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Temporary Affairs II

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Chapter o3. Perfect Imperfection

One Thursday evening, you nonchalantly sat on the rocking chair with soft lullabies playing through a headphone for the baby to listen to. Light kicks emerged from your five-month pregnant belly and you patted it gently in response while gazing lovingly down at the child inside of you.

Suddenly, a beep came from your tablet, notifying you of an update. Leaning over, you took the device off the vanity and swiped the screen a few times. You looked at the screen curiously as the Facebook application automatically started up.

You narrowed your eyes and brought the flickering screen mere inches from your eyes. Someone had posted on Jongin’s Facebook wall with a picture of Sohee and him during a masquerade ball and labeled it with tags #tbt #youtwoweresocute. Bending your neck back, you snorted. Does this person NOT know Jongin is now married?

You cursed under your breath. Trying to contain your frustration, you scrolled down Jongin’s FB page and discovered that he had set his relationship status to be hidden. Your jaw opened wide. What? Was he embarrassed to tell people that I was his wife?

Frowning and admittingly a bit hurt, you scrolled back up to the picture of Sohee and Jongin to examine every small detail. From Jongin’s smile, to his sexy gelled-up hair, to his hands that were….you narrowed your eyes…they were on Lee Sohee’s hip area - borderline booty. You snarled. Clicking on her profile to stalk see your love rival, you weren’t at all surprised when the first post included several pictures of her in a form fitting dress promoting her beautiful S-curved…She…does have a nice body…

But wait…WHAT WAS THAT??? KIM JONGIN LIKED IT?! The tablet almost fell out of your hands and you managed to catch it just in time and as you do you accidentally hit the “like” button as well. Oh fudge. Now she’ll know you’ve been stalking her. So you sat there debating whether you should unlike it or not. While you pondered, the corner of your eyes caught your reflection in the mirror and you had to do a double take. Holy crap, your figure was so not praiseworthy at this moment. You mean…it was a given since you were pregnant and all but even you had to admit that compared to Sohee’s perfect figure…you paled in comparison. Your shoulders slacked and you sighed. Just as you do, your husband walked out from the bathroom with only a towel on his hip. But you can’t even find it within yourself to spaz over his perfect chiseled body.

Dwindling of any will to feign a smile, you heard your voice ask, “Oppa, do you want to have sex?”

Jongin’s head whipped around immediately, looking at you as if you grew two horns on the top of your head.

“Jagiya, are you okay?” he inquired, placing his palm on your forehead.

“Is that a ‘no’?” you asked, your voice depleted of energy. Yep, sexual appeal = zero.

“But you’re pregnant, Jagiya,” he reasoned, still confused by your sudden suggestion.

“Is it because I’m not attractive anymore?” you probed, curling your knees up to your chin.

“No, of course not. Babe, what’s wrong?” he asked slipping on a pair of pants and sitting down on the bed with you.

“Is it because my figure isn’t as perfect as Sohee’s?” you can’t believe you just murmured out loud but you did.

Jongin covered his face with a hand in exasperation just like all the other times you brought up his ex. Though, his other still stroked your palms soothingly.

“How many times did you have sex with her?” you knew you were walking on a borderline but you took the dive anyway.

Jongin’s eyes widened and you almost thought his eyeballs would pop out and fall into the palms of your hands. His mouth opened permanently, speechless at your accusations. What does that mean? Your eyes grew glossier and glossier with every moment that passed without an answer.

Finally he denied, “Where did you get the idea from? Sohee and I never had an intimate relationship!”

Strong denial = affirmation. You bit your tongue to not cry but you don’t respond.

“Honey, I’m serious. How in the world did you even get that idea?” he asked again, pulling you into his embrace and you started vocally crying.

“Lee Sohee hinted to me that you guys did,” you finally admitted tearfully.

He pulled you apart so you’d look at him in the eyes, “Are you telling me you’d rather trust her than trust your own husband?”

“Then why’d you like her picture of Facebook?” you retorted.

“W-what? I did not. I haven’t even been on Facebook for over a year,” he held his hands out defensively.

You snickered. You gave him the chance to have an honest conversation with you and he was lying. Angrily, you grabbed your tablet and showed him the picture with his supposed “like”. He squinted and brought the device closer to his face. With a snort, he turned the screen back to your direction.

“Jagiya, read it carefully. Don’t tell me you don’t even know how to spell your own husband’s name,” he spoke.

You raised your eyebrow and took a closer look.

Kim…

Jong…

Dae…

Internal face palm. Embarrassed, you turned around to hide in a messy heap of blankets. Shaking his head, Jongin chuckled, and took both your hands into his.

“Look at me, Jagiya,” he ordered but you were still so darn humiliated so he had to physically turn your head with both his hands.

You whimpered, pouting and fidgeting with the bed sheets under you.

“I love you,” he spoke, “but I must not be proving my words well and giving you a sense of security”.

You shook your head, “No. No Oppa, it’s not your fault. It’s mine and my over sensitivity and the fact that I know you wouldn’t have married me if you had a choice”.

“What?” his tone was loud and serious, causing you to flinch so he softened his voice and firmly said, “That is my fault too”.

You looked up at him with furrowed eyebrows.

“It’s my fault because I was a jerk to you when we first met. But trust me. Please. I love you and I would marry you a thousand…a million more times even if I didn’t have to”.

“Really?” you looked up shyly. He immediately nodded and a small smile crept on your lips. Jongin sighed in relief.

“So are we good?” he asked, shaking your hands up and down.

“Mhmm..”

He exaggeratedly puckered his lips and you leaned in to kiss him. He wrapped his arm around your neck to pull you closer.

In the middle of the night, you’re awoken by the bed shaking underneath you. Confused, you turned around to see Jongin stirring in his sleep, the pillow beneath him soaked in cold sweat. You shook him.

“Oppa. Oppa…” you called, stroking his cheek while his eyes fluttered open.

Fear drained any life in his eyes, in turn also scaring you to pieces. You watched helplessly as he held his breath and stared at the ceiling with empty eyes. You waved your hand in front of him but he doesn’t respond. Your heart thumped loudly in your ears. Without another solution, you threw your arms around his tensed body. This was so foreign from the calm and happy husband you fell in love with.

“Oppa, it was just a nightmare. I’m here,” you soothed but he remained still as a statue so you pulled his hand and placed it on your belly, “The baby’s here too”.

Finally, he blinked. Gradually, as if your child held the power to revive people, his soul returned back to his stilled body. Jongin took a deep breath and relaxed under your embrace. But you don’t dare let go, afraid you’d lose him to the Demons again, so instead your hold tightened. Seeing this, Jongin brought his hand to your head and stroked it.

“Sorry, did I scare you?” he questioned.

You sighed in relief at the gentle sound of your husband’s voice.

“Oppa, did you have a nightmare again?” you asked, looking up at his now softer expression.

“Mm…yeah but I’m fine now. Don’t worry about it,” he assured.

It’s my fault.

And it killed you each time he tried to hide his fears from you. Were you not trustworthy enough? Because wasn’t that what husbands and wives did? They shared their burdens. But you made no attempt to ask any further, afraid that Jongin would feel pressured to open his heart to you when you didn’t deserve it. So the only thing you could do was pull him closer against you, hoping your warmth and the baby’s presence was enough to warrant him a soundless slumber.

a/n: lOL this girl and her #firstworldproblems…haha I know she’s super immature right now (but really, look at me straight in the eyes and tell me if you’ve ever stalked your bf/crush’s exes before. I DARE YOU TO SAY “NO” I DARE YOU xD). She will grow up through his story though :D.

I have so many feels today. Kris’s new song omg TAT. I’ve been replaying it all day. I’m crying over this other story that I wrote (omg, IDK why I keep crying while writing. SO RIDICULOUS). And ANY NARUTO FANS out there…because omg I finally read chp. 698 and I can’t even… @$@#%@%@@@%

>3< I LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH!!!!!!

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