#shes imperfect but she tries

[goblins-riddles-or-frocks]

forever obsessed with dynamics between vampires, specifically that of a maker and fledgling, as a way to explore abuse. the creation of a vampire itself can so easily be a literalization of the lasting impacts of trauma and also much more simply the ways a perpetrator might shape their victim’s very identity. the extremes of isolation in the way that the new vampire, in most narratives, must cut all ties to their mortal life, or else go through an elaborate charade to maintain the facade of humanity, while forever still being removed from it. and the sheer dependence and vulnerability of being in an entirely new state of being, wholly uncertain of what it entails, and relying on another person to define… everything.

#or just the moral dilemmas #rewatching amc interview is kind of making me insane #that moment in episode two when louis is looking for a sort of assurance in the fact that lestat may actually have some good in him #look at how he cares about music look at the simple wondrous things that can bring him joy #and then the immediate dread when the opera performance turns out to be imperfect because he knows how lestat will react to *that* #I think there’s also something really interesting in the highlighting of lestat upbraids the less skilled singer before killing him #(slowly) #but also I will wait to watch more before I articulate my thoughts #vampires #interview with the vampire #amc interview with the vampire #i ramble sometimes #I do still find the lestat and claudia film and novel dynamic by far the most compelling for how she tries to usurp him but almost to be him #but I’m enjoying this #I’m very curious if I will like show claudia more on rewatch #the movie always resonated most with me (sue me lol) because there seemed to be more simultaneous fondness and attachment even at the end

[francesderwent]

so I heard you wanna talk religion in ttpd! let’s talk I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can).

“they shake their heads saying ‘God help her’ when I tell ‘em he’s my man.” this isn’t the outright controlling judgment of the saboteurs in But Daddy I Love Him. nobody is trying to tell her what to do or force her to break up. this is a simple admission that the situation she’s in is difficult, that she’s chosen a hard path and needs help. and what is her response? “your good Lord doesn’t need to lift a finger, I can fix him, no really I can.” she admits salvation is needed. but Taylor is casting herself as the savior. she doesn’t need any help, any grace, any divine assistance. in fact, she doubles down: “only I can”. she and she alone has the power to reform this man, because of the love between them. it’s reminiscent of False God, except now the idol isn’t their love, it’s just her. she’s going to save him.

what’s interesting to me is we don’t know how the themes of salvation would have been recapitulated in light of the reversal at the end of the song, “whoa maybe I can’t”, because the song ends there. maybe she can’t fix him because he is ultimately unfixable, irredeemable, worthless. or maybe she can’t fix him because she’s not God. and honestly, I think the song is meant to leave us wondering. she’s waking up to reality, but is the reality his smallness of soul or her power trip?

so what is the blatant Christian language in this song for? is it telling us that Christianity is evil for implanting the idea of redemption into our minds when it doesn’t really exist? or is it a hint that trying to become our own gods, even with the best of intentions, is a pathway that leads only to death?

#I think a lot of women do have resentment toward their Christian upbringing precisely because they absorbed this idea of saving a fallen man #but what we have to recognize is #Christianity does not teach that women are supposed to save men!! #Christianity teaches that we are all saved by Christ!! #and so the answer is actually to go deeper into Christianity not to flee from it #and it’s interesting to me that this song doesn’t outright contradict that!! #the song is not about the psychology of trying to fix someone #it’s about the theology of it #Taylor explicitly paints herself as Savior and not psychiatrist #she would have died for his sins!!!!! #and so we can talk all day long about the foolishness of trying to fix someone #but Taylor paints a picture of an even more hubristic foolishness #and the answer could be either ‘he wasn’t worth fixing in the first place. you shouldn’t have tried.’ #OR it could be ‘you should’ve had some humility. you should’ve relied on the Lord and not your own strength’ #this is me admitting I need a music tag #is it a little dickish of me to post this? yes. I am an imperfect person

[depressedhatakekakashi]

Kakashi: *shows countless times in canon he cares about his students and wants to train them, but a lot of that training is outright skipped for ‘more interesting storyline’

Weirdo’s: nah, Kakashi didn’t teach any of his student’s anything and didn’t care about them at all.

#like god DAMN #Y’all can’t handle an imperfect teach can you? #you can’t handle a character who makes mistakes but genuinly tried his hest #who was thrown into the job even though he did not ask for it #and STILL did his best #‘he doesn’t care about sakura’ #WHY THE FUCK WOULD HE PROTECT HER AND CONTINUE TO SAVE HER IN ALMOST EVERY FIGHT IF HE DIDN’T CARE #‘he didn’t teach sakura anything’ yes the FUCK he did #he taught her chakra control which she obv excelled at #and a jonin level technique that allowed her to avoid being knocked out in the konoha crunch #and allowed her to wake Naruto up as well #‘he only ever tried to push his views on Sasuke’ #no he didn’t #he only told Sasuke to stop seeking revenge when sasuke turned chidori #a move kakashi taught him to face a shinobi with an impenatable defence that WANTED TO KILL PEOPLE #there is a whole year before that where he knows Sasuke’s goal and never once tells him not to seek revenge #and him not being able to connect with Sasuke doesn’t mean his intentions were not genuine #sometimes people simply don’t understand each others trauamas and struggles #even when they desperatly want to #‘he was terrible to naruto’ fucking WHERE #He chose a specific sensei to teach Naruto chakra control #recogbizing it as Naruto’s weakness #and chose a dude who was a jonin specificlly because of his teaching capabilities #as for the fucking time skip #it’s made vary obviouse even before the team splits that Kakashi and all the other Jonin are on missions constantly #that’s the whole reason Shikamaru and a bunch of genin were sent after sasuke #instead of you know #FUCKING JONIN #None of the jonin were available #they were all on missions

[anothermonikan]

Ponee (It is half 3 in the morning)

#hey she didn't actually come out too bad! #I didn't show the last time I tried to draw Sunny but it didn't look great ehe ^^; #I think Ponies are gonna have to be a digital art only thing for now cause I had the select and drag so many elements of this #to make this look right sahsdhdshsdh #Yeah despite liking ponies since I've became a conscious thing I never drew them a bunch #and well. that's because I didn't start drawing properly until I was like. 11 years old. and I was super into something else then ehe ^^; #Sorry to get personal in the tags of an mlp art thing but I do think about how I always wanted to draw but like. #I was such a chronic perfectionist as a little little kid??? I HATED everything I tried to make XD #It makes me a little sad yknow? cause like. most kids don't give a shit they just draw whatever and it's beautiful and amazing #it makes me sad that I didn't allow myself to have that! I worked backwards IG lmao #little 6 year old hating everything she tried to make for not being perfect to me now where I love when my art is full of imperfections #that's the point of art!!! Have fun!!! It doesn't need to be perfect or even “good”! #because art is about expression yknow? and drawing stuff you like! #sorry this only took like an hour this should be on a more high-effort drawing sdhdhdshsd #Also um hi to the person who followed me for MLP G5 art?? I mostly post about puters and Ultrakill and Rain World here #But I do really love ponies I need to draw them more often XD #this is my whatever blog. I post whatever interests me here hehe #MLP #MLP G5 #Android Arts #Android.txt

[ow1et]

it is so exceedingly rare to get an honest smile out of athene. at least in regard to typical, everyday interactions with people she isn't very close with. granted, she's a ridiculously good actress and the average person she interacts with would never realize that she isn't being genuine. her fake smiles are tight, small, polite, and very controlled (like most of her reactions are). but it comes across as her just being the prim and proper socialite that she's perceived as. most of gotham's higher class smile like that, so why wouldn't she? it's the same way with her laughs being short, intentionally cute, giggly, and more exhaled air than sound.

thinking about the absolute shock it probably is when someone sees her really smile because it's a bit lopsided (the right corner of her mouth always raises higher than the left) and she has dimples! she usually bites her bottom lip trying to hold it in. it's very sunlight peeking through the clouds kind of energy. also, if you make her laugh hard enough she will snort.

#her real smile being imperfect is so very important to me!!! #it goes against everything she tries to be! #idk just adore her funky little dynamics where she gets to be herself for once💛 #(even if she still feels like she's lying to everyone) #but her inability to recognize her genuine self/relate to her real reactions or emotions is a whole Other Thing #i think she doubts herself a lot #takes forever to verbalize to someone what they mean to her #because she forever feels like she's stringing everyone along to some false narrative (even when she isn't)

[cffidelityy]

ooc.

So, most of y'all know that I suck at reaching out when I wanna write stuff. So. . . I updated my interest tracker.

If you guys have the time and don't mind filling it out, I'd greatly appreciate it. I'm hoping the responses will give me the confidence to reach out better and just ya'know talk to you guys.

Also I'm her and on discord (incantationfetter) for anyone who wants to plot <3

#;out of fidelity {ooc} #;she's imperfect but she tries {mun speaks} #please forgive me i have the worst social anxiety and I have a lot of new mutuals that I'm excited about

[radishwizard]

*bzzzt* hits ur faves with my transgenderizing ray

#don't worry they've all been transed. she/he lucy <33 #also. someone remind me never to draw something with so many reflections of hands ever again #like i'm not not having fun but also i'm very ready to be done with this lmao regardless of like. anatomical imperfections #lockwood and co #radish art #id in alt text #oh also also george tries makeup too but immediately takes it off bc it's a sensory nightmare (based on a true story) #george karim #anthony lockwood #lucy carlyle

[shallowrambles]

anon, the short answer is…not really. my block style is mostly merciful, i think. i’m also gifted with the ability to forget the faces and usernames of even users i DO like, so i rarely remember who i blocked after a certain point.

one thing i do despise when ppl reblog you en masse with walls of text, cluttering your feed, then delete their responses before you can reply, or act as if as if passive aggressiveness can be erased by signing everything with “<3.” i favor directness, and that is…the opposite.

but in that case too i see the person is usually troubled…and usually literally also torturing themselves w my blog and i feel like i’m doing them a huge favor by blocking. they get to save their energy!

#asks #sam fans and benny fans seem the most…troubled #sam fans do tend to be direct tho i’ll give them that #cas fans strike hard and fast #then leave you alone and do their own thing which seems…healthy #dean fans have the most gorgeous of the rose colored glasses #esp when it comes to hunting #gabriel fans and jack fans are my faves #chuck fans tend to be hall of fame for me #personally #dean fans are sometimes chill but like w sam fans if they have a chronic illness aesthetic i get wary #deans illnesses and emotions can get romanticized #and sometimes it rubs me wrong #it’s not a deal breaker some do it soooo well #dean doesn’t get a pass on his behavior just because his emotions and lack of self worth are tragi-beautiful #but that’s most my issue with illness aesthetics in general #i think the worst of the sam fans fall into the same trap #i also vibe hard w rowena and crowley fans #dean’s behaviors are always understandable but not always good #this is why many dean fans cannot engage w later seasons and jack it ruins the idea of perfect dean #or they have to twist it in being wholly jacks fault which isn’t so good either #same way benny fans cannot reckon with his cutthroat dismissive interactions w andrea nor the reality of his dangerous addiction #no one is right or perfect in this story #sam is the funnest to pick on tho #that’s what makes it good #hands down #but anyway all of the above is why ppl cannot seem to engage w imperfect mary either #she’s a fuckup! she have an outsized rxn to hunting feeling inescapable and tried to solve the world instead it was awesome imho

[coquelicoq]

"i've always wanted to be surrounded by your things" okay mr. sap machine but i know your secret other reason is that you did the math and realized that aneki isn't gonna want to crash at your place if you live in your boyfriend's studio lol

#i was like MAKE IT MAKE SENSE KUROSAWA and then i figured out a way to make it make sense #i mean okay the REAL reason is that kurosawa isn't attached to his place; it's just another way he tried to make himself perfect #and one of the things he loves about adachi is his imperfection and how it releases him (kurosawa) from the need to be perfect #so his own place probably feels very sterile and suffocating whereas adachi's little apartment is freeing and real #at least he brought his bed to adachi's studio. for them both to have to fit on adachi's bed would get old #i like to think aneki is kind of a princess and she liked staying at his old place because it was so nice #i'm sure she got to sleep in the bed while he had to take the futon #so i don't think she would be up for slumming it in kurodachi's teeny tiny little lovenest #not that there's anything wrong with adachi's apartment! it's quite nice really. it's just 1) pretty small for two grown people to share #and 2) where is the indirect lighting? or plants???? #cherry magic #cm movie spoilers #my posts

[espercr]

𝐒𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐎 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐄𝐑 𝐆𝐀𝐋𝐀 : 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒐𝒔 𝒗𝒔 𝒗𝒊𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒏𝒔 '23

tagged by : the lovely @danversiism <3 tagging : @wnterslder , @dereiserne , & @clochanam

bonus under the cut !

#i would have put more effort into this if it weren't finals season at school but <3333 #look at my gorgeous gorgeous girl #hope in blue is just so <33333 peak vibes #✶ dash games ✶ #✶ she’s imperfect but she tries ✶ ( visage )

[vanderwoodlings]

Honestly maybe all season finales should’ve involved the gang scheming to take down a corrupt member of their social circle with increasing Shenanigan level until we just mutated into Leverage

#someone pls pitch me the au #original nonsense #gossip girl #i was thinking about the conman thing #and how it’s super imperfect but it’s also like #a fairly solid moment of serena and lily and class #and it’s done through this exploration of what justice is and means and how you use the justice system #because lily will send her daughter to prison for nothing but she’ll cover up actual wrongdoing #and serena gets one last shot at getting better and getting out as she tries to fix everything in a way that respects her sense of justice #but no #serena van der woodsen #lily rhodes #lily and serena

[gardeninggraves]

watching a reaction video for encanto and immediately exiting out of it when they dont understand isabela as a character and tear her down the entire time during her song is self care

#listen. i say this as someone who isnt even a big fan of isabella #but damn bro ur really just sitting here not caring about her feelings WHEN THE ENTIRE POINT OF THE MOVIE IS THAT THEYRE ALL NOT OK #SOMETIMES WHEN PPL ARENT OK THEY REDIRECT THEIR ANGER AND WHILE ITS NOT OK YOU CANT JUST ACT LIKE SHES UNREASONABLE AND SPOILED #you cant tell me that isabella doesnt have like. the second worst anxiety in the house. she just hides it bc she has to #the golden child/ scapegoat child dynamic between isabella and mirabel isnt just like. isa being mean for no reason #they both see each other as having it easy because they 'dont have any expectations of them and therefore dont have to try' #its about realizing how hard the other is trying and that they were so much more alike than either realized #isa resented mirabel for being messy and clumsy and imperfect because isa is expected to be the perfect example of her family #she cant mess up she has to always be aware of how others percieve her and cannot show any flaws #mira resents isabella because she is trying so hard constantly to basically make up for simply existing #and despite how hard she tries its never enough. so seeing isa being (seemingly) efortlessly perfect hurts #isa is the standard she can never reach #but the truth is they are both just sisters who have spent their whole lives trying so hard to not admit that they wish they were the other #and that theyre both just people who dont have to justify their existance or pose like some perfect little doll. theyre just people #with flaws and issues and the ability to change and grow #fuck you if you hate isa this is a pro isabella blog now #i cant hear you over the sound of mirabel and isabella working through their trauma together and growing closer as sisters #encanto #mirabel madrigal #isabela madrigal #IVE BEEN SPELLING HER NAME WRONG IN THE TAGS FML #oh well i am NOT fixing that

[starlitsequins]

i think i wouldve liked the nimona movie more if ballister and goldenloin, the 2014 blueprint of repressed old gay men who hate their jobs, werent changed to the point of being unrecognizable </3

#nimona also wasnt great but she was . better ? #idk i appreciate what they tried to do but i wish they didnt sanitize jt #the characters are messy and imperfect and thats the beauty of it #if it were a standalone my thoughts would be v different but i watched it as an adaptation #my post

[the-acid-pear]

Okay I'm home now and i can fully and freely type. Anyway mild spoilers for into the spiderverse i guess?

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Anyway uh. Yeah it... It was a tiny bit of a disappointment. It didn't do it for me at all. I feel like this movie is more of an art exhibit and i mean that as a fucking insult. Like sure the animation fucks my ears are ringing and my head aches horribly (that's on me for thinking i can be autistic and watch this on theaters) but like, the story man? It just so much (DEROGATORY).

It commits the sin a lot of spiderman movies make and that is that it bit more than it could chew. Not because they're bad at handling a complex story, but because they tried to juggle like 5 at once. And that never fucking works (my ear is still ringing and it hurts I'm in pain rn -_+ just wanted y'all to know)

Like it introduced SO FUCKING MUCH and it all was cool yeah! Just like electro was cool, and Harry, and Gwen, and captain Stacy. You know what in trying to fucking say? There's only so much you can do in 2 hours and you can just throw all you have all at once at the viewer because all you'll do is leave them disappointed wanting for more of that.

I feel like a baby. They show me this cool thing but nuh uh! Enough of that! Here's this new cool thing! But nuh uh! Enough of that- and so on. Like there were so many cool characters and ideas and concepts and shit but it could barely balance it all. YOU KNOW HOW BAD I WANTED TO SEE MORE OF THE SPOT?! HE BARELY WAS HERE!

It's like, you cannot fucking make a whole movie as the introduction to your next movie. That just sucks. You're setting yourself up for failure.

Like I'm just so upset bc it was full of amaizing things but it didn't fucking deliver in any of them!!!! And God don't get me started on the references. I think this was one of the worst ways to fill your movie with references. Like at least let me fucking process what I'm seeing if you are gonna waste so much time here, but also just... Don't make it so fucking blatant.

Like man i... This was a very experimental spiderman movie which i appreciate in a way but... It's not what I was expecting. To me, personally, it was disappointing. And also not designed at ALL to watch on cinemas. I think that last bit is just a fact.

I'm just kinda sad man. Like i loved Miles and Gwen's drama and i loved Miguel but I also wanted to see more of, you know, THE WHOLE FUCKING NEW CAST AND THE NEW FUCKING VILLAIN THEY INTRODUCED BUT SHOWED ONLY FOR LIKE 2-3 SEGMENTS MAX???????

LIKE HANDS ON HEAD EMOJI WHAT WERE THEY DOINGGGGG 😭😭😭😭

#luly talks #im sorry to the people who loved this movie i am so upset #on funnier news i found the spot is called la mancha in spanish which is funny bc mancha is what we call a common kids game #in fact i remember that the english name for that is tag we call that mancha #LA mancha #btw i did love Miles' mom having more of the spotlight it was like a little treat for us latinos fr #also. the amount of cop stuff was a bit too much. i wouldn't call it pro cop like some idiot i saw the other day but it. like. hm. y'know? #like this movie feels like an art project something you'd see the fans do and if they did you'd allow the imperfections #but it was made by an studio and there were expectatives in the table like it. it just doesn't stand on its own at all #I WANTED MORE OF PAV AND HOBBIE MAN. I FUCKING DID. HOBBIE ESP I HAVE A CRUSH ON EM #they/them too right? didnt really hear it well but I'm sure i heard em be called they #i will say tho i loved the pear shaped spiderwoman that was super cool #i did literally joke about being too fat to make a spidersona b4 watching the movie and sure she was a woman i aint but it was nice anyway #but yeah it just. it tried to chew more than it could bite. the spot was so cool tho #the spot and hobbie are my guys i love them #man I'm just sad i really am im repeating myself bc im too overwhelmed to retain thoughts so idk if im being clear but like #this movie had a LOT of good things but it delivered on nearly NONE of them #like just commit! you want this to be a story about Miles sure do that but just focus on him and that's it #dont throw in so much and leave us yearning for more bc now we have the old cast AND the new cast both and we barely saw any of these new #ppl interacting we barely fucking know them #anyway just SAD man

[kansasjustgotgayer]

Can we have someone other than lin manuel miranda writing songs for disney now? Theres a lot i did not like in encanto.

#hot take alert #WHAT was going on in surface pressure? #the transition into singing was just terrible the pacing of the whole movie was just off because of how much they wanted to do #so all of it had to go way too fast #i feel like each of the sisters should have had more cracks show sooner and they shouldve had more resistance to opening up at first #especially isabella #as SOON as she saw a cactus she started singing? no like small crisis about that that mirabel can help with #heres the scene if it were better: #i: ah! a cactus?! no no no see this is you messing with the magic again! #m: no way isa this was you! but its so beautiful i didnt know you could make something like this? #i: i didnt know either! but i cant do it again its way too different #m: why not? this is a part of you dont you wanna see what else you can do? bruno said your power would grow #m: maybe this is what he meant #i: but- its so imperfect #m: have you ever tried being imperfect? i can show you how- im kind of an expert #(cue smooth transition into a song)

[cffidelityy]

📃

I have so many scenarios running around in my head I don't even know where to begin.

Starting off, I'd really love to write more combat scenarios with Sigyn, she's a badass former Valkyire and I feel like I never get to write that side of her cause I just never have the opportunity.

I'd also really like to do more in my working for the enemy verse and baldur's gate verses. Within time I hope!

#;out of fidelity {ooc} #;she's imperfect but she tries {mun speaks} #;i don't regret it one bit {answered}