#surviveded) i am no longer surviving succesfuly

[moony4pads]

*voice of a girl that zonned out 2 hours ago and does not now what is going on*: I Sleept 0 hours last night and is totally functioning

#i have been cursed by the insomina gods #yesterday i rejoyenced realising i regularly was gotton 7-8 hours of sleep in the nights of the holiday period #and overall my insomina has been looking up recently #like im talking up to 6 hours on a school night sometimes! (yes sometimes sschool starts at 11 but i still hav to lissen so is still school) #so the gods cursed me for being a celebratory duck and made me get 0 hours of sleep #no ajustment period to return to my insomiac fays to get used to the feeling of heavy eyelids like brics i cant hold open #this was w no changed to my routine btwwww en no extra stress specifically on that day i had not before had #so yeah fate was basicly like now that you have engnolged that ur improving i have to put you back to squere 1 #like a smakes and ladders board game but with numbers on the blokths #*SQUARES that js the word #how is it that this time last year i was regularly dealing w this shit and going through a functioning day like this #cant be me now #i have been spoiled by the sleep god and now i no longer now how to work on 0 hours of sleep an unmedicated brain and a crushing headache #(and it used to be that the days were i did get sleep i only got ever like 3-5 hours never any of this 7 hour shit i had saved up yet i #surviveded) i am no longer surviving succesfuly #my brain is too priocrepied trying to kwep my eyes open it cant think properly #there was a market today but i dint have the energy to go wich is a shame #also i am litterlay buried in dealdimes that i couldnt motivate myself to work on before i insominaed again so idk what ill do now #cry mabey but i am not feeling tears it is the buring jeeping my eyes open and they are not tears they are the regret of 3am me #insominac #insomnia #adhd #sleep #fail at life if lige is sleep and it is sleep in actuality #NO SLEEP BITCH LIKE COULD YOU NOT GAVE AT LEADT GIVEN ME 1 OR 2 HOURS JUST FOR FUNSIESES