#sorry i cant do read mores on mobile ajahsuaba

[aliisalive]

I'm moving countries, again.

I'm going back to Poland on the 29th of September and I've known for months but it just feels real now. Now, when my mom stopped going to work and there's boxes everywhere and stuff is getting given away and thrown out. We're selling our cars, recycling our TV (bc it's too broken and old to sell or give away, trust me). My Xbox is packed up, most of my sketchbooks, except one, are packed up, most of my pencils and chalks and paints are packed up.

It feels strange. All these things I've owned for so many years are no longer within arm's reach but at the bottom of a box. If I were to need them, I would have to take everything out. The house is so empty too, and it will get emptier.

It feels strange. This routine I've had for the past 11 years will change. I will have to go to different grocery stores, buy clothes from different shops and even eat different foods. If I wanna buy books, I will have to do it online as I can't read very well in polish. In my everyday life, I will have to speak a different language, one that I know, but am not as accustomed to.

Last time I moved countries I was 7. I didn't leave that much behind. Now I am.

#long post #sorry i cant do read mores on mobile ajahsuaba #ill put one in once im on my laptop