#so ya girl turned 28 three days ago and immediately had a midlife crisis

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Save me skincare routine. Save me stupidly expensive skincare routine in tiny bottles

#so ya girl turned 28 three days ago and immediately had a midlife crisis #it didn’t even take very long. i opened my eyes at 6:55am on the 8th and immediately started freaking out #okay i want to clarify something. it’s not that i feel a need to perform a certain level of femininity. it’s not even that i care about #my appearance that much. it’s just that for the first time in my life i look older than i feel #and i feel really weird about it actually! that’s never happened for me before. all throughout my childhood i was told how mature and smart #i was; and i always felt like i knew it all. then something flipped when i got into my mid twenties #all of a sudden people started treating me like i knew stuff and was a functioning member of society. meanwhile i’m standing here #with like radio static in my head. i’ve been an adult for 10 years now and i still feel like i’m floundering #but i look at myself in the mirror and i see: dark circles. wrinkles. dry skin. greying hair. horribly chapped lips. matronly body #i mean some of this is just genetic; i’ve had dark circles since i was 15 and my dad went grey at 30 #and none of this is actually Bad. (except for the chapped lips). and it’s not that i don’t want to age. i’ve never considered botox #or plastic surgery and i never will. i genuinely want to look my age. i just… i’m having a hard time because during my early to mid twenties #my skin always looked fantastic despite me doing NOTHING with it. i was literally washing it with cold water and then applying moisturiser #that was once a day at MOST. most of the time i didn’t even do this. and mind you my ‘moisturiser’ was a body lotion #i also used to exfoliate with st ives of all things like… can you believe #i’d always get asked for my skincare routine and i’d just be like ‘i just moisturise when it occurs to me 😌’ #but now the reckoning has come and i’m 28 and look like i got hit by a bus. haaaaaa #it’s just like. it’s not that i want to look 10 years younger. that would be bizarre. i don’t even really want to get rid of my wrinkles #or all my blemishes. i just want to take better care of my skin so that it doesn’t get inflamed and dry and break out all the time #and water + actual fucking LOTION isn’t cutting it because ya girl is ✨28✨ #so i’m going to try cleansing balm; hyaluronic acid; facial moisturiser & spf. i think that seems reasonable #(yes i never wear sunscreen either. feel free to shoot me with a firing squad) #i just hope it works and none of the products make me break out. and also i stick to it #i tried to pick out some gentle products. so let’s just hope for the best i guess. i mean there’s always room to switch things around #personal