh, yeah! that’s what’s been keeping me these days.

will i be back? maybe, who knows. y’all know i’m the queen of concepts and i always come back. will it be soon? idk. right now, i’ve rekindled my love and fixation for n*ruto and started watching b*ruto, and i’m down bad down the fanfic rabbit hole. i’m also kind of on my personal sometimes, if you have it, it just depends because i literally just sit and watch true crime and read fanfic all day. it’s not easy bein g**ra n s*igetsu’s wife but somebody gotta do it! i also sometimes pop my head in on discord from time to time, so if you send a message, i will see it eventually.

i wanna apologize if i worried anyone, if i seemingly ghosted anyone, if anyone was under the impression that i severed ties or anything. i didn’t. i just know when i’m not at my best and tend to remove myself entirely, and anyone who knew me back in 2015 remembers how down bad i was and how i handled it then. i’m okay. so uhhhh......yeah. hope you all have been doing well, staying safe and staying healthy. i love u and miss u guys a lot and hope everything’s okay. and that’s it. <3 if you would like to reach me, either by personal or discord for any reason, let me know. again, i pop my head in periodically so i’m there if needed.

love u, babes. be back when i can n when i want to. <3

#ooc ━ raja shut up #wow my tags work??? YEET

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tenyxshx-a · 4 years

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK

Is your character considered strong in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK

Are they underrated? YES / NO

Were they relevant for the main story? YES / NO

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG.

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO

How’s their reputation? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL

How strictly do you follow canon?

Pretty strictly honestly? I know people like to portray me as some canon-divergent or AU Doflamingo but I do insist that my Doflamingo is as close to canon as possible. Of course I add more emotional stuff to him but he’s still the Doflamingo we know and love from One Piece!

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.

I mean, shallow things first, he’s good looking. That aside, Doflamingo loves to play yet also takes things seriously. You want someone to hold a good conversation with? He’s good at that. You want someone who’s interested in more serious talk? He can do that. You want someone to spar with? He can take you on. You want someone to have fun with? His sense of having fun may be different but he’s in no way boring. Doflamingo is a man with many sides, and he’s very good at adapting to the companionship he’s with.

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).

Doflamingo is a man with many sides, that also means he might exactly be what the other person doesn’t want. Doflamingo is very stubborn and whimsical so it can be hard to keep up. He also doesn’t like not getting his way so he can grow angry at that. Doflamingo is also sadistic, with little to no regard to the opinions of those around him.

What inspired you to rp your muse?

Honestly, it’s hard to describe. I just loved him after seeing him at the marineford war arc. He was cool looking, he had a giant feather coat (and I love birds), he was intriguing and ngl, his voice actor Hideyuki Tanaka also won me over. From that moment on I just kept on loving him more. With every detail I just got more interested. If it weren’t for Doflamingo I probably wouldn’t have kept on going on with watching One Piece.

What keeps your inspiration going?

Everything honestly? I just get inspired by almost anything! It’s not that I don’t have any inspiration to write him, it’s usually that I don’t have energy or emotional capacity to deal with tumblr rpc. But I’ve never ran out of inspiration for him.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice? YES / NO (I wish I could say yes, but t//mblr really makes me doubt it so *shrug*)

Do you frequently write headcanons? YES / NO (not on here, but I love writing headcanon! I just don’t like sharing them. )

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO (same as the hc, I usually don’t write them on here)

Do you think a lot about your muse during the day? YES / NO

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO (same as with giving the character justice, I wish I could say yes but on here, I feel like my portrayal isn’t good so there’s no confidence here!)

Are you confident in your writing? YES / NO

Are you a sensitive person? YES / NO

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?

I like to think I do? I just... Listen to it. I get a shitton of crap for my portrayal, both voiced in words and actions so regardless of whether I take it well or not, I take it. I like to try and learn things out of it. Granted, I rarely get criticism on here, I just get like... Hate... Or insults. Fun.

A lot of people nowadays don’t even know what criticism is and what isn’t.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?

Absolutely! I’m awkward at answering them though, because it feels like answering in your muse’s place? And sometimes you just know your answer isn’t what most people think about your muse so you’re kind of stuck between giving the obvious one or revealing your headcanons? But I love answering questions, they’re a great way to further develop your portrayal and they usually write faster than threads!

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?

Not really. Half of the time they let you know anyways why they don’t agree lmao. People have their own hc. As long as someone doesn’t bash mine I won’t really take note of it? If someone disagrees that’s fine, if that someone proceeds to make a hc. completely the opposite of it and ends up explaining it like an ass, then I end up knowing why but wishing I didn’t.

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?

Like I take it on here, which is just accept it. People don’t owe you a liking to your portrayal. Everyone has different tastes, opinions and views so really, there’s nothing to do about it. I do prefer if people would just ignore it and move on but some people get really heated over not liking your portrayal. If someone openly and continuously disagrees and bashes I might not take it and tell them to fuck off.

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?

Hard if it’s openly expressed towards me, otherwise it’s live and let live. Not everyone’s gonna like the character you like, and honestly, that means more to like for you. I’ve had one person openly hate on Doflamingo though and it was very exhausting. I took it not personally but I still kind of got hurt about it? Granted there was more going on with that person but... It hurts if people express their hate about a character you love to you. If they stay away with their hate I don’t really pay attention to it.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?

Definitely! English is not my first language... Not even my second one either! And there’s nothing more hateful than rereading something on your blog you really love and then finally noticing a grammatical error... or a spelling mistake... It hurts Dx!

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?

I try to be, and I do think I’m wayyy more easy going than when I first started RPing. But even if you think of yourself as easy going, it’s how people view you that ends up telling whether or not you are easy-going!

That’s about it, congrats for filling out!

➸ Tagger: @despairforme (thank you snail!!! ♥)

➸ Tagging: @mcnypieces, you reading this, and people like me who should be on hiatus but are not on hiatus!

#(why is this so depressing LMAO)#(i could write an entire novel of the shit i had to deal with )#(i do think that maybe in a half year/year from now on i might have confidence in my writing)#(and portrayal)#(it's just that right now i'm a big baby who takes things wayyy too personally)#(WHY am i such a baby!!!!)#(thank you for tagging snail!!!)#(i actually LOVED this one to fill out)#(it was really nice!)#(and it was nice reading yours <3)#➸ in the feather coat (ooc.)#(dash. games;)

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