#so i’m still considering myself aroace for the meantime 🎉🎉

[caffeiiine]

god sometimes i rememebr i had this weird crush on my friend and k could not act normally next to her for a good month because i was having lovely internal monologues

#i was such a mess it wasn’t even funny #because i was so conflicted #every two seconds id start panicking when i was next to her like #OH FUCK does she hate me?? am i gay? ahhhhh fuck fuck fuck #the amount of times i questioned whether or not i was a lesbian during that time was insane #to this day im still conflicted over whether or not i really wanted to be closer to her or i am in fact a lesbian #i mean i haven’t had a real crush since then and that was my first real crush #aaand that was about 2 years ago? #so i’m still considering myself aroace for the meantime 🎉🎉 #i also had insane internalized homophobia about then sooooooo #real fun period of tome #sodaramblestoomuch #oh extra info #i followed her into 2 hyper fixations