#stupid cross stitch thing where i stagger away from one project and am immediately compelled to begin another

[spockandawe]

Hmm. I think I'm inhabiting the exact right place of Malaise where it would hit just right for me to reread svsss, and gorge on both binghe's plot-centric spiral and the numb hole that shen jiu leaves in the narrative. But that malaise being noticeably present suggests that maybe i shouldn't do that thing. Probably mdzs would land better with wwx's deflection and humor to smooth the way, or maybe clone wars fic that diverges from the blunt, heartstopping tragedy of canon, but then if I get lost in thought and muse too hard on things, I might kneecap myself by accident

(i cannot afford to kneecap myself right now, I have made work Commitments, i'm losing my whole weekend to a craft event pileup, then losing most of the next week to holidays, and have made social promises to slot in wherever they fit, and aaaaaaaaaa. but every urge to consume that i have loops back around into wanting reading material that will flay me but not wanting to actually be flayed)

#unhelpful hindbrain suggests instead of reading: More Boxes #stupid cross stitch thing where i stagger away from one project and am immediately compelled to begin another #and crochet #if i don't keep making things my brain will self-cannibalize #and if i don't find something to just consume #i assume that the baby tantrums will continue until morale improves #this post brought to you by another thoroughly wasted evening #i have not been productive enough to keep me happy #delete later