#sorry I talk so much omfg I’ve been working all day w coworkers I can’t chat with

[crushedsweets]

As someone who had been part of the creepypasta fandom since 2012, I agree with anon. I see SO much BS now that I never had to deal with until now. People apparently can't have head cannons anymore; you can't like so and so or the classic hate against AU's. As someone older, I do not care. This is supposed to be fun for everyone. I'm not letting some 12–15-year-old tell me how to enjoy myself. Also Gatekeeping is just cringe.

Really ?!? When I was 9-11 on qoutev reading fics/roleplaying, I remember people were really mean about anything that wasn’t “canon” (whatever that means at this point) and being really mean to “Mary sues” and self inserts .. Nowadays I feel like everyone I meet is like “yeah my AU is like this, but I like how your AU does this!” LOL

I think the biggest gatekeeping issue I see nowadays is “they’re killers!!! They’re cold hearted and this is supposed to be the SCARY FANDOM!!! If you make them anything other than horrifying monstrous creatures, you’re stupid and lame and boring and a child!” And the realism vs fanon vs canon etc debate.. but I literally couldn’t care less like this fandom was built on anime boy jeff the killer x readers you cannot convince me otherwise

I wish there was a better way to distinguish creepypasta (the scary stories) from the creepypasta fandom (the characters and relationships and comics and animations and cosplay etc etc)

Anyway that’s just my experience but I hope that u guys are able to find good healthy circles of people who embrace new interpretations and creative story telling and interesting designs and all! That’s the best part of this fandom and what makes it so much fun

Edit; not to say that what u described DOESNT happen though HAHA I’ve had people make some remarks about my stuff and whatever so I know it’s true !

EDIT 2; THIS WAS ABOUT STUFF I SAW ON TIKTOK IN LIKE SUMMER 2023 DONT SEND ME ASKS GOSSIPING SBOUT SPECIFIC PEOPLE THANK UUUUU

#chatterbox #asks #sorry I talk so much omfg I’ve been working all day w coworkers I can’t chat with #so my brain is turning like crazy

[lizzydobbs]

laurenplayspeople

WOAH WAIT HOLD UP WHATS GOING ON HERE

short answer: no one knows!!!!! ~*~shrugging emoji~*~

wow okay but let’s start at the beginning i guess ... so yeah this is probably way more than you needed to know, but here goes ... 

Before I dive into The Jeff Situation™, you should know that I have pretty much zero experience in the dating world. I’ve had a few casual crushes before but none of them have ever looked at me twice and honestly it never crushed me when they turned out to like other girls/went out of my life. 

So Jeff and I met a little over a year ago at work. We’d been casual work friends for several months when this all started. Honestly, I’d never even considered him romantically before. Once my sister asked me about the guys at work and it made me think about Jeff x me as a couple and it actually made me laugh b/c I was sure that it would be that awkward. 

Anyway. 

Fast forward. 

DECEMBER: 

1 day @ he’s talking w/ another coworker about La La Land and how much he loves it

the co-worker said he’s never even heard of it and asks me if I have

I said I had and that I really wanted to see it!!! I had plans to see it a few weeks before but didn’t end up going b/c of bad weather

the next day I get a text from jeff asking if I was working 

I said I wasn’t (I was 100% positive atp that he was gonna ask me to come in and work) 

but instead he asks me if I wanna see la la land w/ him

and ofc I jump at the chance

he tells me he wants to go to dinner beforehand and suggests going to this theater that’s down the road a little b/c he says he’s sure that they “have bigger screens” 

and then he says we should probably meet and ride down together

and like i’ve never been on a date b/f in my life, but this is sounding a lot like a date, right??? 

anyway he picks me up at a starbucks and then he lITERALLY GOT OUT OF HIS RUNNING CAR TO OPEN THE PASSENGER DOOR FOR ME (i died a little) 

and we have such a great time

we get down there super early and walk around barnes and noble and then go and get sandwiches for dinner and we talk and we laugh and we joke and i’m just so super comfortable hanging out with him 

and then we see freaking la la land aka the most romantic movie ever

and we have a great convo on the way back just talking about the movie and honestly its like the greatest night of my life

JANUARY: 

so we went out on friday the 30th of december and he’d used a couple vacation days at the end of the year so i don’t even see him again until a few days later 

and he asks me to go out to dinner with him and some friends during break (which we’d never done before) 

and he confesses to me how much fun he had and how he was thinking about asking me to go to the movies with him again the next night but it was news years eve and he assumed i had plans 

anyway we all hang out at dinner and it’s great 

but the next time we see each other .... he’s definitely more reserved??? like not anymore than he normally is (we are both reserved ppl tbh) just way more than he had been those last two days and my logical self is telling me that it isn’t b/c of me, but my emotional side is like WHAT HAVE U DONE!!!!!! 

and yeah things are a little more distant between us after that. 

I kept thinking that we needed to just hang out 1 x 1 again and so when I had a random weekday off (his off days are wednesdays/thursdays) I asked him to go to the movies with me (which is a HUGE deal for me to have done btw) 

this doesn’t go nearly as well as the first time

we go see manchester by the sea which is supER depressing and it made him cry a little (but I didn’t shed a tear b/c apparently i’m dead inside) 

and we had this really awkward convo outside of the theater and I couldn’t tell if he wanted to ask me out to dinner or not and in the end he didn’t and I wished I would have said something but anyWAY

FEBRUARY: 

he tells everyone that he’s gotten a new job at another station and will be leaving in march

we haven’t hung out outside of work since the awkward date (although we tried to make plans to go again but they fell through b/c of what i later found out to be him making plans to get a new job/move away) 

still we’ve had a lot of great convos together during dinner breaks 

and i’m freaking out b/c i’m convinced that i’m probably never gonna see him again

his new job has taken him about an hour/an hour and a half away (so not that far) but i’m still afraid that our friendship isn’t strong enough yet to survive a long term dealio 

so i decide, oh what the hell, i’m gonna tell him that i like him

MARCH: 

so i’ve got it all planned out. 

it is one of his last days at work and i’m only working half a shift ... which means we could go out for dinner and he’d go back to work after and i’d go home (so if things go badly i didn’t have to go back to work with him) 

he loves this pizza place that is right across the street 

so I decide i’m gonna ask him to go there w/ me and on the way back, I’ll just say it

i’m not really expecting anything tbh ... like I know we are friends but I’m only about 10% sure he likes me anything more than that, but i know I will always wonder about that 10%, you know???? and it’s so terrifying but I decide i’m gonna do it anyway

so i never really get a great time to ask him at work b/c I don’t want other ppl around where i feel like I need to invite them

so i don’t ask

and i’m on my way to my car and freaking out that i may have missed my chance so i call kate and she’s like “omfg just go back in and ask him or text him or something” 

so i text him

and he says no

and i’m like “cool”

and it hurts a little but the rational side of my brain does list all the reasons why he may have said no (1) he’s pretty frugal and he’s about to move and so he’s definitely trying to save, 2) he had missed the work the day b/f bc of a stomach virus so he might not wanna eat a greasy pizza and 3) he hasn’t even gone out with his super close friends b/c of reason #1) 

so i’m still thinking that maybe i can say what i need to on his last day

it’ll be kinda tricky b/c so many ppl will be wanting to talk to him and i’m like the least aggressive person in the universe but i can try

ofc we are gonna get this huge freakin’ snowstorm on his last day and my dad tells me there’s no way i’m driving over the mountains to get to work on that day 

so i ask a friend in town if i can stay at her house (also a huge deal for me!!!) so I can be there to work the next day (but you know mostly to say goodbye to jeff) 

... and then he calls out of work b/c of the weather

so i don’t see him

but then that weekend he shows up at work (WITHOUT ANY NOTICE!!!!) to pick up the stuff he wasn’t able to get on his actual last day

anyway during break, he and two other friends + me hang out and watch some tv

he says he’s about ready to go but then the three of them start talking about some drama with the news anchors that i don’t really care about so i ran to the bathroom 

and ofc they are both occupied and the guys using them are taking fOREVER 

and by the time i use the bathroom and get back anthony is there 

(this whole moment feels like a scene out of a romcom tbh) 

and he’s like “omg you literally just missed jeff!!!!” 

me: omg no!!!!! that’s not okay!!!!

and then he’s like “hurry if you run outside, you might catch him still!!!!” 

and so i’m about to leave but realize i don’t have my keys and that i left them in the break room and that w/o them i can’t get back inside but anthony tells me not to worry that jack has them and to just go and they will let me in

so i dash outside and i reach his car and he’s about to pull out when i bang on his window .... 

... AND SCARE HIM TO DEATH 

the station is in a really bad part of town and he’s had a homeless guy try to climb inside his car with him once and i think I must have given him a heart attack 

anyway he realizes its me and he turns his car off and gets out and we get to hug and say goodbye and if our friends hadn’t come out to meet us so they could let me in, that would have been a great time to tell him 

but anyway 

so he left

and on his first day of work i decided to text him and when he texted back he said how sorry he was that we never got to go see that other movie and how he wished he’d gone to dinner w/ him before and how he hoped we never stopped being friends, etc. 

and so we started texting a lot and like we both watched bates motel so we’d talk about the new episodes etc. 

APRIL: 

he comes into town and invites me and anthony to lunch

its really good to see him and we have a nice time

i had to leave work to go get lunch tho and ofc we talk for way too long and my boss calls me like “um where are you!?!!” and i have to dash off

he sends me a nice text later about how nice it was to see me and how he hoped i didn’t get into any trouble 

MAY: 

he comes into town again and we go out to dinner with a bunch of work people

we don’t really get much chance to talk 1x1

JUNE: 

haven’t texted each other in like a month

we will occasionally like things that each other posted on insta/facebook but that’s about it 

so that’s the The Jeff Situation™! And I know I should text him and start a new conversation. I know that. It’s just that I’m super scared. And I have this weird mental block where I’m like “well if you don’t text him, you can always hope that 1 day things will work out for you guys” vs. “if you do text him, you know that you will eventually mess it up!!!” so that makes things super stressful for me ... plus, our last text messages that we sent was like 

me: rants for three or four paragraphs about bates motel 

him: oh yeah that was crazy 

and that’s not super normal for us b/c we used to send paragraphs back and forth. and i know i’m overthinking things but to me that also translates into = i don’t really wanna talk to you anymore (which i know is stupid) 

Plus another part of me is like “wow u’ve put yourself so out there and if he’s interested, he’ll make the next move” but then part of me is like ... “you putting yourself out there is literally send him a text message so he probably doesn’t realize??????” 

So yeah. Everything’s a mess!!! I’m an awkward piece of bread who has no idea what she’s doing and instead of being active about it, I’ve decided to just sit and think about him and how much I miss him! Yay! So that’s where I am in my love life!!!!! It’s super fun and great!!! 10/10 would recommend 

#me #should jeff have a tag #<--- his new tag