#strikes 1 and 2 by the way were 1 - the ordeal of gender identity clinics in general being so ... messy ... and taking ages

[ofcowardiceandkings]

im .. always gonna be salty about my brief spit of contact with the ADHD clinic i was referred to because it was comically bad but mostly strike 3 on my already piss-poor opinion of mental health services in my area when i didnt have the freedom or mental bandwidth to try again

#like i literally had real ass reasons i needed to cancel these appointments as well but ooohh noooo #without speaking to me at all they can tell from a little glance at my medical history that i probably dont have ADHD #strikes 1 and 2 by the way were 1 - the ordeal of gender identity clinics in general being so ... messy ... and taking ages #(ages at that point is a blink of the eye compared to the TWELVE YEAR WAIT LIST which now exists) #and 2 was the regional mental health care nurse causing me to have a panic attack .. #in a way which even the student doctor with him was clearly uncomfortable over ... he sent out my two family chaperones as a 14 yr old #who could barely talk to ANYONE because 'it wouldnt be a good assessment' or some shit #anyway ... salty #im coping but i do think its likely i have adhd still ... just effort getting it sorted at this point yknow #im 28 and have other life shit to deal with other than starting a fight with mental healthcare over my idiot brain right now #rory's ramblings