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cassandraclare · 3 months

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hiii cassie 💛 i hope you’ve been enjoying your time away writing, your locations are always beautiful per usual and you deserve it so much, question regarding a certain tween blondie that loves potato chips (yes, tis’ kit)

i’ve found myself struggling resonate fully with kits character due to the fact that in tda it seemed he was set up as “the new jace” yet..during my current tmi re read, i’m just NOW realizing how completely (emphasis on completely) different they are from eachother. and i also find myself struggling because he’s made to seem like he has an “uncanny resemblance” to jace yet so many of us readers know they aren’t from the same line of herondales at all. i’d figure jace gets his incredibly good looks from stephen, james, cordelia, will etc. HIS ancestors. while kit has completely different ancestors, along with johnny rooks genes.

i fear that if he’s referred to anymore as a “mini jace” that i won’t ever be able to fully resonate w him due to that lack of logic taking me out of the book 🥹 sorry to point this all out i tried to ignore it but im just like “will i have to read about him being jaces twin despite the lack of genetic sense it makes all of..twp?”

Hmm. I mean, I don't think there's anything indicating he's Jace's twin — otherwise people would be constantly mixing them up and Clary, upon seeing him, would be staggered rather than curious. :)

I think you have to decide, a bit, what really bothers you re: longstanding tropes and science in fantasy — after all, the way the Herondale mark is passed down makes no sense genetically. Neither does their ability to see ghosts. None of it has anything to do with genetics, because it is about magic, and so is Jace and Kit's resemblance. The idea that people who have ancestors in common long ago have a sort of ineffable resemblance goes way back to the origins of fantasy. It's about pointing out a preternatural connection, not about common genes. It exists as a mythic trope that isn't connected to science in the same way the mythic trope exists that you can inherit not just, say, eye color, but also personality quirks like loyalty or evilness. (See: TV Tropes page "In the Blood.")

For what it's worth, I don't think of Jace and Kit as characters who are particularly similar, personality-wise or in any other way, really. They both had traumatic childhoods, and were later adopted into new families, and that makes for some points in common, but I have never thought of Kit as a new Jace (we still have the OG Jace, so he doesn't need replacing!) or a mini Jace or anything like that, so anything that seems otherwise is unintentional or open to interpretation.

#kit herondale

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ryuusjacket · 2 years

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okay so i wanted to share this post that i made a while back from my personal nsfw blog but i feel kinda embarrassed just reblogging it here and showing off the url to that blog publicly (i. literally have like 2 maybe 3 followers on this blog so far lmao) even tho like. i Do share the url w ppl who i trust and who Want to read long ass posts that go into indepth descriptions of my sexual identity, my sexual health, my desires/feelings with regards to sex, and my experiences w sex (w myself bc idk how to initiate a sexual encounter w another human being). you're welcome to dm me for the url if ur Really interested in reading turbo tmi content (it is all text btw. idk how to take nudes so those don't exist sorry)

ANYWAY i sometimes do thought dumps on there that involve nsfw topics like smut fanfic n stuff, so i've tried to brainstorm for my planned sskk fic on there before and well i actually found a wordy one i did where i rlly tried to explain in detail just exactly i Want to create and accomplish w this fic idea of mine. and even just re-reading the post myself, i found it to be very concise and illustrative of my goal for the fic's overall mood and tone. it was a very well-needed reminder for me to read my thought process from a month or so back when i was a bit more hyped to begin this project.

so yeah! anyway im just gonna copy and paste the whole damn post here bc i think it's an interesting read and good presentation of my inner thoughts wrt to what i'm hoping to write (hopefully) someday soon. and really... this fic idea is still barely in its infancy like there's still SO MUCH left to brainstorm and plan out like fuck!!! it's still too early to even start an outline doc (and that's like one of my fave parts of the fic writing process)

oh and some background context: a few months ago there was an event on twitter/ao3 (not sure if here on tumblr? i unfortunately don't follow many or any bsd/sskk blogs at ALL yet) for bottom akutagawa week which was HEAVEN for me 🥰🥰🥰 literally could not have been a better event to appeal to my interests in this fandom i s2g. and i got my hopes up that maybe i could write a lil fic in time to share during the week but that unfortunately didn't happen. anyway here's the post:

so i might not be able to write the bsd smut fic i was initially hoping to publish during the bottom aku fan week this week... but that doesn't mean i have to give up on this fic project completely! if anything now i don't have to worry about meeting an irrefutable deadline and i can technically do anything i want. so yeah i still wanna write this fic.

but first. i have to figure out What The Fuck i'm gonna write lmao cause i still don't fucking know. i was Intending to do a < 4k word one-shot fluffy getting together that somehow... transitions into a sex scene. and i still wanna do that... but i just. don't rlly have any specific detail or image or moment or dialogue line in mind to start building a story from. AND LIKE yeaH i know that sounds dumb cause it's like. if i don't have ANYTHING fantasized yet then WHY AM I EVEN BOTHERING to start this fic at all!?

.......im not really sure tbh lmao

nah it's cause i love these dudes and i wanna write something for them and interact w the sskk fan community.

i literally just. need to figure out the BARE BONES premise to this dang fic. like where tf is it gonna take place? is it mid/post-mission? is it at one of their flats? also WHERE are they gonna HAVE SEX???? im actually a big fan of sex scenes happening in non-conventional places (e.g. some dusty ass room in an abandoned building they were investigating or in a public restroom oR FUckinG in an airplane holy shit i haven't seen that one done yet lmao MILE HIGH CLUB ONE-SHOT LETS GOO) but yea idk maybe i should just. keep it simple and do what every other fic does and let them get down at ryuu's place in his luxuriously huge bed (that hasn't canonically been shown, let alone wherever he lives)

i should AT LEAST settle on how fast this fic is gonna be paced. tbh i kinda Always prefer sskk's first time being a bit... feverish and rushed. it just suits them best. maybe there’s a little angst or miscommunication of feelings/intentions thrown in before they Eventually get their shit/feelings together. but anyway i don’t wanna write that lmao that’s too complicated (but like. yeah. these are two Very complicated (i.e. traumatized) guys with a VERY complicated relationship so. yeah it’s actually kinda rare/weird to imagine things working out Too smoothly for them tbh).

while objectively that complicated/messy/aggressive type shit is their Brand, i would still like to keep things soft and gentle and Nice. that stuff is Not Impossible w these two ofc. it’s... tricky, but def possible. and i wanna achieve That. a getting together that is soft, hesitant, shy, and puts a heavy emphasis on Both of these men’s inexperience wrt romance and sex (that. is. my. Shit. they are both virgins and absolutely clueless and i Refuse to accept anything other than that. ......okay no... that’s not rlly true... basically all of my fave fics have a somewhat experienced atsushi and that’s okay bc like. how else is he gonna be able to Take Care of ryuu if he doesn’t already have an idea of how to take care of someone during sex? anyway ryuu is the most virginal virgin of all virgins to exist THAT IS INDISPUTABLE!!!!!)

so. i guess what i’m wondering is... how fast can i manage to pace the flow of the story while still keeping it soft overall. cause i don’t feel like writing a super super hot n filthy sex scene that’s charged and exhilarating and just a fucking blur of fucking. i wanna write feely, emotional sex. an aching intimate exchange of trust between them, still laced w hesitance and anxiety and sheer disbelief that this is really happening and that they can have this. both of them express unwavering consideration for each other’s comfort, constantly asking for consent and reassuring the other that “yes, i want this. yes, that feels good. yes yes yes.” they’re both taking careful, yet still enthusiastic, steps together. TENDERNESS is my ultimate goal here.

so yeah anyway i’ll try to keep thinking about this and hopefully i can actually come up w some ideas that i wanna implement into whatever this fic eventually becomes. just haven’t had enough time.... or horniess.... to get down to some real brainstorming yet lmao

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nothingeverlost · 3 years

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It's Tuesday somewhere so... TMI Tuesday, how do you tell if you're asexual vs repressed. I've never had sex (or managed to give myself an orgasm). I think I'd like it. But I've also never looked at someone and been like "I want to bone you. " My future spouse, sure, conceptually. Or maybe I'm demi? I've got basically no dating experience, never fallen in love. How do I tell? I don't want to date and get married and then learn I don't want sex. I'm 30, not a teen. Thank you for any insight.

Hey darling, I just got home from work, I’m sorry this is late.

There are a lot of things happening here and I hope I adress as much as I can but please ask me as many follow up questions as you want and you never have to wait for a tuesday.

A heads up for anyone reading, this is going to be about sex, and there will be personal commments as well.

I don’t think ‘repressed or asexual’ are the only options, in part because the answer could be both or neither. It’s really hard to unpack what we learn from society and our families, religion (for some) etc. And there’s a lot of layers here

I’m going to start with the physical. Though orgasms do have mental and emotions components, a lot is physical. Is this something you try often or sometimes? Have you tried with toys? Reading material? There can be issues here that require talking to a doctor. People who are asexual can have orgams. Not all do. Not all are interested. Some are only interested in solo, some are okay with a partner. Personally I thought for a long time that I just had a really low sex drive. I was in my mid twenties before it occured to me to even thing about masterbation. Sex isn’t unplesant and I’ve worked on finding out what I do and don’t like, but in most situations I’m not the one that innitaites and there’s usually ten other things I’d rather do with my time.

I’m not sure if you’re worried about repression from something specific. It’s hard to know how to address that because there cna be issues especially related to trauma.

Asexuality is a spectrum. Some are sex repulsed. You don’t sound like the idea of sex bothers you. Some are interested in sex because it’s a pleasant sensation, but aren’t attracted to anyone. Some are attracted rarely. Is there anyone you’ve had a crush on? Love is very complicated. so sometimes it’s easier to consider crushes. When I look back at what I called crushes when I was younger, they were either very short lived, or more like squishes.

I think a good place to start is to look how you feel, and look very specifically at what you want. Do you want a date? A relationship? What are the things you find most important? The idea that a spouse is a best friend and best coparent and best sexual match, etc isn’t the only way to have a marraige.

I think honesty is important. If you do decide you’re asexual it doesn’t mean you can’t be in a relationship. You want to share how you feel with a partner including level of interest in sex. But it’s okay to admit you’re trying to figure things out.

It’s easier if you look at smaller bits. Maybe to start focus on yourself and decide if you want to spend time learning if you can orgasm.

And if you are ace that doesn’t mean you can’t have relationships.

#this rambled a bit and I'm not sure there's a good answer here but I hope it helps.#Anonymous

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sunset-wishes-upon-hill · 7 years

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I don't know how this question came into my mind but me an my friend discussed how we first got our periods. Sorry if it's TMI but I got mine during P.E class (luckily my school had black P.E uniforms), my house was 5 minutes away from school so I didn't bother changing and went straight home. I almost had a heart attack I when I put two and two together, I immediately went to take a shower crying my eyes out. My friend got hers during Sexual Health class (quite ironic) What was Jessica's story?

This is a random question but I think this is really important for all young women out there! It’s not TMI - my friends and I have hilarious story about getting our first periods, and it gets me thinking how unprepared and uneducated we females are when we do get our first period because society deems such bodily function as ‘taboo’ so we turn blind eyes to it until little girls start panicking that they’re bleeding from down there.

Wanna hear how I got my first period? It’s a bit of a crazy story but I was 16 I think (I started quite late as others says), it was right after I had a cervical cancer jab at school and everyone trying to land a punch in people’s arm because it really really hurt for the first few days after you got them and there was a rumour going around how the the jabs were still being ‘tested’ and that we were the first human trial/guinea pig.

So at lunch, I went to the toilet before I was going to join my friends and what do I see? Epitome of mini massacre painted on my underwear and even though I knew what period was, it hadn’t occurred to me then “Oh I’ve started my period!” Nope! For some reason, my head decided to make this crazy link with the jab rumour to the CSI scene I was facing and I remember silently crying in the stall thinking I was going to die and that I was gonna sue the NHS from the grave if I have to(NHS = National Health Service- free medical services in UK. Has a quite infamous reputation for their lacking services and quality). I didn’t come out of that stall for ages and my friends all got worried and the teacher had to be called in and I was like “I’m dying! I’m gonna die from that jab etc” I didn’t open the door because I was like “I’m infected! Don’t come near me!”

Apparently it’s taken me about 2 hours for the teachers and others to realise the reason why I was babbling on that I was gonna die when I mentioned that I was bleeding down there (Thank goodness it was a girls’ school because I’ll never be able to walk around with my chin up if my school was co ed and the boys heard the story) and they called my mum and she took me home, laughing and crying while driving and explained it to me how to put the pads on etc and when I came back to school next day, everyone was laughing at my naivety and innocence. Mind you, I was reading 18+ fanfic/manga at that age, still can’t believe I didn’t realise it was my period LOL!

I reckon Jessica had gotten them at average age the girl’s starts when she was still at school and had to go home that day. Nothing crazy, not unlike yours’ or mine haha!

#ask #my first period story #my first period

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