#soul-like lifeforce deep inside you what happens in your head when you fall asleep at night i swear too many people

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what we need mental health services to offer is an anger room. where you can go to just scream and break things. like stock it with 20 bucks worth of cheap plates and let patients smash the shit out of them. howl and pound on the walls until they're relieved/satisfied. maybe THEN when my mind is cleared of negative electricity we can discuss the sources of the suffering. like when i did equine therapy (which is the only therapy that ever helped me) they leave you all alone with the horses for an hour and then at the end you verbally process for five minutes. when you're at peace and thinking clearly. smashing objects is a great way to achieve clarity of thought. i speak from years of experience. just ask the holes in my walls.

#i'm not going back to therapy until they offer a rage room treatment option #the last time i drank liquor i scared some children by sobbing in public and went to the ER only #to walk out before the mental health team arrived i am tired of mental health teams #then there's shit like betterhelp shoving ads in your face and betterhelp might be the most evil thing to come out #of the last decade preying on desperate vulnerable people is so gross it's like when the cops cut holes in the tents of #the homeless like what is actually wrong with you people are you even human or did the modern world kill the #soul-like lifeforce deep inside you what happens in your head when you fall asleep at night i swear too many people #have been gutted of their humanity and are just zombies following orders they are so dangerous they keep us all sick #on campus someone wrote 'it's ok to be angry' on a public wall with a sharpie and i love this stranger bc #it's more than ok. it makes sense. rage is the proper response to the current reality. #rage and substance abuse