#sorry thid took i turn i just couldnt stop saying words but yeah you usually get it when im making no sense so its probably fine

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

ok venom siblings

maybe if they split and then poison and jet started running together & became pretty big names together and kobra recognises them and it's. all my love cause i know where you come from. i knew you before all of that. you're like me. we crawled out of the same hell together and i still love you. i still love you even if i only see you in wanted posters and i only hear you in rumors. i still love you cause you're a part of me and i can't decide if i hate that or not. it's hard for me to stop looking for your name in the list of the dead they leave outside the walls. its still hard to fall asleep and not reach out for you when you used to lie next to me to keep me warm when we were little. it's hard to be myself and not your little brother. i always wanted to be out of your shadow and i fought for that so hard I didn't think about what i'd do when i couldn't see your shadow anymore. what am i gonna do when your name pops up on that list. what am i supposed to say if i see you in passing. am i supposed to pretend? pretend i don't recognise you? do i just walk past and hope you'll notice, hope you'll see that i'm better now, better without you, better off on my own, i've got friends, i've got plans, i'm living, i'm doing it, see, doing it all by myself i told you i could do it by myself do you see it now do you see how much better i am i'm better i'm better i'm better i'm better.

but it's still hard not to reach out when i can't sleep.

(this got a little too poetic a little too fast-)

ITS HARD TO BE MYSELF AND NOT YOUR LITTLE BROTHER. IAM GOING TO FUCKING THROW UP OVER THIS KAZ OH MY GODDDDD THEY !!!!!!!!

im fucking exploding over this song every goddamn part is just so them i cant even- i- "lately I could see you in the bright lights/Hey maybe I could catch you on the right night/All my love/'Cause I know where you come from" LIKE LITERALLY EXACTLY WHAT YOU WERE SAYING THEY KNOW EACH OTHER BETTER THAN ANYONE THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES WHO UNDERSTAND THE FULL EXTENT OF WHAT THE OTHERS BEEN THROUGH AND YET THIS STILL MISUNDERSTAND EACH OTHER BC LETTING THE OTHER BE RIGHT MEANS THAT THEY THEMSELF ARE WRONG AND I JUST. I COULD SEE YOU IN THE BRIGHT LIGHTS. I LOOK AT THE CITY WE ESCAPED FROM GLOWING IN THE DISTANCE LIKE A FLAME TRYING TO DRAW US MOTHS BACK IN. AND I HATE LOOKING AT THE HORIZON BECAUSE THE LIGHTS MAKE ME THINK OF YOU, OF ALL IT TOOK FOR US TO MAKE IT OUT HERE AND HOW EASY IT WAS TO PRETEND WE WERE BOTH ONAY WITH LETTING GO

"I'd like to see your face and say/'I told you/You'd make it on your own/And they would love you." because party's always known deep down that kobra could make it on his own. theyve always known that they dont need him, and thats why they held on so tight to the point of suffocating him because their biggest fucking fear is that he Doesn't Need Them. their one purpose in life is to protect their little brother and if their brother doesnt want their protection or, worse, doesnt need it then why are they even here?? they lie awake at night aching, praying that the universe will just let them run into each other just once, will just let them see what their little brothers grown up to be, will let them make sure hes doing okay. but at the same time they hope they never fucking see him again because they know, they can feel it in their gut, that kobra is fucking thriving without them that he was so incredibly right that they were the one thing holding him back from greatness. they know kobras better than them, theyve always known dammit thats why they fought so hard for him, but knowing and seeing are two different things. and they think if they have to see him finally being as happy as they always promised hed be without them, that might just be the thing to kill them for good. they cant let go. even miles apart with years of silence between them they cant fucking let go

#asks #sorry thid took i turn i just couldnt stop saying words but yeah you usually get it when im making no sense so its probably fine #but uh. we need to fucking write out venom siblings fic soon before the thoughts consume me