#someone is going to catch hands

[madamescarlette]

don't you love when you're like, okay now I'm going to leave this sorrow in the old year so I don't turn into a crotchety bitter person over it, and then you walk on feeling all refreshed and bright no longer carrying it on your shoulders, but then the sorrow wanders after you like a child who was lost in the supermarket weeping its eyes out and it says to you where did you GO I was lost! I was lost and I missed you!!! and you can only sigh and take it by its hand and say to it very well. here's your seat. I'm sorry I left you behind, I promise it was with the best of intentions, but I want to do my best by you, so let's sit together and try to figure out what you're saying to me.

#thinking out loud #i'm truly like. ok i'm mostly fine i'm a little bit going through it because it's harshest month of winter and it's always weird this month #but i just think it's so funny that i have to be like OH you don't suddenly stop....hurting over something because you decided to! #if you were missing someone who was important to you two months ago by golly you probably still will two months from then!! #weird how that be! anyway #it's funny to me because it's like the opposite of object impermanence #i used to think i was all heart no head and that there's a part of me that went hard in the opposite direction to counteract that #but i am still as much as heart as i ever was except now i have my logical side going yip yip girl we gotta go!!! let's go!!! #and the heart is like holding up a shakey hand going oh lads you go on without me...i just need to catch my breath for like....15 years #anyway anyway. the narrative is indeed kind but that doesn't mean that it doesn't sting sometimes #but! we can do the best that we can and take our troubles by their hands and learn what we can from them and it will all be okay in the end #(i hope this post isn't too complainy or miserable. i may take it down later but i feel the need to say it somewhere.) #regardless of that. happy Friday my friends I love you all dearly bless you for being near me <3 <3

[beetlevsboy]

I want to preface this post by saying that I love the cat king as a character, especially one that has such a major impact on Edwin and his relationship with his queerness and learning to be okay with it; HOWEVER, I also believe that everyone that genuinely believes he should be a love interest for Edwin should read this. (Also if you just like the cat king as a character and want to understand his character better and why his and Edwin’s relationship is not something that would be healthy or “real” for either)

#dead boy detectives #edwin payne #the cat king #i do not ship them but I don’t want to hate on those who do (mostly) I just want to kind of inform people of the creators meaning for their #Relationship because I keep seeing people saying they hope they get together in s2 and it’s really confusing to me #Their relationship stems from the cat kings own narcissism and predatory behavior and Edwin’s need for someone to push him into under #Standing that his queerness doesn’t have to be torture and can be something giddy #even if he doesn’t return those feelings #The cat king does like Edwin but he doesn’t know anything about him. He likes the game and then he likes the kindness he’s shown despite #Knowing the cruelty he’s presented to Edwin #Queerness and preformance always go hand in hand #He’s a older secretly insecure character #Edwin is the younger #genuinely kind character that shows him that projecting his hurt will never get him what he wants #It’s about the isolation of queerness and the walls put up and the coping mechanism used to protect yourself even at the risk of hurting #Those just like you. That kiss from edwin was to say “I’m sorry your loneliness had caused you to be cruel. It’s the easiest way to feel. #And while I cannot and will not give you what you want or need #you deserve to feel happy and not like you have to gain the attention of uninterested people #I can’t even explain all my thoughts about their dynamic it’s just so much it’s just about the predadation from older queers because of #The trauma they’ve endured and the cycle of hurt and the way we can break the cycle with kindness while also protecting our youths by #Healing those traumas #Something the cat king learns and accepts #Off topic but I don’t like people defending their age gap because #Yes; Edwin is 86 #but he died with a teenage boy brain and then spent 70 of those years in hell where he certainly was not getting his brain developed while #The cat king has possibly hundreds of years of sentience and experience. The power imbalance is not if y’all. And that part of their dynami #Is actually very clear I think but some people didn’t catch it?? Or didn’t care??? Idk man

[oca-rinn-a]

in this world where so many members of our species, with supposed moral agency, are killing small things for nothing but the crime of existing, and so many are blind to the value of any species which does not benefit them in a way they can personally measure... do you ever feel so so panicked and suffocated?

#i had to walk onto the tracks at the NYC Times Square station to retrieve an injured pigeon who was trapped down there #no idle police officers or MTA personnel cared at all when I explained that an injured animal was trapped on the tracks #the MTA staff told me to ask the cops to help #the cops told me to ask MTA staff for help #the cops said “if it were a person that would be different” #i looked like a crazy person bc i was having a panic attack and trying to ask people for help at the same time #my partner called animal control and they said there was nothing they could do #the Wild Bird Fund does not have the resources to retrieve animals but said that if i could catch the pigeon i was welcome to bring them in #and you know what #i did #if someone is in a life-and-death situation and you are in a position to help them then YOU SHOULD #what kind of fucking person would i be if i saw this pigeon #whom i am perfectly physically able to rescue from their situation #and i said wow that's too bad that they're going to die down there #if only it weren't illegal/dangerous to go onto the tracks #a cell phone is valued 1000% more than a non-human's life #it's fucked up guys (: #anyway i learned first hand that literally no one in NYC will stop you from doing anything at all #as long as you aren't brandishing a weapon or some other murderous action literally no one cares what you're doing and will not stop you #so be punk and take action #fuck speciesism #animal rights #animal welfare #humans are animals #also sorry but people stomping on bugs who are literally OUTSIDE and doing seriously nothing but existing #why would you do that #please get help #talk to a therapist

[unusualshrimp]

if i have a panic attack on company time they should pay me double for the day

#someone please hold my hand. i postponed too much work which made me panic which made me postpone MORE work #but im going to catch up today. i can do it. i hate this job #but it's alright i can do it. im a real tough kid i can handle my shit etc etc

[lanternlightss]

looking back at posts and its so fun seeing exactly which two characters in genshin i was hyperfixated on and that even after like three years it has not changed Once 😭

venti and nameless bard have me wrapped around their fingers istg

#SINCE 2021 !!!!!!!!!! #i think about how much they love each other how much venti seems to idolize the bard to the point that he might seem to be on the same #divinity level as ven is #i think about that ven has carefully guided the citizens of mond to the same values that bard and the rest of old mond wanted it to be #i think about ven never changing his form to keep his friends memory alive even after /two millennia/ of seeing the face you can never get #back in the mirror every day #i think about ven holding his own hands together and pretending for a moment that its someone else holding his #i think !!!!!! about what would happen if the bard had ever perished. if ven would be severely protective and i dare you. try to lay a hand #on a single hair. he has gone through so much and i refuse to let anything take away what he deserves to see #i think about the bard catching the wind as easily as breathing simply bc its not truly “caught” #the wind is simply ever so fond of them that they will not go anywhere else for too long #i think about. the bard cradling a wisp so gently every night that even now warmth seeps in through ventis hand if he pretends enough #i think about a ghost bard who never leaves vens side. who had promised always whenever they departed thatd he leave something for venti to #know hes still there #i think about a bard who breaks down ventis walls with a single tap #bc they know each other as well as they do themselves #i think abt a bard who gently relearns a ven he hasn’t met #i think abt a bard who is angry and spiteful and spitting at the world softening around the wisp who shows nothing but kindness #i think about a bard recognizing ven by a small breeze alone #and i #i simply go bonkers over them you see #lantern says stuff

[jacqcrisis]

Why is everyone in this godforsaken camp sniffing my lizard?

#ronans trying to have a nice day intimidating people and holding astarions hand #and the wizard and the druid keep trying to catch a whiff i GUESS #anyone else? shadowheart? im assuming lae'zel because shes a certified freak #wylls too busy having daddy issues #anyways i turned down halsin for character reasons #also considering ronans been pretty encouraging about the not having sex thing with his vampire #it would make sense for him to feel weird or kind of not great about the idea of sleeping with someone else #he doesnt want to make his guy feel bad or put him on the spot about letting ronan go find sex somewhere else #that seems like a mean conversation to have to him so he told halsin nah #just not even gunna bother #he went without for like 11 years or whatever he can go for 11 more if he has to #if they live that long #i am curious about what that convo with astarion is like re: asking if you can go boink the bear #i shouldve did a save and reload oh well #bg3

[valentine--heart]

#Transformers #G1 #Enter the Nightbird #Maccadam #Nightbird #I didn't remember she was so OP #She was even mocked by the Autobots at first #And then she bullied them all #JuSt BeCaUsE tHeY wErEn'T tRyInG tO hArM hEr #Yes at first #Then they started shooting and she still bullied them #Look at her in the last pic XD #“You're gonna catch these hands” #(ง •̀_•́)ง #No wonder Megatron likes her XD #Where else is he going to find another that can take on five Autobots -Prime included- with bare hands? #I also saw her in a manga without the mask #She's ridicolously cute #She would have been perfect for TF Prime or Age of Extinction #I would have loved seeing her go full Sekiro on someone #Also #@whoever is in charge of the screenwriting: #Let Megatron have his waifu #If he can't win the war let him at least have this

[recitedemise]

𝗚𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝘂𝗰𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗸 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝗵𝗶𝗺𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝗲𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝗹𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗻𝗲𝗲𝗱𝗲𝗱. This, beyond being a testament to his softer heart, his rather sizable well of care, is a consequence of his time shared with Mystra. Being a worshipper, a follower and lover both to the mother of magic, Gale is far more familiar with giving than receiving. A tremendous deal more. Beyond those illusions of love, Mystra granted him nothing, and whenever she was troubled, even sour or short, it was Gale, doting Gale, who would smooth it out. In truth, short of the stars, he had offered her everything. His whole life to boot. Still, living for some years prioritizing Mystra, Gale's grown notably reluctant to ask for help. It's why, when strapped with the netherese orb, newly blighted and rotting to death, he'd sooner clamored in his tower than look to friends. He's loathed to show his folly, of course, and is far from a fan of stirring worry, but with Mystra, any ask he'd made was resolutely shunned, and from his lover, his deity, that left its mark. Gale--a giver, a man that wants to hope but doesn't dare to--is not a man to ask for anything. If ever he does, the ask is comically small, and even then, he expects to be denied almost immediately. Consequently, an eager kindness leaves him floored. Gale can read displeasure. (See: Mystra.) Gale's trained to soothe it, too. Yet, when confronted with the novelty of that same generosity, your resident Gale of Waterdeep is like a fish out of water.

#HEADCANON. #This hit home because I know too intimately what Gale went through. #God. It sucks. Gale is so attuned to Mystra and her periods of distance and #her cold demeanor. #He just learned to go right into tell me what I can do to make it better mode. #I think Gale isn't really the best at reading or catching social cues #but he's very aware when someone is upset. #He had to learn because god forbid he failed to recognize something and receive less warmth from Mystra #(she isn't exactly warm to begin with.) #she was just largely neglectful of Gale and Gale was convinced it was love #he showed so much of it and so much warmth and...kinda felt being chosen by her #was enough of an expression of love on Mystra's part (it isn't!). #Gale also only asking for help from YOU because he knows you deserve to know #because hiding it would be a danger to others around him. #Like Gale truly asked for no ones hand before the nautiloid incident. he had to be quite literally #torn from his life and freefall into another disaster before even asking for help #a small ask too. This man is like hey can I have your UTTERLY useless necklace so I don't die? i'm so sorry i'm such an inconvenience #fuck. Gale. Gale...baby.... #Literally you go 'children shouldn't die' (arabella) and he's all you're such a decent person...i trust you #???? honestly. need i say more. #anyway idk if ill write much today beyond this. im DROWNING in work and i have to prep for an event tomorrow #so you can just frown with me about gale #Me writing about Mystra: wow theyre a lot like my abuser. 🥲🥲🥲🥲hauew..a..

[capricornsicle]

"I'm going to tell you a story. Maybe it will sound familiar." Visionary x Insatiable x Status Asthmaticus x The Wolves of War

#this is really a show about coming of age in a vicious and unfamiliar world more than a show about werewolves #think about it. scott is sixteen and to him losing his first love is as incomprehensible and unfathomable as the supernatural. #and we're constantly reminded of how being sixteen and in love goes -- 'you're not in love you're sixteen and a child' etc. #these three characters make for such a good parallel to one another in how they werewolf + seeking guidance #especially + sudden change of worldview/stakes when confronted with sudden and unexpected loss and grieving #of course derek loses paige and becomes cold and jaded (see: literally becomes cold w/ blue eyes) #scott loses allison and commits harder to saving all of his friends even though one of them (or someone possessing him) killed her #liam is stopped from killing because of hayden's death #here are three werewolves who were sixteen and held their first love's dead body in their arms #and each of them took a different path. do you close yourself off? refuse to? do you change completely because of it? #and ofc it's teen wolf so everything always comes in threes #I have a lot of issues with the writing but the use of death (barring 6b) is not one of them. they really went hard on meaningful death. #also consider: lori holding brett's hand so he doesn't die alone and theo responding to tracy kissing him by killing her as she does #teen wolf writers went is anyone going to bastardize the original narrative to ponder new ideas about it and didn't wait for an answer #also women's deaths are always about love/for a man (thanks hollywood) but goddamn if they don't kill their women wisely #and the thing is they are all running. they're running from death and what does it get them? it gets them here. #derek wants to turn paige so she'll live forever. scott wants allison to live happily even with someone else. liam wants to save hayden. #none of them consider that cheating death will catch up to them until they run right into its arms #and all three die because of getting involved with the supernatural. all of them would presumably not have died otherwise. #coming of age into a world that takes and hurts and destroys and where you are now old enough for people around you to die. #this is not a show about werewolves. #teen wolf #twedit #teenwolfedit #my edit #derek hale #paige krasikeva #scott mccall #allison argent #liam dunbar

[fictional-worlds-are-exquisite]

there’s so many things I want to watch but I’m not watching them because

I’m excited for some new shows and such coming out that I really want to watch, that I also will probably not watch because

sometimes in a day I find myself with time to spare, and I’m like now would be a really good time to watch an episode of a show! and then I don’t. because

BECAUSE

#I want to finish watching black spot #and I want to finally catch that doctor who special that I said I was going to watch on the day it came out #it’s been like a month #and there’s probably already been another special idk #I want to watch Percy Jackson #I want to continue watching avatar because I did like that and i want to see more #I think hazbin hotel has a show coming out in January and I’m thrilled #and I think 9-1-1 is coming back with a stupid huge disaster ep my fav #eycetc #I’m NOT WATCHING ANYTHING TGOUGH #I want someone in my life to sit me in front of a tv and say watch this #and hit play on a show #to force my hand #BECAUSE I WILL GENUINELY ENHOY IT #I just. can’t seem to do it myself. because #the only reason I’m even up to date on good omens or ofmd is BC I was in front of a tv and someone else hit play #AND I LIKED IT #ugh

[miliamin1]

as much as I also laughed about the "mixed signals? what mixed signals Tyler???" memes the moment I think past the most instant reaction to the scene and remember about the full context I get horrified as someone clinically considered to have low empathy

the instinct to ridicule him for stupidity is a wrong one as we know that he's the killer that has been a proficient liar the whole time

even as he is one of five people in Jericho that Wednesday has at least one positive vulnerable moment, his isn't even in the top five of them and yet it informs the 'mixed signals' bluff that he tried using to get closer to Wednesday (which he ends up SUCCEEDING IN-)

at the carnival she honestly admits to him she's not used to being interacted positively with- ergo she has NO WAY to know what signals she could send at all

this out of high school guy sees fifteen year old emotionally incompetent girl that's confused by any positive interaction and the moment he can he exploits that

that is TERRIFYING to me

he was a pretty good villain dudes, i hate him so much

#don't think about the fact that he might have had an opportunity to go through her therapy files too #someone stop me from thinking about how the date was because he knew solitude made her vulnerable further- #wednesday netflix #thing i know you just wanted wednesday to wear the dress she liked but fucking tricking her into social situation she dunnos how to fix- #Thing you stupid hand catch THESE- #og post #hey how did you know im procrastinating on imprtant stuff #surely not by the fact that im actually posting

[fleshdyke]

to be quite honest there is no experience quite like catching a bird that is absolutely terrified of you. especially when you've had to do it multiple times

#there's a cockatiel flock at the aviary and one of them is disabled and she can't fly very well. but she simply does not understand this and #hurts herself trying to fly around. so we ended had to put her in a smaller cage inside the bigger cage so she doesn't fall all the time #and every once in a while she gets out bc someone didn't lock the food doors or whatever and i have to go in there like ah man gotta catch #the bird again. and she's like really easy to catch bc she can't fly well obviously but she is NOT happy abt it #and she'll start biting my hands and im like ok man thanks #rambles

[theinfinitedivides]

the next time i hear someone say that asexuals can't get married bc marriage is for 'procreation' and 'what are they going to be doing if they're not having sex/planning to have children in the future' i will deck a bitch. literally lay them out in the middle of the street and f*ck them up istg—

#y'all are going to catch these hands so hard they won't even arrest me bc they know i'm right #all of y'all can choke on whatever is shoved so far up your ass you can't even have a shred of human decency #like go f*ck someone then if you're so concerned about having sex. go get d*ck or something idk #i'm not even going to tag these with the official ones i don't need this clogging your dash #just know that i killed them in my mind for you very slowly and painfully #i love my asexuals so much <333

[dawnssummers]

by the way becoming ii grave parallels make me want to climb walls

#parallels #dawn and buffy <333 #btvs #catching the sword is like... buffy has only herself in this moment. literally take that away and what's left? me #buffy afterwards looking at the school watching ppl walk away before she herself turns to leave. the absolute heartbreak of becoming ii #and then! grave and buffy once again facing someone she loves wanting to end the world #buffy handing dawn a sword and asking for her help and dawn saying i've got your back... #the shot of them looking out at the World!! the world which didn't end and buffy didn't want it to!!!!! #the world she wants to show to dawn . buffy telling her i cant wait to see you grow up the woman you will become #the externalisation of wanting to live!!! #AND THEN full of grace vs prayer of st francis... buffy in becoming ii on a bus away from sunnydale and slaying and herself #and sarah mclachlan singing 'i know i can love you much better than this' #but then here is buffy with dawn climbing from the grave walking side by side and the song is about hope & forgiveness... 'let me sow love' #'oh darkness i feel like letting go' vs 'where there is darkness light' with the idea of dawn as first light wahhhh #buffy summers #dawn summers

[tennessoui]

I’m a little bit a lot feeling bad for Padme in couples counseling does she really think things between her and anakin are great? Part of me wondering if she knows they are not going to last. Do you think she might call it off with anakin I mean he did ditch out on their anniversary bc he can’t leave obiwan on his own for 5 minutes without freaking out

Padmé is really like “me and my husband and my husband’s emotional support Jedi master”

Jk honestly I mean. I know their marriage does get called off. It’s an obikin fic and i dont ship anidala or obianidala so theres only the one option for this fic. As for who does the calling off, I don’t know for sure yet! You’d think this Padmé would see the signs that her husband is either a) in love with someone else or b) a shitty husband or c) falling in love with someone else, but Padmé was willing to overlook child murder (twice!) for her husband and canonically wanted to run away with him and their kids instead of bringing him to justice. The ship was sinking and she was still trying to steer. Like. In canon.

So I don’t really see her being the one to call off the marriage or ask for divorce. I can see her asking Anakin to leave the Order, run away with her, they can try for children, make a family, etc etc etc. she’s even willing to go to couples counseling if Anakin wants! Work and revitalize their marriage!

(Anakin says no because he doesn’t have the time to go to TWO couples counselors)

And also I feel like it probably needs to be Anakin or Obi-Wan will never truly believe that Anakin wants to be with him instead of Padmé. Unfortunately for Padmé, I’m thinking it needs to really be Anakin’s decision to get the divorce, to let go of the attachment. For his relationship with Obi-Wan, but also for himself as a person and a Jedi.

#asks #couples counseling au #me: I dont know yet #also me: decides while responding to the asl #poor Padmé but also she can find someone else shes a catch #she’ll be alright #I really dont know how much im going to focus on her in the fic #like this fic is about obi-wan and anakin’s relationship #so any inclusion of her is going to be in regards to their relationship and not her #I just dont particularly have the knowledge or time to do that justice #and its not a fic that covers the entire post clone wars but anakin didnt fall galaxy #it’s just an exploration of obi-wan and anakin and them trying to undo all the damage theyve done to each other #padme is adjacent but not the focus; since she married anakin and the marriage is going to be discussed shes there #but yeah shes not going to be incredibly fleshed out #sorry for the Padmé lovers I like her as well #but (waves hand vaguely) budget cuts #obikin

[fragrantpines]

I have a lot mixed feelings about the second part of the event.

#it's both good and bad feelings #warning for spoilers below about story so i will take about the grinding stages first #bad: i'm going to strangle cherry with my own hands #what do you MEAN he heals 50% of his hp after his passive aoe hits #excuse my language but what the FUCK #thought second grinding stage would be as easy as first grinding stage but nooooo #as expected of the man who took 120+ pulls and refused to come home #okay story spoilers below proceed with caution #good: i adore loulan's main story a lot; the concept of evil and good which gets blurrier the more someone tries to differiate them is hnggg #also the fact that dongbi is obsessed with catching a-yu is because a-yu is what he wants to be but could never become #a fugitive who fights for his own principles in the shadows; someone who doesn't think twice before following what he thinks is right #he envies that a-yu has the freedom to do what he wants so he's desperately trying to capture him in order to prove to himself that #the path he walked down was right.... even though that costed him so many things.... too many things #meanwhile a-yu envies that dongbi has an identity; a set of principles that he will stick to no matter what #everything a-yu ever wanted was lost in that fire so he has nothing left to fight for #the thrills of theiving and the amusement of this cat and mouse chase is only to distract him from the fact that he will never get- #-what he truly wants for they've long slipped out of his grasp before he realised how truly precious they were to him #ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh god i love this event so much it's so good #please read the story with cn dubbing for full immersion it's so so good #now back to the grind for a-yu and shifu #tale of food #the tale of food #▪︎ edits #cherry biluo